burning bibles ; phan [COMPLETED]

♡ maple syrup ♡

phil

chris was staring at me, gobsmacked. i didn't want to look at his shocked face anymore. i told him what just happened and now we were sitting in the library for study hall. dan wasn't here yet. i had no idea where he was, either getting in trouble or still beating matty's ass.

"you're kidding right?" i shook my head. chris was still shocked about matty grabbing me and dan punching him.

"i'm gonna get killed chris, there's no way alfie can protect me from them," i said quietly so no one could hear us.

"that's not true, don't think that," chris said with a frown, but he knew i was right. he had to know.

suddenly the front door to the library slammed open. dan stood there looking so disheveled, his brown hair was messy and his face bright red.

"mr. howell , take your seat," the librarian ms. shelly hissed at him with her narrow deep eyes. dan rolled his own at her and marched over to me and chris. the whole room was staring at him. his eyes looked wild, his lip was slightly bleeding. dan grabbed the chair next me and threw himself into it. chris and i just stared at him. i watched his tongue swiped the blood on his lips smearing it, making his lips turn cherry red.

"what?" he said with his eyebrows furrowed.

"that was quite an enterance," chris said rolling his eyes as he began to work on his math homework.

"dan are you okay?" i asked him. he just nodded.

"do you have some water or something?" he said looking uncomfortable. i nodded as i pulled out a water bottle from my back pack and handed it to him. i watched him chug the entire thing. why was everything he did so fucking hot?

"what is going on?" i whispered leaning closer to him. dan wiped his wet mouth with the back of his hand and set the empty water bottle on the table.

"don't do that baby," dan whispered in my ear. i leaned back away from him, confused.

"do what?" i said back with frown. dan snickered at me. his dark eyes glowing. i really didn't see him like that anymore, so dark and hostile. he was sexy, he was dreamy. but he had this terrifying grin that i knew meant he was up to no good. and why did i always want to be part of it?

"you're leaning too close, i can't control myself right now," he smiled. i smiled back. i couldn't help it because his smile was so contagious. he was contagious. i wanted to drown in him.

"dan," i rolled my eyes at his flirtatiousness, "tell me what happened?"

"i put him in his place, like always," dan said shrugging like it was no big deal. my mouth opened, like i wanted to say something but no words came out. chris was still working on his homework and dan was now trying to secretly roll a blunt under the desk. my world was trying to go back to normal but nothing felt normal about this.

i couldn't help but stare at the bible that was in front of me laying on the table. my anger was building up inside of me. anger towards god, and what a coward he was. mother had burned into my brain the power and love god held was suppose to provide you with happiness and good health. all i got was pain and suffering, if mother didn't want me to go hell it was too late, i was already there.

we all sat in silence the rest of study hall. and most my thoughts drifted to dan leaving because i was still trying to comprehend that he was really leaving soon. i had just got him! it had only been two weeks and he was being taken from me. after lunch, dan and chris walked me to ms. randall's class but we went our separate ways when we all entered the class room to get to our seats. joe sugg glared at me as i walked past him. my heart sank. my perfect world i thought i would have was falling apart fast.