Thoughts, Memories and Dreams From Long Ago - A Poem Collection.

The Big Sad

I swear I'm not depressed

I'm just tired all the time

And not I'm crying on my bed

For all the joy that can't be mine

If you see me dressed in black

With a rope hanging from my neck

Please remember that I'm not upset

That my life is not a mess

If you get the news that I

Sadly passed away last night

Please remember that I was alright

I was doing perfectly fine

Just ignore all the clear signs I gave

And forget you ever heard my name

I don't want to cause you any pain

By giving up and walking away

I don't want to break your heart in two

After seeing all that I went through

And the monster that I've turned into

I don't want this happening to you

And I would apologize

For taking away my own life

And you'd finally relax

And have some peace of mind

But all those empty words

Would mean nothing at all

After what you've seen

In these white hospitals halls

After all the screams, after all the cries

After all the anger that was born tonight

But I swear it will be fine

I swear you'll be alright

The cut will always sting

Even when it scars

But someday you will see

The stars and you will think

I can live with this

You'll find peace at last