One Last Shot ✔️

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(I didn't reread, sorry grammar mistakes)

Ilaria

I walked out the car as I stepped out and started to walk towards the door before his voice came.

"Come here!" He yelled through his window making me stop as I turned around and walked to their house. I went under his window as I spoke.

"What do you want?" I asked looking up at him.

"No one is home and I can't change the bandage" he said clearly lying.

"Call the nurse" I said ready to leave again.

"Oh come on! You want me to bleed till she comes? No exactly now come to my room." He said which made me close my eyes as I exhaled.

I walked towards the door as I turned the knob and walked in to the empty house. I walked up the stairs as I pushed the door open and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed as there was no bandage around his chest.

"Where are they?" I asked walking towards the bathroom as I grabbed the bandages and walked back to him.

"Could you stand I wouldn't be able to do it like this-" I said which made him stand as his shadow covered me.

I looked up into his eyes as he licked his lips which made my eyes follow. I shake the thought out of my head as I unbuttoned the bandages and took it around his chest.

I felt his scent flooding into my nose trails which was only making it harder. I closed my eyes as I licked my lips and took a view steps away.

He broke the distance I made which made me look into his eyes.

"Looks like you're nervous." He said making me open my mouth but nothing came out.

"I'm not." I managed to mumbled which made the corner of his lips turn into a smirk.

"We both know you're lying about what you said the other day." He said again making me look up as I walked closer to him that my chest hit his.

"And we both know that you aren't able to be in a relationship. So I'm not gonna be just some game for you to come to when you're bored." I said not breaking the eye contact.

Non of us looked away as I only grew weaker under his shadow. But I refuse to give in. Not this time. He need to know that if there will be anything between us it wouldn't be him coming to me each night after fucking some random girls.

"Well what about this- will you be my girlfriend?" He asked making my eyes widened. That was definitely not what I was expecting.

"You don't know what you're saying-" I said before I turned my back and decided to leave. I felt his hand getting on the wall beside me as he trapped me between him and his arms.

I turned back to him as he spoke.

"You said I'm not being able to be in a relationship yet you are refusing to be my girlfriend-" I cut him off.

"No because you have no idea what you are saying!" I said in a loud tone.

"This isn't just something you will do for a couple of days- this means there is no fucking around with every fucking girl you see" I said making him speak.

"And I never said I will." He said making me sigh as I leaned on the wall.

"You're my step-bro-" before I had the chance to finish he cut me off.

"I'm not your fucking step-brother. So stop saying it unless you want me to fuck the word out of your system." He said sounding pissed as I spoke.

"It's the fucking realty Ryder. Our damn parents are married." I said trying to make him realize that this isn't some kind of joke.

"Well I don't fucking care Ilaria!" He yelled this time making me look down as I closed my eyes and exhaled.

"I can't even imagine you with someone else and I need you to fucking understand that because if you don't then I'll commit a murder-" he started making me open my eyes as I looked at him and grabbed him by his face.

"Fine." Was all what I said before his hand went around my waist as I pushed my mouth onto his.

"But if I fucking see you with someone else we'll break up as if nothing happened and you'll leave me alone." I said between the kiss making him speak.

"I'll not." He said pulling away.

I hope he is serious cause if he isn't then this will be so much over.

I pulled away as I took a view steps back and spoke.

"Should we tell our parents?" I asked looking into his eyes.

"No. Cause they both don't deserve to know." He said his jaw tensing suddenly as he turned his back and walked back to the couch.

He sat down as I walked and sat at the edge of his bed and looked at him.

"Well then I'm leaving before they come." I said as I stood up and got ready to leave.

"Come here" he said making me turn around as I looked at him. He was already looking at me his eyes glued at my body.

"What?" I asked still standing in my place as my eyes were looking deeply into his eyes.

"Move in here." He said making me open my mouth but nothing came out.

"R-Ryder I can't-" he cut me his off as he stood up and I took my fingers through my hair.

"Why not? We're together now." He said making me sigh as I looked up at him and spoke.

"I can't. I hate my mother and I can't imagine seeing her everyday after what happened." I said being completely honest.

"Do it for me-" he said grabbing my hands.

"Please..." he said after a long silent which made me look into his eyes.

"What are we telling them then? Or are we gonna act like we're sister and brothe-" he cut me off by placing his hands on my hips as he pulled me into a kiss making me shut up.

"Honest. We're gonna be honest from today on if you'll stay here and I want you to stay." He said placing his forehead on mine as his eyes were closed and I could feel his scent through my whole body.

"We'll tell them tonight. And we both know we don't care what they think or are gonna do. No one will get you away from me." He said his eyes still closed as I pushed my lips back on his and his tongue got inside my mouth.

He pushed my hair away as I pulled away and I wrapped my hands around his chest. He did the same as I closed my eyes and for the first time in my whole life I felt save.

And it feels strange. I don't want to get used to it, because I know it won't last.

"I-I'll go and pack-" before I could consigned he cut me off.

"I'm coming." He said as I pulled away and spoke.

"No no it's fine I'll just grab the important things and I'll come" I said before he kissed me and I turned around and walked downstairs.

I opened the main door as I got outside and headed towards the house. In the middle of the road I turned around and saw him standing and looking over at me which made me smile.

I opened the door as I walked in and heard towards my room. I sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at the white wall in front of me.

I was sitting not being able to name what I'm feeling right now.

It's like the hole inside me still was there.

It's like love isn't what I thought will fill the empty hole inside me. And now I've realized that not even love will fill what's been drained.

Nothing will. Even though I do admit that I like him.

It's just that- nothing will ever do.