Thoughts, Memories and Dreams From Long Ago - A Poem Collection.

From a father that lost his daughter

Do you remember the birth of the spring?

The breeze that the season would bring to our house?

The youth of the flowers,  the hue of the sky?

The dark birds that flew over clouds of pure white?

Do you remember the way we would laugh?

Drawing shapes in the heaven above us?

Do you remember, wherever you are

The love that only was ours?

Do you remember? Cause I do remember...

When I used to say, -and believed to be right-

I will protect you from the dangers of life

no need to fear, now that I'm here

I'll lead the path, you follow right behind

And I used to say, do what I say

But thank god you always did things your own way

Charmed my cold heart with you love and your kindness

Now what remains is my hate and your silence

Where is your laugh? Where is your voice?

This dreadful quietness is the worst type of noise

I wish I could go back in time

To when you were well and alive

Because now I am stuck in this hell

Forced to cry out my goodbye

If all of the words that I wrote on my own

could buy me one minute with you

I would trade all my poems, my thoughts, and my work

and the books that I chose over you

I would set the pen down

I would would shut my damn mouth

And would listen and listen without sharing my doubts

I'd let you go out, in the night and be loved

I'd let you do whatever you must 

To grow up and become wiser

I'd only be an advisor

And I'd say to you softly - should you follow your heart-

Don't repeat the mistakes that your mother and I

made in our youth, and have paid with our lives

I don't want you to lie and I don't want you to hide

Just tell me whatever, and I swear I won't mind

Confess that you love him and I won't start a fight

I won't be the sad little man you despise

But what I did say

And why did I say it?

Made you shut me out

And fly far, far away

Daddy knows best

Daddy knows all

Do what you hear

And don't make a sound

Daddy know best

You're safe and sound

And from this house you'll never get out

Oh, how I wish I could go back in time

To when you were well and alive

Because now I am stuck in this hell

Forced to cry out my goodbye

And now I'm here, reading your epitaph,

And regretting my sins and my faults

My goddamned stubbornness

And my failure to see I was wrong

I was wrong!

Daddy never knew what was best!

Daddy was a stupid, dumb liar!

Daddy had lovers, but never knew love!

Daddy should have stayed quiet!

I knew nothing at all

But know that I loved you

I wish you were here now

I wish you were around

I wish I wasn't a fool. 

I wish I could be with you.