Wherever You Go

Chapter 18

"Hazan I want to explain about the photos. I saw them only a little while ago" Yagiz starts again. He doesn't know why he is so desperate to explain it. Hazan does not even seem to care about it. At the other end Hazan holds her breath.

"I did not know that Farah was going in the same flight. I did not answer her calls since the incident at the dinner." Yagiz says earnestly and Hazan feels the burden in her chest easing up a little bit. Hope, tiny and fragile, starts to raise its head in her mind. He would not bother explaining so much if he didn't care right? Specially when he had just heard that his sister has died and father is in intensive care?

"Ok Yagiz. You really didn't have to explain it to me " Hazan says, hoping that none of the jealousy and disappointment felt by her is evident in her voice.

"Yes I know it doesn't matter to you. But I don't want to look like a liar or an imposter" Yagiz says in a searing tone. He knows that he is hitting below the belt, but he is annoyed, though he doesn't really know why. Did he expect her to rave and rant and question him about Farah? Only if she cared that much. He thinks bitterly.

"I know you are neither of that Yagiz" Hazan says, though his words cut like knives.

"It's early morning there isn't it?" Hazan asks and Yagiz wonders whether she is monitoring the California time already.

"Yes. It's 1.30 am now" Yagiz says as he settles in the couch, feeling tired all of a sudden.

" And you must be drinking" Hazan says and Yagiz shakes his head incredulously.

"Did you install a hidden camera in my phone or something?" Yagiz asks and Hazan could feel his tone getting lighter.

"So I will take it as a yes" She says careful not to sound like she is reproaching him.

"Yes Hazan. I am drinking without sleeping. So shoot me. So what are you doing?" His question surprises her. Does he really care what she is doing? Or is he asking just to spite her?

"I went to meet the lawyers since they asked for some additional documentation and now on my way to meet Nil" She says without thinking and she can feel him tensing , even across oceans.

" Why are you meeting Nil?" Hazan can feel that Yagiz is trying to make his voice sound normal. But she could feel the undercurrent of controlled agitation in every syllable. She curses her big mouth. That was unnecessary information and it is bound to create unpleasant strain in their already frayed relationship.

"Um Yagiz we are dissolving the partnership and Nil wanted me to come to sign some documents" Hazan says praying that this will go well. Yagiz was desperately trying to bring himself under control. She is referring to the partnership that Sinan threw him out of. The partnership where a major part of his money was spent and it just went down the drain. Whilst Sinan got him out without a penny, Hazan, Sinan and Nil are still partners. There are unsold goods and patents and trademarks and whatnot. He was in a way glad that she is getting out of it but he is not comfortable with Hazan dealing with them.

" Hazan, why are you trusting this woman again? I don't know what that vile woman has planned this time." Yagiz says angrily, and this is not even his real problem.

"I did not. I spoke to a lawyer and will be only signing with his approval."

"You could have spoken to my lawyer" He says accusingly.

"I spoke to a lawyer. Isn't that enough?" Hazan asks with that infuriating logic of hers. Yagiz finds himself gripping the glass harder and harder, until he fears of a repeat performance of the ill fated engagement night.

" Why you are not ready to talk to your husband's lawyer?" He says nastily and Hazan just stops by the roadside to absorb that. She feels unexpected warmth spreading through her body at the word husband. True, they have got married, but until then she never really considered him in the husband context, maybe due to the fact that this marriage was not like that. But she feels such joy at that word, which she enjoys even if that will not last long.

The moment he says it Yagiz feels it too. A sensation that can only be described as joy goes through his body, realizing that he is actually her husband now. Even if it was done for entirely different reasons. This was what he did not dare to hope but has been longing for since the day he saw her being arrested. He was not aware of his feelings for her by then. But he felt such an urge to protect her from the world that he started questioning his sanity, because at that time, he still believed that Hazan was negotiating money from the company for that initial modeling fiasco. Since then he has dreamt and hoped and was disgusted with himself for his thoughts of making her his.

" Of course not. I will speak to him readily. Specially because the lawyer is in a better mood than the husband" Hazan says in her mischievous tone and Yagiz find himself smiling and relaxing his fingers on the glass. But he does not feel comfortable about her meeting Nil and possibly Sinan.