With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 19

I love Melokuhle. Despite everything I can't bring myself to walk away from him. I can't bring myself to leave him. I know he's cheating on me no doubt and I want to end it with him, I really do but every time I try to leave him, everytime I'm about to text him that he and I should just end things once and for all, I find myself typing and deleting that message. You want to know why? Because when you love someone the way I have come to love Melokuhle, nothing they do is enough to make you leave until you are ready to walk away. Until you are ready to leave them. Walking away is the hardest thing one can do and you can only do it successfully when and if you ready to.
Ash: everything ok?
Me: yep
Ser: need another glass?
I shook my head and got up to sit by the window. What did I not do huh? Why does he do this to me? First time he didn't cheat, he broke my heart and now he's cheating on me and it all hurts the same way. And Lathitha is making things so difficult because if she didn't spy on my boyfriend then things wouldn't be this messed up. I'm a person who believes in the saying "what you don't know won't hurt you" and it's got me this far and I haven't been stressing the way I am now. I felt a hand touch my cheek. I looked up and Ash was wiping away a tear that managed to escape my eyes.
Her: talk to us.
Me: where do I start?
Ser: the beginning mami.
I sighed.
Me: Melo is cheating on me
Ash: i'm sorry what?
Ser: how do you know that?
Me: I got a picture a few days ago of him and this chick he used to screw. They were sitting in a restaurant eating
Ser: who sent you the picture?
Me: a girl whom he once slept with out of anger for something I said or done or something along those lines. But to blow of some steam he slept with her and then told her to leave. She wasn't happy with him and so to ruin the relationship he was in at the time and also because she was hurt and mad at him, she took a nude pic and sent it to the girlfriend which then led to the two of them breaking up
Ash: wait what was going on between you and Melo to begin with?
Me: so Melo and I weren't close, we weren't even friends. I didn't like him, or at least I thought I didn't. He started dating this girl named Kate, things between them were good I guess and then Melo started catching feelings for me or he did that even before dating Kate, I still don't know but all I know is that we spoke and things got out of hand at this party I was taking pictures in which got him all worked up and led to him sleeping with Lathitha.
Ser: damn that's messed up shiit. So what? He uses sex to relieve stress and tension?
I nodded
Ser: that's not right thou. That on its own is a problem. It sounds like an addiction
Me: even if it is S what can I do?
Ash: I don't buy that. It's not an addiction, the guy just loves having sex and that's all. I mean anger shouldn't make you do things that will make you hurt the next person. We all get angry
Ser: and we all have different ways to deal with it Ash. Melo just choses sex. He needs a new strategy, a new way to deal with things and maybe Yaya is the one to help him change things and do them differently. Look you love the guy despite everything, the way he handles his anger or hurt or whatever shouldn't change how you feel about him and I know it doesn't. Be the change he needs Yaya, the kind he didn't know he needed in the first place.
Ash: I think you drunk
We all laughed in the tears. Everything Serena said was eye opening. They made me realise just how much I love him and don't want to lose him even with everything.
Ash: ok I have one problem
Me: we all ears
Ash: why is it that when a guy cheats it's ok, we supposed to understand that he has needs and all that other bull and then theres also that crap about not being able to handle a relationship meaning you not cut out for marriage as if women are the only ones that are supposed to conserve themselves for marriage. When will we applaud those woman that gain the strength and courage to walk away from being treated like trash by these trashy guys.
Me: you have a point there Ash. All our lives we've been taught to stay even when the going gets tough. Why don't they teach men the same principles they teach us women
Ser: if only you guys listened to the shiit ya'll preaching right now
Ash: its not easy to walk away. Relationship are like people and substances, it's not easy to quit. Think about it guys
Me: true that. Why do we complicate our own lives? I mean we let guys hurt us when really we don't have to allow them to.
