He looked at me probably waiting me to continue or say I was joking or something but really I had nothing more to say. I didn't mean to drop this kind of bomb on him but it's no point dragging this for long. He deserves to know.
Him: so where would that leave our relationship?
Me: what do you mean Melo?
What did he mean?
Him: you talking about moving across the world Yandiswa. Where would that leave us? Yesterday when you asked me about working abroad, is this what you were talking about?
Me: I need you to understand and put yourself in my shoes here a...
Him: it's not fair Yandiswa. I just got you and now I'm supposed to just watch you take off? I cannot lose you Yandiswa. I don't want to
I got on top of him and cupped his face.
Me: you not going to lose me, especially over this. this will be good for my career and it will get me the right exposure I need for future purposes.
Him: then why does it feel like I'm going to lose you
Me: you will never lose me Melokuhle.
Him: that's exactly how the relationship ends
Me: so what? You don't trust that we can make this work?
I was a little hurt that he thought this little of our relationship. I mean I believe we can make it work, he should believe that we can make things work. He and I love each other and our love for each other should not be measured by distance and time. I love Melokuhle, I know it hasn't even been a year let alone 6 months but I love this guy and I can imagine a future between us. call me crazy but he is the first guy I actually see a future in, I just wish he saw the same in me.
Him: I love you Yandiswa. You know I do but this? you leaving the continent? I don't know
I got off of him. it was pretty clear where we stood with this mos.
Him: where are you going?
Me: my place. I need to breathe
Him: Yaya come on
I took my bag and everything and walked out. He was begging me not to go but I couldn't stay, Melo was being unfair! Not all of us are born privileged as him, not all of us get to have a father and mother as powerful as his parents. On my way out I bumped into Mr Bess, literally. I was holding back tears.
Me: I'm so sorry
Him: are you ok? you seem a bit shaken
Me: I'll be fine sir; I have to go
Him: you sure you ok?
Me: Yes Mr Bess I am ok. Good day
With that I walked away to through the kitchen and went out. I asked one of the drivers to drive me to my place. I didn't even feel the distance because my mind was just elsewhere. Who am I kidding? I know where my mind was, I was thinking of how selfish my boyfriend was. He kept calling and I kept ignoring, I couldn't talk to him now, I didn't want to talk to him at all. He parked outside my gate and I thanked him and went inside. I found Ledi in the kitchen making something to eat.
Her: I didn't think you were coming back
I put my bag on the floor and my phone and keys on the kitchen counter then sat on the high chairs. I couldn't respond because if I did then I would cry and I wouldn't be crying out sadness or something but it would be tears of anger and I didn't want that. I was so mad at Melo over this. this is my future we were talking about, aint like I was even asking permission but I was telling him so that he can be prepared in case I leave.
Her: Yandi you ok?
She was standing on the other side of the counter with her face rested on her hands with her elbows on the counter looking at me.
Me: yeah
Her: what did Melo do?
Me: he thinks he's going to lose me
Her: aah that's cute
Me: he doesn't think he and I can't make this distance thing work Naledi
Tears rolled down my cheeks, the tears I had been holding back found their way out of where they belong and slid down my cheeks.
Her: Melo loves you.
Me: that's what I thought until recently. It's like he doesn't want me to succeed and be the person I aspire to be. This is going to take me places Ledi, he is supposed to support and not shut me down over this. this is my future
Her: make him understand that then
Me: he's stubborn and he won't listen
Her: Melo loves you, he almost died because you were mad at him. he risked his life here and if a guy can do all of that for you then I have no reason to doubt the way he feels about you. Make him see things the way you see them and find a way forward from there. The reason relationships die is because of miscommunication
Me: I don't know
Her: Melo has all the means to come and visit you when he can and so will you. I read this thing online about this thing you going to and I learnt that the money earned from the pieces you sell will come to you and they will also give you an allowance, a place to stay and they will buy you a ticket to go home for those long holidays.
Even I didn't know that, all I knew were the little details my lecturer told me and that was that. One would think I wasn't interested or anything like that but I only heard of this yesterday and I didn't think that such news would be available online. My phone rang, I was about to end the call when I saw Asemahle's name and picture pop up on my screen.
//Her: you left, just like that
Me: I'm sorry
Her: what's wrong? You ok?
Me: yeah I'm fine. I'm sorry I left without telling you
Her: did you and my brother have a fight?
Me: can we talk some other time
Her: I'll call you again later ok
Me: sure. Bye
Her: bye babe//
Her: just think about what I'm saying ok babe
She kissed my forehead and went back to her pots. I went through my phone and looked at the dozen missed calls from Melo, the messages begging me to call him back or to answer his calls. My phone rang while still in my hand and it was him calling. I got up and took my bag and went out answering his call.
//Him: Yandiswa where are you?
Me: I'm at my place
Him: don't ever scare me like that
Me: ok
Him: I was worried about you Yandiswa!
Me: well I'm fine Melokuhle
Him: can we talk about this please
Me: what's there to talk about, you made it pretty clear that you are against me doing something I love
Him: you know that's not true! Yandiswa I want you to go places, I love you and I will always support your hustle and do anything I can to help out and you know that!
I kept quiet
Him: Yaya I love you, maybe a little too much than I should and I am terrified of losing you Yandiswa. I know we can make this work but you can't blame me for being scared like this. I'm scared you'll meet someone better there and I'm worried we'll drift apart
Me: we won't drift apart if we don't want to. Relationships are about working together babe and trusting in each other that we will make it work through thick and thin
Him: I want to believe that Yaya, I really do but things happen. Things we don't intend for to happen
Me: nothing will happen on my side
Him: and nothing will happen on my side. I'm in this for the long run babe
Me: you promise?
