Y/ns pov
" yknow I'm starting to get the feeling dads avoiding us" five sassed
" yeah, no shit sherlock " I replied harshly earning a chuckle from lila
" yknow i hate to be the boring one guys" she piped up " but we need to get the hell outta here."
" when you say we who exactly are you referring to?" Asked five
" Not alot of ambiguity in that sentence " she replied in confusion
" listen " five explained " I dont know who you are , or where you came from. But whatever it is, I advise you return post hast"
" five" I went to grab his hand and calm him down but he shook me off. I retracted it and hugged myself in shock, he never does that
" shes right five" Diego tried to convince him " we gotta get outta here"
" I just saved your life you kinder shit!" Lila exclaimed " if I hadn't stepped in all that wouldve been left of you is a blazer and some bloody socks! "
" and that is the problem " five replied " you're to good, you ask to many questions, you know to much and you fight like you know what you're doing."
" hes got a point " deigo agreed
I decided to keep my mouth shut.
" so , I know how to handle myself and that makes me the bad guy?" Lila furrowed her eyebrows
" who ever you are you're in my way, if I see you again. I will kill you" five threatened
He walked away, she kept looking back to him ,then us.
" guys we need to go!" She said
" I was getting my ass handed to me back there and you helped five not me--"
" I'm gonna go, bye . " I said in a rushed tone. I had no time for this, my head was throbbing. I was really hurt because of five and because of the swedes. I was guilty because of the adrenaline rush it had given me, I wanted to cry, curl into a ball and forget about what I've been doing with myself for the past twenty odd years.
I blinked into Elliotts bathroom and looked into the mirror above his sink. I was shaking.
I splashed water over my face and let it roll down my cheeks and nose.
" come on" I said smacking the sink " just calm down "
I rested my head on the cold moist porcelain bowl and breathed
" it's fine, you're fine" I told myself
I began to smoke a cigarette and grabbed a bottle from the side that five had clearly left in here earlier. But it wasnt enough.
I began scowering the room for anything, drugs. Medicine. Numbing shit. Anything that would make me feel less
AHHHHH
Yknow?
I was going through the cupboard when I found it . Bandages conveniently placed next to a clean razor blade. I stared at it
I've already done this before
But it healed within an hour because of klaus' ability to come back to life.
What's the worst that could happen?
I began slicing my arm. Wincing when I got to any particularly sensitive spots
And soon enough the tears started rolling down my cheeks
I places the razor down and bandaged both my arms quickly.
I kept slipping over and over again
" come on!" I yelled as tears streamed down my bloodstained face
I gave up and fell the ground curling up in a ball
" you're so stupid " I said to myself " that shouldn't have made you happy, or excited! It should've been scary, what's wrong with you?!"
I cried so hard my eyes began to sting .
Fives pov
I watched deigo enter Elliotts house, I was sat on the couch
" wheres y/n?" He asked
" I thought she was with you" I sat up properly
" she blinked away while I talked to lila " the younger man replied
We suddenly heard a scream from the bathroom and our eyes went wide as we looked to eacother
" y/n."
We both ran over, it was locked. I grabbed deigo and we blinked in.
I saw blood on the sink, on the floor and it trailed to y/n. Who was covered in blood sweat and tears (a/n my fave bts song😱)
" shit" deigo said out of breath
" go away" she sobbed , hugging her knees tighter. I noticed multiple cuts on her arms and gasped.
No
I hadnt let this happen. I'm such a bad boyfriend .
" I said go away!" As she yelled energy exploded from her body. Vanyas power , she began to tense up as I took a step closer
" y/n" I said softly " it's just me, can you sit up. Please ?"
" o-ok" she said shakily
I helped her into a cross legged position
" I'm sorry " she sobbed looking down at her arms " i-i just, I d-didnt--"
" hey" I cupped her cheek " no need to explain, I shouldve noticed something was wrong" I kissed her gently then again and another ten more times before she giggled and shoved my hand away " I could do that all day if youd let me " I chuckled " I love you.."
" I love you too" y/n smiled , she winced when i went to hold her hand though as my fingers grazed her open wound
" oh shit " I said apologetically "let's get you fixed up"
" not yet" she replied shaking her head lightly " I dont wanna leave right now"
I looked to deigo, he shrugged
" ok... what do you wanna do?" He asked
She didn't respond, instead burying her face in my chest and wrapping her hands around my waist knocking me to the ground as she did so
I got as comfortable as I could on the hard ground as she nuzzled into me
Aww, she wanted to cuddle
" cutie" I whispered in her ear
" shut up...hargreeves..." I could tell she was falling asleep and decided to wrap my arms around her too until she was lightly snoring.
I blinked us into the spare room and tucked her under the blankets
" goodnight darling " I smiled ,the dimples in my cheeks more visible then ever
She began to toss around abit and it was only when her arm came out off the covers did I realise the cuts were healing at an extreme rate
Holy shit.
