Bound by Fate, Broken By Love - A Taekook Fanfic

Chapter 31

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The city view was mesmerizing. Bright lights overpowering the darkness of the night, making the streets buzz with energy and life, the tall buildings accompanied by the busy traffic. From the outside, it seemed hectic, noisy and too fast but from inside the building, where the noises couldn't get in because of the soundproof glass, it all looked so very beautiful.

Taehyung leaned on his desk, a glass of whiskey in his hands as he stared outside. He was still in his office because of a late video meeting with investors from USA. He had already called Jungkook and informed him, worried a little that his mate would be all alone but his worries vanished when Jungkook told him that Yoongi and Jimin were there with him.

After Nari's death, Yoongi had finally shifted back to Korea with Jimin. So atleast Taehyung didn't have to worry about Jungkook being alone so much as Yoongi and Jimin made sure to check in on the omega every once in a while.

Namjoon stayed seated on the sofa, a whiskey glass in hand as well, waiting patiently for Jin to finally come back from updating the projects team about the new developments from the meeting.

Taehyung was silent. Too silent and Namjoon could just tell that there was something bothering the younger. Despite all Taehyung's past mistakes involving Jungkook, Namjoon knew in his heart that Taehyung was not necessarily a bad person. Sure, he has made some very awful mistakes but atleast he was trying now to fix it all.

"Tae? I know something is bothering you. Wana talk about it?", Namjoon asked as he stood up to walk over to Taehyung, standing beside the younger, leaning against the desk as well.

Taehyung seemed deep in thought, before he responded.

"Hyung. Can- i- uh.. fuck... can you tell me how you knew you loved Jin hyung?"

Namjoon was surprised. Out of everything that he was expecting Taehyung to voice out, this was not a topic that was on that list.

"Hmm... that's a very interesting question. I'm assuming you are asking because of what you feel for Jungkook?"

Taehyung bit his lips harshly. That's the thing, he doesn't know what he feels. He doesn't know what to call it. Does he like his mate, or does his simply care for him?

Or does he love him? Is this love? Or is it just a product of his guilt? What is it really?

How can one explain the phenomenon that is love?

How can one differentiate between love and simply affection?

"I.. I don't know hyung. I feel things for him but... I don't know what to call it. What is love exactly? How do I know if I'm in love with him truly or if what I'm feeling is just because I'm guilty? How do I differentiate between that?"

Namjoon smiled. It was endearing to see how much Taehyung was struggling to understand what he felt. It showed that the younger didn't want to confuse his feelings and hurt Jungkook unintentionally. Atleast that was a progress.

"Love is different for everyone Tae. Some people.... they find love just randomly and it hits them like a bus, knocking them off their feet and making them feel like they are in the clouds. For others, it feels like falling in a deep abyss, unable to stop and unable to control it. It's never the same for everyone. "

Taehyung groaned, frustrated. "Then how do I know if I really love him or if it's just.. fuck hyung.... I don't know what to do.."

"For starters, think about what you feel. Tell me about it and maybe I can help you understand it", Namjoon offered.

Taehyung sighed, picturing Jungkook's face and those damn starry doe eyes.

"I... ", Tae began, " I didn't feel like a bus hit me or like I was falling hyung. I don't feel giddy or feel butterflies like those damn articles on the internet say. There were no fireworks and no burning flames. There was nothing of that sort, nothing that articles and fairytales indicate as signs of being in love"

"Then what do you actually feel Taebear?", Jin interrupted his mate and his younger brother. He didn't mean to eavesdrop but then, he couldn't help but listen because this is the first time he has seen Taehyung behave so flustered.

Taehhung sighed, moving closer to his elder brother, seeking his comfort. Jin has been angry on him for a while but right now, he really needed his elder brother's comfort.

Jin slipped his arms around Taehyung's waist, bringing him into a side hug as he hummed.

"What do you feel Taebear? Tell us so we can help.", Jin mumbled out.

Taehyung sniffed the comforting scent of his brother, calming his emotions which were going haywire because of how scared he felt. He was so confused. He doesn't want to mistake his feelings of guilt with love. That would not be fair to Jungkook. And Taehyung doesn't want to hurt his mate anymore than he already did.

"I don't know hyung. I don't have the signs of being in love.  So it is really love?"

Jin chuckled. "Tae, my pabo baby, love isn't just supposed to be constricted in the fairytale versions you know. Love can be so different for everyone. See, for Joonie and I, it was different too. I knew I loved Joonie when I felt like I couldn't breathe without him. He gave me butterflies yes, but he also gave me tons of strength. And that was when I realized that I was in love with my mate. So tell me, how does Jungkook make you feel?"

Taehyung entangled himself from the embrace, turning around to fill his glass with more whiskey as he spoke softly,

"He makes me feel like I'm home. It's hard to explain hyung. I don't get butterflies with him but I feel comfort with his presence. I don't need to touch him or be pressed against him, just feeling his presence in the house is enough for my heart to feel content. Like I'm finally home...."

"..He.. he makes me feel like I'm free. Like I can be free from all the expectations that society has of me as an Alpha. I can just be myself with him because I know he won't judge me. He makes me feel like I can be loved hyung. He makes me feel like I belong. Like I can finally belong to someone. Like I can belong to him and that thought just makes me so fucking happy. His voice has become my favourite melody and I just can't stop myself from smiling everytime I imagine his cute giggles. It's everything I want to hear for the rest of life. And his eyes, hyung, his eyes look like someone just grabbed all the stars from the galaxy and just placed them there, in those dark black orbs which shine so brightly. I could stare in his eyes for the rest of my life and I would never get tired of the view...." Taehyung sucked in a deep breath, voice choking as the emotions he feels for Jungkook became too much for him.

"...He makes me feel so much hyung. So fucking much that it feels overwhelming. Like it will consume me whole and yet it feels like it's not enough. I just want to keep feeling more. He just... it just feels easy hyung. It feels easy to be with him. It feels easy to belong to him. And it feels easy to feel so much for him that I don't feel scared of feeling so much. All I feel scared of is losing him. I feel scared of losing my home in him. And that is terrifying. It's terrifying how easy it is to feel everything for him. Like how can love be so easy? If it was easy, don't you think everyone would be happy? It feels too easy and that's what confuses me. Is it love if it's seems so easy? Or is it just my guilt that is making me feel all this? What is it hyung ? Please... just... help me understand"

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*peeks from behind the curtains* Hi

So... hehe...what do you guys think? Do you think Taehyung is in love with Jungkook? Or is it his guilt that is making him feel like he loves him?

Also, tell me what love is for you guys? How would you define it???

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