Bound by Fate, Broken By Love - A Taekook Fanfic

Chapter 41

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Taehyung was still in tears, and Jungkook just felt like his heart was breaking into a million pieces right now.

He couldn't tolerate seeing Taehyung cry. Not like this. Not over something like this.

"Tae, look at me. Please"

Taehyung looked up, only to see tears running down Jungkook's cheeks as well.

"No, why are you crying, baby, please don't cry"

Jungkook laughed amidst those tears. The Alpha who is himself crying is telling him not to cry. What was happening?

"I won't cry if you don't cry."

Taehyung immediately nodded, rubbing his eyes, willing his tears to stay and not escape.

"Deal"

Jungkook looked so endeared by that gesture. He felt his heart burst with adoration for the Alpha who looked like a innocent child in front of him.

"Tae.. I don't know how to explain to you that it wasn't your fault. But I'm going to try okay?"

Taehyung nodded, albeit a little hesitantly.

Jungkook took a deep breath, preparing himself for the conversation because this was one of his darkest secrets. Something he has never shared with anyone.

"Tae. Ever since I've understood what living meant, I have felt like I couldn't ask for more. I was an orphan. Then the jeons adopted me and gave me a home. I always had this voice at the back of my mind telling me that I didn't deserve anything good. That I didn't deserve any love or care or affection. And I always had believed it because I was so afraid. Even I couldn't understand what I was so afraid of but it was like my brain was programmed to think like that. And now I understand. What Halmeoni did to me, what she said to me, it left an imprint and I understand now why I couldn't accept your affection. "

Jungkook held Taehyung's hand gently into his own, bringing it to his mouth and pressing a small kiss on top of it.

"When you started to change and treat me differently, treat me like you care, it just... it just fucked up with my brain. Don't get me wrong. I loved the way you were showing me you care, I... it made me feel like I could finally mean something to someone but that voice in my head, it just kept screaming at me. Kept telling me I don't deserve your sweet words. That I don't deserve your attention. I started to believe it. I tried so hard not to but I couldn't help it. I started to feel like I was stealing away the affection that was meant for someone else. Tae, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel like you were the cause of my trauma. You weren't. You... you can't be Tae because.."

Jungkook paused, searching Taehyung's eyes for any hint of reluctance, for any hint of disgust and when he couldn't find any, he continued, "because for me Tae, you are my safe place. I feel safe with you. I feel at home with you. I don't know when I started to feel this way with you. Or when I started to associate my comfort with you but it just.. one day you just became that safety net for me. And so no, you weren't at fault. You never were. I can't begin to tell you how grateful I am for the affection that you have provided me. It means so much to me. I swear. So please don't blame yourself. "

Taehyung stayed quiet, just staring into Jungkook's doe eyes which were filled with sincerity.

"We have so much in common koo", Taehyung said after a while.

"Huh?", Jungkook looked at Taehyung all confused.

Taehyung let out a small laugh, shaking his head slightly, making his curls bounce.

"You and me koo, we are so similar. You said that you feel like you don't deserve my affection right?"

Jungkook nodded, still puzzled.

"Well my dear Jungkookie, I have been feeling the same way as well. I also feel like I don't deserve you. You are too pure for me. Too beautiful and too kind. I feel like I will only corrupt you and hurt you. I... I have already hurt you so much in the past. I feel like I don't deserve your kindness. I know I don't even deserve your forgiveness for what I put you through. And I have this constant fear that I will fuck things up again, and that you will realize you deserve so much better than me"

Jungkook looked surprised and perhaps, mildly offended.

"Taehyung. How can you think like that? I can't find anyone better than you, my alpha. I don't want any better because you are all I want. And yes, our past is fucked up but you changed and you are making our present so beautiful. So don't think about the past okay? You are here now. I'm here now. We are together and that's all that matters. You deserve all my affection. You deserve all my attention because I'll only ever be able to give it to you"

Taehyung smiled, nose meeting Jungkook's in an eskimo kiss.

"Then use those same words on yourself baby."

Jungkook blinked incredulously, "Huh?"

"How can you think that you don't deserve my affection koo, when you are the only one for me too. You are my blessing. One that the most goddess gave so preciously to me to take care of. And I'm so lucky that I can call myself your mate. Just being a part of your life is a privilege baby. You deserve every bit of my affection because it's all for you. I don't want anyone else but you koo. I want to shower you with as much happiness as possible because seeing you smile makes me feel so happy. You, Kim-Jeon Jungkook, are my euphoria and I wouldn't want it any other way. So for once, take your own advice yeah? Don't think about the negatives. Just live in this moment and let me show you just how precious you are to me. Can you please do that ?"

Jungkook was at a loss for words, just hearing Taehyung speak so earnestly, so sincerely made his heart ache with joy and his soul content with happiness. That nagging voice that was screaming at him just minutes ago suddenly disappeared, because right now, all Jungkook could hear was Taehyung. All Jungkook could feel was Taehyung.

And honestly, for the first time, jungkook wanted to believe that he deserved this. He deserved to feel like this.

"Baby, I'm going to ask you for a promise now, will you grant me one?", Taehyung asked, fondly caressing Jungkook's cheekbones.

"Yeah?"

Taehyung smiled widely, "when the day comes where you can finally believe and accept all the affection I have to offer, will you let me know by marking me and making me yours forever?"

Jungkook's breath hitched, heart racing as he felt butterflies in his stomach.

"Can you give me that promise Koo?", Taehyung asked again, pressing his lips on the side of Jungkook's mouth, right on his jawline.

Jungkook replied breathlessly.

"Yeah, I- I promise"

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I feel diabetic wtf🙂

How do you guys feel so far??

Also, I posted this today cuz I won't be updating tomorrow as I have work till 8pm and I will reach home by 9pm and I'll be drained asf. So enjoy!