More Than One Night

chapter twenty-two

Aurora

I stretch my arms over the bed sheets as I wake. I had such a restless sleep last night. Anxiety rushes over my body at the thought of talking to Logan this morning. I love him but I can't be treated like this again. 

Mentally I am much stronger than I was when I was with Jake, and I need to focus on myself. My work, my family, my friends. I can't throw a relationship into that. I feel like we both just aren't ready for that.

Throwing the sheets off me I jump out of bed and head for a shower. It's only 7am so I doubt Logan will be awake anytime soon after his drinking session last night.

Once I've freshened up, I start packing all my things I have here into a couple of bags. My chest tightens knowing this will be the last time I'm in Logan's apartment.

I hold my arms around my body, biting my lip nervously as I stare out of the window, watching the world go by below.

Suddenly I hear a throat being cleared behind me. I spin around to find Logan in the doorway, his shorts hanging dangerously low around his lower half, showing off his toned torso and that sexy V leading to his huge-

I gulp shaking my head from those thoughts.

"Thank you for staying-" He mumbles, staring at me as my arms tighten around myself.

I nod and look down to my bare feet.

"Wait, why is all your stuff packed?" Logan steps over to the bed seeing all my things in two small bags I found in the cupboard.

"I think we should talk."

"I've fucked things up haven't I?" His voice dry and husky.

The next thing I know his hands are cupping my neck, the touch of his thumbs on my jawline making my emotions all over the place.

"Tell me what I can do and I'll do it. I'll fix this, please tell me."

His hands bring my face up to look at him. Emotion swimming in his bright blue eyes, making them appear lighter.

"I'm so sorry baby. Please tell me what I can do."

"I just think we need some time apart Logan."

"I love you Aurora. I love you so much."

He brings his forehead to mine, his eyes shutting and his hands holding my neck tighter. A single tear drops down his cheek.

"I know I have a lot to work on. I know that. But I can't lose you. I-"

His voice cracks as he speaks which brings tears to my own eyes.

We can both feel this is it.

"We can just have some time apart for a bit and work on ourselves-"

"But we can do that together, I don't want to be with anyone fucking else!" His grip on my my neck slightly shaking me.

Tears are now running down my cheeks. I thought I would be stronger than this knowing we could have some time apart, but we love each other, it was never going to be that easy.

"You don't want me. This is happening all over again." He steps back running his fingers through his hair. His wide eyes darting around the room.

"I just think we have a lot to work on and I want to focus on my internship and not have to worry about us. It's not about me not wanting you."

"So I'm fucking things up for you. I know it's been a lot this past week Aurora but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"It's just what's best for us right now."