With Pain Come Love 2

Melo 16

I can't put into words the way I feel. It's a mixture of rage, worry and hurt. My sister is in a hospital bed because some asshole just couldn't keep it locked up in his pants and the. There's my girlfriend who is oceans away from me, almost got raped. I don't know. That horny boy has better pray we never run into each other because of we do it will be the end of him. I don't get how Yandiswa gets to be this chilled over this, what if she didn't have a tazer? What I'd he had done something to her? I asked her to quit alcohol for such reasons, to avoid such incidents. Girls need to understand that when we ask you to quit something, it's not cause we don't want you to have fun but it's for your own good, your own safety. If she didn't drink, she wouldn't have had to been there in the beginning. I tried to calm myself down before going back inside the room, I needed a breather. I walked back in and the room was dead silent. Iya was sitting right where I left her and so was mom. Dad wasn't in the room, he probably went out to make some calls. I stood by mom and rubbed her shoulders. She was torn apart by this. Ase was laying on the bed curled up like an infant facing mom with tears streaming down her eyes.
Me: wheres dad?
Mom: he's out making some calls
I nodded. Just as we were like that, the door swung open and Aunt Jen, Siya and Siyabonga walked in.
Siya: I came as soon as I got Iya's text. What happened?
She looked at mom who had teary eyes.
Jen: Amahle what happened to my niece? Where is Damon?
Me: some guy from our complex took advantage of Melody
Siya: what do you mean took advantage of her? He raped her?
She asked with a bit of anger and hurt in her voice. I nodded. She walked over to the side Ase was facing.
Siya: I can't lie and say it's going to get better. I can't tell you you going to be fine because you won't bug this I can tell you, you have a great support system around you and we will help you get through this my baby.
Dad walked in.
Mom: did you find him Damon?
He nodded.
Mom: excuse me.
She said getting up out of the chair to her husband and they walked out together followed by Jen.
Her: can you guys please get out!
She just snapped shocking all of us.
Me: no. You can't be alone. I'm not going anywhere
Ase: JUST GET OUT! Please
Bonga and aunt Siya walked out and left me & Iya.
Ase: Melo please.
Her voice came out as a whisper. Broken and ready to cry. I looked at Iya who shook her head.
Iya: we not going anywhere
She got on the bed behind Ase and cuddled her.
Iya: you need me as much as I needed you when I lost my baby. We not leaving you Melody.
She kept quiet without any fight in her. Dr Mars walked in.
Dr: hi. I just came to check up on the patient and how she's doing. Asemahle there is a therapist waiting outside, in case you want to talk.
Ase: I want to go home. Can I go home?
Dr: we still need to keep you for a few days to make sure that you are fine
Ase: I'm not sick, I was raped. Can I go home?
Me: Ase please
Dr: at least talk to the therapist and then we'll discuss discharging you
Ase: am I prison? Of mental institution? Why should you have to talk to someone else in order to discharge me?
The doc stood there not knowing what to say.
Iya: at least wait for the results and then you can go home. Ok babe
Iya looked at the doc
Dr: your results should be back tomorrow morning
Iya: thank you.
The doc walked out and our parents walked in.
Mom: what did the doctor say?
Iya: that she needs counselling and that she would be out tomorrow
Mom: isn't that a little bit soon?
Ase: I'm not going to stay here any longer mom
Mom: Asemahle you need counselling baby
Ase: I need to go home.
Seemingly all my siblings and I hate hospitals, it's funny because hospitals have done anything to any of us. but then again I think we don't like that whole being taken care of and given unnecessary attention.
Mom: Asemahle yo...
Ase: I'm not going for counselling and that's that. Dad have you found him?
Dad: yes, baby
Her: I want to see him
Mom & Dad: No.
Dad: that's not happening.
Ase: dad I need to see him
Mom: No. Fuck No Asemahle! Seeing him will only take you back to the trauma he caused you baby
Ase: who stopped you from visiting Amanda?
Amanda is a nanny who molested our mother back when she was a kid, when she was about 5 years old. The woman made mom do despicable things to her, things no child should do at that age. But eventually the truth came out. Mom went for therapy until she was mentally fine with everything and then years later she went to visit the nanny, to get some closure and she got it. Mom looked at Asemahle with her jaw on the floor.