Him: do you promise?
Me: of cause I do
Him: I do too. please don't ever leave like that again
Me: don't make me leave like that too
Him: I will try not to babe. So we good?
Me: of cause we good.
Him: tell me you love me
Me: I want to hear it from you first
Him: what? You've been hearing me say it. heh yazi you almost got me in trouble for leaving like that
Me: how so?
Him: you bumped into dad when you dramatically stormed out and the old guy walked in here all concerned about Dr Gxaba's daughter and what I had done this time and then there was my sister too who came looking for you
Me: it's good to know that your family loves me
Him: don't get comfortable
I laughed at the way he said it. there was something about Melo which I never understood. I don't get why he made it so hard to be mad at him. I have tried from time and time but it never lasts 24 hours. His charm is way too much even for me.
Me: whatever babe. You love me
Him: riiight. Bye
Me: bye babe
Him: I love you
Me: I love you too
There was silence.
Him: why aren't you dropping the call?
Me: why aren't you?
Him: so you won't get mad if I drop it on you now
Me: of cause not
Him: ok bye for real this time.
Me: bye babe//
After the call I was left smiling from ear to ear. This guy did things to me you guys. I took a shower and then went to join Ledi in the lounge, she was eating spaghetti and meatballs watching The Haves And Have Nots, a series by Tyler Perry. I sat next to her
Her: someone seems better
Me: we spoke and he was actually understanding
Her: told you to make him see reason
Me: I didn't have to make him see reason. He just saw it himself
Her: ncoooh you guys
Me: yeah. So where's my plate?
Her: in the microwave.
I got up to fetch it with a fork and poured some sauces then went to join her. We stayed up all night eating snacks and enjoying the drama of the first season and then we went to sleep in her room and we cuddled too. The next day I woke up and prepared us breakfast and took it to her in bed, she was all smiles and happy. I got a call from my newly founded step mother asking to meet up for lunch and then we dropped the call.
Her: and that?
Me: that was my father's wife asking me out for lunch
Her: nice, you going?
Me: I don't know. what could she and I possibly talk about?
Her: you would be surprised ey. Give her a chance
Me: so you say I should go?
Her: what do you have to lose?
I nodded and ate my food and then she went to wash the dishes while I did the bed and went to prepare for this lunch with mummy dearest. After showering I called mom and told her about the exhibition and she said she was going to be there and she was with me 100% about going to study abroad and we had a great conversation about Melo and I, we also spoke of my step mom and she told me to let my guard down and take a leap of faith with them as a family, they might not be bad people. After the 1-hour conversation with my mom, I lotioned my body and then got dressed in a simple pink dress and a sandal, took my things and called her to tell her I was done. She parked outside my place and I walked to her car, she drove a two door Benz with red leather seats. We went to have lunch in Gateway. When I was there for dinner we never really got to my studies. It was about how I grew up and where I grew up and what my mother did for a living... those little things.
Her: so what are you studying now?
Me: I take pictures or paint them... either than being a pastor's wife, what else do you do?
Her: I own a boutique in Cape Town, Joburg and here
I nodded
Her: so are you going to the art exhibition next week?
Me: yeah... I kind of got invited
Her: oh wow that is nice. I am proud of you
Me: thanks
I really didn't have much conversation with this woman and I think she picked that up.
Her: look, I know you and your father got off at the wrong foot the first time you guys met but I can assure you that he is a great man and a great father
Me: of cause you would think that. He was there for you throughout all of your pregnancies I'm sure
She chuckled, not because I said a joke but her chuckle was sarcastic
Her: what happened between your mother and your father years ago is their business and I enter nowhere because I wasn't there but this much I can tell you, he would have loved to be there for you as he has for the rest of his kids
Me: except he didn't do anything. He didn't try to contact my mother or me and you can't say we changed addresses or states because my grandmother still lives in the very same house she did 19 years ago and also the number my grandmother used back then is a number my mom has been using for a very long time now so what's his excuse for not being there? What's his excuse for not trying?
Her: it was what was best for you and your mother
Me: don't give me that bullshit
I said rolling my eyes.
Me: there is no such thing and you know it.
I took my phone and was about to take my bag when she put her hand over mine
Her: please don't leave. I didn't mean to upset you
Me: you don't know your husband from 19 years ago
Her: but I know him from 16 years back and I can tell you this much, he has changed
Me: whatever makes you sleep at night.
Her: can we talk about something else please?
Me: I would love to but I have plans
Her: can I at least go drop you off at your plans?
Me: fine
She settled the bill and we walked out and went to her car. I asked her to stop in front of Sihle's flat. He and I had a lot to talk about, he got back last night says he has a supp. Sihle walked out to open.
Her: so is this your boyfriend
Me: now... Sihle is my friend
Her: oh
She nodded as though she disapproved but really I didn't care. Sihle greeted and she greeted back with attitude, I didn't mind her really. I just got out of her car and took my things and walked out to the Gate with Sihle
Him: and then? Who was that?
Me: the step mother. Don't mind her
Him: step mother? You have a step mother?
Me: not really... it's a long story
Him: I always have time. let's go buy something to eat.
SIhle leaved in Berea. We walked to Berea centre to buy junk and went back to his place to get stoned and talk about the drama he has missed out on while he was on holiday and I was back in Durban. I even told him about Melo getting in an accident on his way to me and a whole lot.
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With Pain Come Love 2
General FictionYaya and Melo are back with their drama, things can only go down hill from here on before they can change for the better.