Wherever You Go

Chapter 6

" I will marry you, if that is what it takes" she says, pronouncing each word carefully, clearly. Yagiz feels his insides twisting and as if he is about to pass out. This woman is insane. Of course he already knew that when he fell for her. But even he didn't estimate this much. Without thinking Yagiz take hold of Hazan's shoulders, gently lifting her from the ground. He guides her again towards the couch, prodding her to sit. Yagiz sits next to her and talks to her, like he is talking to an invalid.

" Hazan, come to your senses. You are not ok. What are you saying?" he shakes her gently, his fingers lingering on her bare upper arms longer than he meant to do. Hazan shivers at the intimate touch, momentarily distracted from her iron resolve. Her eyes close briefly as Yagiz's warm fingers find themselves glued on to her upper arms and it feels like electricity generated is palpable. Hazan shakes her head finally, breaking the spell and his arms falls to the side.

"I know you hate me. That is ok. Give me 6 months with you? I will give the divorce if you still don't want me, I promise. I will sign it in writing. "She grips his arms this time, tight enough and electric enough for him to wince and to make him lose all this thought process. Her eyes are pleading, brimming with tears. She looks as if she cannot stop.

"I am not trying to trap you and I am not after your money Yagiz. I cannot let you go like this. You will cut me off. I cannot wait years without you. If marriage is what is required I will do it. You are not obliged in any way. I promise . I will set you free. Please please Yagiz" She unconsciously scoots closer to him, still gripping his arms, their faces almost touching. With her so close , everything that Yagiz wanted to say just flew from his mind. He is not bothered about her trapping him or about his money. He is not too bothered about marrying her for wrong reasons. 

Marrying her for whatever reason just sends a thrill up his spine, because it was something he never expected to happen during his lifetime. Even though he is disappointed in her and does not have trust in her, he has loved her like crazy for months and still completely overwhelmed by her. But he knows this is something she will regret. What about her mother? Ece? What will they say? Won't she regret when they scold her? It was still difficult to comprehend that she will give all up to be with him, specially when he has outright rejected her. She was leaving everything to go to Germany, he knew, but things have changed so much since then.

"Hazan I... Hazan please listen to me...." Yagiz tries to speak but her bottomless eyes intent on him and her arms tightening on his forearms and her proximity to him is having a devastating effect on him.

"Yagiz please?" a tear drop finally falls from her eye and travel down her silky skin, leaving a wet trail down her cheek.

"Hazan. Are you aware of what you are saying? How are we gonna get married before noon tomorrow?" he says finally, and knows it is a lame answer. But he always ended up doing lame things next to her.

"Yagiz, tell me ok or not?" she is unrelenting and totally on his face. Instead of being annoyed Yagiz feels something tight in his chest, suffocating him since the day he knew of her betrayal, easing up a little bit. A tiny sliver of warmth invading the deep cold pit that was his heart.

"Ok bab... Ok Hazan. Ok" If she caught his slip with almost calling her baby, like he has called her in his mind so many times, she shows no acknowledgement, but her shoulders drop, as if she was holding her breath for an hour.