Dad: your mother is only trying to help you
Ase: I don't want help. I don't want your pity. I don't want to be here. God I just want to get back to my life as if this didn't happen
Mom: and for how long are you planning on avoiding that it happened huh? You go about your life and then what? You start drinking and then what Asemahle?
Dad: Amahle calm down! She's hurting, more than you are. Let her deal with this the way she sees fit
Mom literally lashed out on. Insensitive as it may be but I understand where she is coming from. Things left undealt with have a way of coming back to haunt you.
Mom: Asemahle I love you and I don't want to bury you. Not anytime soon. You my daughter, you the one that should bury me and not the other way round. You can't avoid this; I understand it hurts baby. I know it hurts but this attitude won't make it less painful, it will only make you feel worse and it will lead you to do things you don't want to do baby. Please.
Her voice was so low and each word was accompanied by the pain she was feeling as a mother. It was just painful. Who would have thought my little sister would go through something like this?
Mom: please just get help
After a while mom suggested I go home and change into something more comfortable and bring my sister some clothes. I started at Ase's flat and it was cleaned up, like the mess from earlier was not there anymore. I went to her closet and packed up a bag and went to put it in my car and then went to my place. When I got there Olona was standing outside the door wearing a trench coat and black heels. Her weave was shoulder length and it had gold highlights at the bottom, her lips were maroonish, she looked beautiful, sexy AF.
Me: what are you doing here?
Her: I'm here to see you.
I sighed. What was she doing here? This girl is nothing but a temptation. Everything she does is effortless. In my head I wanted to rip that coat off of her and sex her to sleep, I needed this, I needed her right now, I needed to have her at my mercy, doing everything I want her to do without any questions asked, I needed to blow of some steam, release a little bit of tension and just forget everything that's happened in the past few hours.
Me: clearly I didn't make myself clear this morning
Her: I thought you'd know me by now. I always get what I want.
She said dropping the trench coat revealing her banging body in lace. Yaya was all kinds of beautiful and her body was just as beautiful but Olona, Olona's body looked like it was made for nothing but sex, she was all kinds of sexy and her tattoos complemented her body well. I just stood there and admired her, Yaya will have to forgive me for tonight because really I can't help myself here.
Me: put on your coat and let's go!
Her: where?
Me: to your place.
She picked it up and put It on.
Her: why not here?
Me: we not going to have sex on the bed and the sheets I sleep with my girlfriend on
She looked at me and shook her head, I think that statement kind of hit a nerve. The distance from my place to here's was plus/minus 30 minutes. We got inside her apartment and I attacked her with a kiss which she didn't hesitate to respond to. I took her trench coat off while still kissing her hungrily (It's been a flipping month since I last had this so please don't judge me), she helped me take my t-shirt off, I picked her up against the door and she wrapped her legs around my waist and her hands around my neck while mine were digging on her but cheeks making her moan in pleasure. I took her to the counter and continued kissing her while taking my pants off. She broke the kiss
Her: are you sure you want to do this?
I nodded. She went down and took my boxers off and then started stroking my dick slowly then she put it inside her mouth and started doing things I can't even put into words. Her head game was different kinds of levels, some porn shiit. She was that good, I could feel myself coming and that only pleased her even more, I was groaning! She looked up at me and smiled with her eyes permitting me to cum inside her mouth and I did just that, she swallowed and then she inserted a condom on my D then came up to kiss me. I placed her on the counter and went in without warning making her scream my name in pleasure. I started off slowly and then picked up my pace and went in and out faster making her scream louder, I picked us up and led her to the lounge where I flipped us over into doggy style until I could no longer hold myself but cum in loads calling out her name. When we were done I took the condom off and went to dispose of it with her walking right behind me.
Her: want to talk about it?
I didn't respond but instead I went to the kitchen to put my boxers on.
Her: you leaving?
Me: you know I have a girlfriend
Her: how could I forget when you called her name out when you were cuming
She was mad. But she has no right to be.
Her: I know that we just fucking but have a little respect for me Melo. I'm not some hoe you picked up on the street.
This whole time I was getting dressed and not responding to her. She was tripping over nothing; she knew what we were doing in the first place. When I was done I headed to the door.
