With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 45

-Yaya
I woke up and mom wasn't by my side. Damn this guy's cologne is really strong, he's not even here but his bed smells just like him. I got up and found mom's phone in the pedestal. I looked at the time and it was just after 7. I dialled his number and it went straight to voicemail. Seriously Melokuhle. Really now???. I kept trying until mom walked in all dressed up with a bowl. I put her phone down.
Her: morning
Me: hey.
Her: how are you feeling?
I shrugged my shoulders. I needed Melo to explain to me, help me understand everything. Why he would leave with her. He owes me that much. She touched my chin and looked at my cheek.
Her: does it hurt?
She said touching it
Me: i'm fine. Anything from Melo?
Her: I brought you cereal. You need to eat so I can take you to the doctor
Me: no. I need to know if Melo has called or left a message or something. Where is my phone?
She stood up and went to her purse on the chair and took it out and handed it to me. I switched it on and I had a dozen missed calls from pretty much everyone. I called him again but still no luck.
Me: dammit!
I walked to his bathroom and opened the water waiting for it to get hot, I need a long bath yes but right now I just want to get my mom off my back about this whole doctor thing. She was overreacting because my face wasn't bad, it was only pink... like I got slapped but that's as far as it goes. I got out and wore his t-shirt with a pair of sweatpants I didn't even know I had left here until I raided his wardrobe. When I was done I tied my hair up and went to gaggle with his listerin and then we headed down. Talk about a welcoming committee, everyone was here except his parents. I hugged each and every one of them and then Asemahle followed us to the door
Me: has he called or left a message or something?
She shook her head
Me: you sure?
Her: positive. We'll talk when you get back ok honey
She hugged me and then I went to mom's car and we drove off to Amber's hospital. They did every possible check and everything was fine, as it should actually.
Me: can we please start at netcare
Her: ok... who's there?
Me: Sino... well on that day I was taken her mother called me telling me that she was in a coma
Her: oh my God!
Me: yep. Epilepsy
Her: that's terrible.
We drive of to Gateway and parked in front of the hospital and then I called her mother.
//Her: Yandiswa
Me: hey
Her: thank Goodness you're ok. I read it on the news and on Facebook that you were missing a...
Me: i'm fine Ma. I'm here at the hospital, which room are you guys in?
Her: I'm coming to fetch you right now//
We waited until she showed up. She looked frustrated, she had bags under her eyes, it was just bad. She hugged me thanking God I was alive and well and then she broke the hug and she and mom shared a sympathy hug.
Me: how is she?
Her: still no change. I just... I don't know
Me: she's going to be fine. She's a fighter.
Her: im slowly losing hope Yaya. Thank you for coming thou
Me: she's my sister.
We walked into her room and she had pipes connected to her mouth help her breathe. I sat down and took her hand into mine and kissed it. I said a few words and then we left. We got back at the Mansion around 10, my friends were gone and it was just Siya, Iya, Banele and Asemahle.
Ase: why the hell isn't mom answering her damn phone?
Iya: I wasn't even supposed to tell you until we know how he's doing
Me: is everything ok? Is it Melo?
They all turned to me. Tears were already burning my eyes.
Me: Asemahle where is he?
Her: he was in an accident this morning
Me: but he's ok right?
In my mind I was thinking of the worst case scenario and their faces weren't telling me otherwise. I wanted to convince myself that he was fine but nope,who the hell am I kidding? Asemahle shook her head
Her: he was brought in unconscious
Me: wh...
I felt my knees going weak and I just sank to the floor mom tried to touch me
Me: no. Don't. Just don't
Ase: he's going to make it
Me: this was his plan. He had this all planned out
Tears were rolling down my cheeks. I was angry and hurt. How could he do this to me? How dare he save me at the cost of his life? I felt someone wrap their arms around me, it was Iyana.
Her: he's going to be fine. He's going to wake up
I shook my head. Melokuhle has to wake up. He can't do this to me. Hasn't he put me through enough?
Me: where is he?
Iya: mom and dad are working on having him transferred this side but he suffered a lot of internal damage and brain trauma. It's not safe to move him until they can stabilise his brain
I don't know medical terms but that sounds serious. Why would he try to kill himself
Ase: atleast that bitch is dead
I didn't care about Miranda. All I cared about was my boyfriend. How dare he do this to me? I can't live without him. He has to come back to me. I need him. I just cried in Iyana's arms until I had no tears left in me and I was just left with hiccups. She helped me stand up and we went to sit on the couch and Ase gave me a glass of water with sugar to calm me down. Iya's phone rang and she answered it aside. She came back after a while.
