Out Of Touch. - a Caspar Lee Fan Fiction - discontinued UFN

Chapter 29

*Charlie's P.O.V*

"Alfie!" I hear Caspar scream as Alfie walks in the front door.
"Hey Caspar. Where's Zoe?" He immediately asks.
"Oh, she's upstairs, I think she went to the bathroom." I say, pointing at the staircase.
"Oh hey Charlie!" Alfie says laughing.
"Hey." I reply with a nice smile.
"So she's upstairs did you say?" Alfie asks.
"Yep," I say, looking up the stairs. Zoe just had come to the top of them. "Actually she is just up there." I explain.
"Ah, thanks." Alfie says, leaving me and rushes over to Zoe.
I feel really kind of left out here. There are a few people around me but none are talking to me. Not even Kayla. She's off with Joe talking about something.
I sit at the bench and just stare into space.
"What's going on?" I hear behind me.
"I don't know, nobody's really talking to me." I reply to Caspar.
"I am." He says, rubbing my back reassuringly.
"But nobody else. You always talk to me. Look even Kayla is getting along with everyone. She doesn't know anyone." I say.
"It doesn't matter. It isn't a competition is it?" Caspar asks.
"No..." I trail off.
"What's going on Charlie? I'm serious." Caspar says, sitting down on a chair, facing me and holding both my hands in his.
I can't tell him the truth. He'll think I'm weird. And a creep. And moving too fast. I want kids - now. I've wanted kids so early my whole life. I know that I'm probably not ready and it won't happen now. I just want it to happen.
I can't have Caspar thinking I'm weird or coming on too quickly or anything like that. I don't want to rush things. I just desperately want to have a child.

We had discussed names before, but I wasn't sure if he wanted kids right now. I just love the idea of little people running around, playing with their friends and just their curious nature. Everything about children adored me. I was once an annoying little person so I don't tend to get annoyed at little kids. I love everything about them.
While everyone else gets irritated by them, I adore everything about them.

"Charlie?" Caspar asked, squeezing my hands a bit tighter.
"Hmm? Yeah?" I replied.
"Are you going to answer me?" He asked.
"What was the question? Sorry..." I breathe out.
"What is going on?" He asks sternly.
I sighed.
"I know this won't happen until maybe later in life, maybe not at all. But I want kids. I really want kids. Okay sorry that was really straight forward. We're hardly at all into our relationship. So I will give it time but you deserved to know."
I have wanted kids and I know we wouldn't be having them anytime soon.
I looked up at Caspar and he just sat there and smiled.

"Thanks for being honest. I won't lie, I have thought about it. But we'll leave it for a while. I think that's best, we're still very young."
Caspar reassured me with a smile.
He was completely right. I wanted to be with Caspar for the rest of my life, but anything could happen and we've hardly been in a relationship for long at all. I hope nothing ever happens to us that would make us break up. It would break me. I wouldn't know what to do.

"Off that subject, do you want to help me film?" He asked.
"Sure." I replied and we walked to our room to film. 

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