burning bibles ; phan [COMPLETED]

♡ peony petals ♡

dan

something was wrong. phil must have been running late this morning because he barely made it to class on time and he had barely looked at me all day. during study hall, he didn't even give me a glance. chris, phil's friend, i think noticed something was wrong too. chris glanced at me and then ask phil something, phil seemed to just ignore him. something was wrong.

lunch time finally came, i had grabbed an apple from the cafeteria and then snuck away to the library.

i headed towards the back, where me and phil were yesterday, where i kissed him.

the memory flowed into my brain, my heart was pounding again and felt light headed. everytime i thought of me and phil kissing, it was like i couldn't breathe.

i waited for a few minutes, just looking at the books when finally he showed up.

"hi dan," he said softly when he approached me. i smiled at him. but he didn't smile back.

"can we talk," i asked back in a low and quiet voice?

phil just nodded.

"you don't seem okay, did i do something wrong?" i really couldn't help but feel like this could be my fault. i thought maybe i scared him last night with my words and calling him baby. but i couldn't help it. and after that i kissed him before he went home and he was still so stunned. it was like i read his mind or said something no one could possibly know. i didn't know how to explain it.

"i'm okay, i'm just feeling.." phil paused and looked at the ceiling. his eyes looked glossy like he was going to cry.

"i'm feeling nervous," he whispered and looked at he with those worried eyes.

"me too," i admitted, and heavily let out a breath i was holding in.

"i'm nervous when i'm around you already, it's just i have no idea to what even call what we are doing. i like it a lot, but i'm scared. and i don't want to do this too fast." phil took a deep breath. i bet it felt good to get that off his chest.

"phil, i couldn't agree more. let take this as slow as we want, we don't need to label anything." phil nodded and a small grin formed on his face. this made me feel a lot better.

"you make me feel crazy," phil was spilling, all his feelings, "like i'm going pass out from exhaustion, but its also like you give me so much energy i don't want to be away from you." my heart my aching for him. the words he was saying was making my head spin with all new feelings. how were we suppose to keep this a secret? i wanted to grab his face and kiss him right now, i wanted to scream to the world that phil lester was mine.

"oh phil-" i was about to spill everything to him as well, but then someone approached us.

"hey phil, i need to talk to you! oh sorry.." it was zoe sugg. somehow, joe sugg's sister was nothing like him. she was actually friends with everyone at school. she was in my friend group and phil's. but now she just ruined the mood accidentally. all i could think had how suspicious we looked stand in the back corner of the library together.

"you're fine zoe, me and phil were just talking about homework," i started to back away, phil's face looked terrified and red with embarrassment. i didn't think zoe heard anything though.

"see you later phil," i said and quickly turned around and walked away from them. i turned down the next aisle of books and peaked through top of the books through the open shelf to see what zoe was going to ask phil. i wanted to make sure she didn't ask him about us.

"well, phil i was just wondering if you were going to try out for choir this year?" zoe asked him.

"uh, i'm not sure, i didn't really like the new teacher last year," phil replied.