Ase: what did mom say?
Her: they managed to stop the internal bleeding so he'll be here later today
Ase: so the worst is over right?
Yana: not really because doctor says he might suffer from memory loss
Me: but he's going to pull through right?
Yana: yes there's hope
Me: please excuse me.
I got up and went up to his room. Don't ask me why I went to his room but I just needed to smell him, feel his presence and just be close to him some way. I don't know but all this was just painful and I just wished he could walk in that door and pull me into his arms and comfort me and tell me that everything will be fine. Tell me that he is ok and he's going to pull through. I won't lie this memory loss piece isn't really sitting well with me, what if he doesn't remember his life where I exist in? What of he remembers life when he was still with Miranda or the time he was whoring around the whole of Durban?
"Don't do that to yourself"
I turned around and Asemahle was standing by the door leaning on the door frame
Her: he's going to wake up asking for you
Me: what if he doesn't remember me Ase?
Her: then we will make him remember you. Love like the one you've shown him and taught him is not easy to forget. My brother is lying on that bed fighting to come back to you Yandiswa and nobody else
Me: he thinks I hate him and want nothing to do with him
Her: he would never think that. Melo would do anything to come back to you my friend
We were sitting on his bed with my hands into hers. She seemed worried about me. My mom had it the worst, I'm sure it's painful seeing your daughter cry for an asshole who's done nothing but hurt her continuously. Mom knows how much I love Melokuhle even after everything but she doesn't get why I'm still with him. If it were up to her she would lock me up in her house and make sure I never see him again just to keep my heart safe. The thing about love is that nothing is promised. You can be happy through out or you could spend every night crying alone waiting for him to come home but that's also the beauty of it. The mystery it holds. The ups and the downs. Knowing that one day it will all be okay and the tears will be worth it in the long run. I have no doubt in my mind that this is the man I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. The love he has for me and the love I have for him is a once in a lifetime thing. So many people struggle to find their soulmate at such a young age and he and I were fortunate enough.
Me: i'm scared
Her: me too. What happened? Did they hurt you?
Me: that girl is shiit crazy. She blames me for her being admitted into a psych ward. Says if I hadn't meddled in her life then she would be peacefully dead with her child but instead I took Melo away from her and made him hate her for losing their child.
Her: how are you still alive?
She said laughing
Her: such craziness is enough to send you to an early grave mami! That girl belonged in a psych ward
Me: it scares me
Her: what does?
Me: this power he holds. Miranda sin was to fall in love with him. What if I end up like her? What if I turn into her or like the rest of the others?
She shook her head
Her: ha.a! Don't do that. The difference between you and these girls is that he loves you and you love him back. Melo would have never tried to kill himself twice by the way for any of them so honey stop tripping because my brother is madly inlove with you and he is determined on a future with you
Me: what if Asemahle? How certain am I that what I went through these past two days won't happen again? What surety do I have?
Her: non. You have a choice to either stay with him despite everything or give up and all of this would have been for nothing and you spend the rest of your life with a dozen what if's
I kept quiet trying to imagine my life without him and nothing. I've always pictured my life with him in it and the thought of my life without him had never met once crossed my mind and I don't want it to.
Her: I know know you've been through a traumatic experience and I'm not trying to talk you into staying but I hope you know just how much that man loves you honey
I just nodded.
Her: think about it ok?
She kissed my forehead and walked out just then mom walked in. Lord save me now!
Her: you really love him huh?
Me: you have no idea Ma. I thought that this experience would make me hate him with a passion and walk out on him but the minute that door opened I was hoping to see him, I wanted to be in his arms more than anything. I love him so much it hurts
She just nodded.
Her: I hope you know what you doing. I saw how crushed he was over your disappearance, he was barely functioning and now that I'm seeing you go through what he went through I'm seeing just how much you two mean to each other. He's not my favorite person but if you want to marry him then you have my blessings
I kept quiet. Did my mom really just say that??? Wow! I wonder. I hugged her
Me: thank you mom
Her: just finish school and build your career first
Me: I understand Ma
I hugged her again. With every storm comes a rainbow. Mine certainly came with one.