Me: move.
Her: what's wrong with you? What's bothering you?
Me: my sister got raped and my girlfriend almost got raped. Now move out of the way!
She put her hands on her mouth in shock.
Me: MOVE!
I roared and she moved out of the way and let me leave. I got inside my car and drove back to my place, passing by a liquor store and getting myself a bottle. I got to my place and started drinking one glass after the other, I stopped on my third remembering I still needed to go back to the hospital. I went to take a shower drowning myself in my guilt. Yaya would be so disappointed in me; this is the last straw for her. I kept thinking of how she would react to this, she would hate me for this especially after everything. I felt shitty. I can't keep hurting her like this. When I was done showering I got out and dried my body then I lotioned and got dressed in sweat pants and a t-shirt with a sneaker and then drove off to the hospital.
Iya: took you long enough
Me: I needed to process everything
Her: why what's up?
Me: Yandiswa almost got raped
She put her hands on her mouth.
Her: Oh my God how is she? She must be shaken
Me: she says she's fine.
Her: and what do you think?
Me: that she should go file a restraining order against the guy. The guy is her classmate
Her: what if they don't grant her one, seeing that he didn't do anything
Me: I'll call someone from there. This asshole can't get away with this. what if he had done something to her? she's not safe Iya
Her: I understand. I'm sorry
Me: yeah sure.
We were both sitting on the floor in the corridor outside Ase's room.
Me: so why aren't you inside?
Her: mom asked to be left with her alone. Probably trying to convince her to get help
Me: and dad?
Her: dad went to "attend a crisis"
She said with air quotes.
Her: do you think he had them kill him?
Me: I doubt it. he took away his daughter's innocence, death would be too easy for him
Her: I guess
Me: does Sean know?
She shrugged.
Her: he's been calling thou. I think he's worried
Me: with the way my sister is, I doubt she even still wants to be in a relationship with him.
Just as we were sitting down like that someone walked over with a nurse shouting behind him that he couldn't come this side. The guy was in such a rush.
Him: hi, I'm looking for Asemahle and her phone says she's here
Me: and you are?
Him: Sean, Sean Nguni. Wait you her twin and you her sister right?
We both nodded and stood up. So this is thee Sean... Nice... he's not bad, my sister has taste shame.
Me: so you the boyfriend?
Iya: it's a pleasure to meet you Sean. I'm Iyana and this is Derrick
Him: I am the boyfriend. Is she ok? She wasn't answering my calls so I tracked her phone
-Stalker Alert!!!-My subconscious had a mind of its own. But I couldn't help but feel he had stalker tendencies, who tracks their partners phone?
Iya: she is....
Me: I don't think she wants to see you.
Him: what? Why?
Iya looked at me shocked.
Me: my sister has been through a lot and the last thing she needs is you right now
Him: did she tell you that or you thought of that on your own?
I looked at this guy. The nerve? What's with the attitude?
Me: does it matter?
Him: if she doesn't want me here she'll tell me herself
Me: same way she told you where she was right?
Iya: Sean last time I heard you were in Joburg
Him: I just landed few minutes ago. Can you please tell me what's going on?
Me: nigga go back to Joburg.
I said that and walked back into my sister's room and found her sleeping.
Mom: you back
Me: yeah. How is she?
Her: she agreed to see a therapist
Me: that's good.
Her: everything ok?
Me: yeah everything is fine
Her: how long have I known you again?
I chuckled.
Her: you've been distracted since I don't know. talk to me baby. Bring a chair and come sit here
I took a chair and went to put it next to her and sat down.
Her: so?
Me: Yandiswa almost got raped
-oh and I cheated on her with a girl I told her was a friend and she shouldn't worry about... that's just about it right? but if I tell you, you'll murder me-
Her: oh my God. How is she?
Me: she says she's fine. I'll go visit her when Ase is a little better
Her: yoh. this I didn't expect
In a way I kind of blamed her for putting herself in that situation. Had she just stayed home then none of this would have happened in the first place!
Me: yeah me too
Her: I'm sorry baby. I should call her when I get the chance
She said brushing my knee.

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Clementine Nthateng Mashego wrote
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"Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains that we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else; makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it... and for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more."