We continued drinking. We were having dry wine, Serena's treat of cause because Ash and I prefer sweet wine over dry any day. Even the ciders we drink ought to be sweet stuff. I don't know why Ser prefers the bitter type of alcohol... or maybe it's because of her chosen course. It was already past 8pm now, we decided to get up and go hit the club's. We needed to have fun and forget everything I'm going through with Melo. I'm literally the only one in a relationship here and the other two are single. We'll Ser recently got out of one when she moved this side because her boyfriend didn't want her to study this side. So yeah. And as for Ash, she's your cute virgin Mary, kind of reminds me of Anita back at home. Speaking of Nita, she was 3 months pregnant and she hasn't told Bonke about it. She's seen him but she wasn't showing just yet so she was safe for now. Her and her mother were uhhmm... not really ok, it was hard for her mom to accept this. We were now in this club uptown, it's actually those kind of clubs where people dance on tables and stuff. It was so cool being there, it was my first time being in a club ever since I came here. We've been attending Frat parties. We got a table and ordered some booze, Ash was already lit from the wine, talk about a real light weight. I got up to go dance, I am Beyoncé when I'm drunk. I felt this guy dance behind me. We started dancing with each other and by now people were watching us do all kinds of cool things in the dance floor. I felt like I was on a 'step up' scene. When the song ended I walked back to our table and the gut sat right next to me.
Him: where did you learn to do that?
I chuckled.
Me: it comes naturally.
Him: my name is Thomas
Me: I never asked for it
Him: I know but it's the right thing to do when you meet someone and dance with them the way we did just now
Ser: i'm Serena by the way and this is Ash
She said with her hand pulled out to Thomas. He shook her hand with a smile.
Me: Yandiswa. Call me Yaya
Him: oh shit please tell me ungumxhosa!
I looked at this white guy. He was cute no doubt and the way be said 'ungumxhosa' with a Xhosa accent made me curious to know him. I haven't met anyone from back home upon my arrival so shoot me.
Me: I am
Him: from? I'm from East London by the way
Me: i'm from Mthatha. Wow. But you white
Him: not white, coloured. Dad is Xhosa and mom is white. You beautiful
Me: you drunk
Him: I can still see clearly though. So what's your story?
Me: stick around and you'll find out.
He chuckled
Him: you're a flirt aren't you?!
He said with a smug.
Me: what? No!
Him: listen I would love to stay and chat more but my friends are probably wondering where I vanished to
Me: nice meeting you Tom
Him: can I have your number or is it too soon?
Me: not soon, just cliché
Him: oh... so what do I do?
Me: something less cliché.
Him: ok. Lets do it like this, there's a dance club downtown. I know that part of town might be shady for you but it's a great place to be in. We meet there, whenever it is
Me: address?
Him: gimme a pen and paper
I chuckled
Him: oh right... you one of those, gimme your phone
Me: you can't gimme your number
Him: no, I want to write you the address. Geeez
He said rolling his eyes dramatically making me laugh. I have him my phone and he typed this address in memo and then handed me my phone back.
Ash: and that?
Me: a guy I was dancing with on the dance floor
Ser: cute. He is fucking yummy
Me: uhhm ok mami
Ser: don't lie.
Me: about?
Ser: we both know you noticed how yummy he was.
Me: I have a boyfriend
Ash: nobody asked
Me: ok fine he is dreamy.
I thought I had seen it all with Melo but good God Thomas was a dream. He had exotic eyes which makes you wonder what kind of white person his mother is. Thomas looked something like Ian Somerhalder (Damon Salvator from Vampire Diaries) but with greenish eyes. His eyes were dreamy, you get lost in them. I didn't even get his surname so that I could stalk him :/ . Well that sucks. A round of drinks came to our table.
Ash: no we didn't order these
Waitress: they from a gentleman who said his name is Thomas
She said with a smile.
Ser: tell him we said thank you very much.
She placed them on our table and then she left.
Ser: he likes you
Me: and you gathered that by the alcohol he bought us?
It was cocktails we had been drinking.
Ash: trust Serena.
Ser: no. It's the way he was looking at you idiot. He couldn't keep his eyes off you
Ash: probably because of the shorts she's wearing
Ser: Argh you two know nothing
She said rolling her eyes. My friends are something else. In a cute loving way. The club name was Mars. I only noticed that when we were waiting for our uber. We stood there patiently. While we were standing there these chicks came and stood next to us chatting.
Chick 1: gosh did you see him move?
Chick 2: he can get it. And no I'm not saying that because he owns this club
Chick 3: wait this is his club?
Chick 1: Thomas Stevens is a king fam! Did you see the girl he was dancing with?
Chick 3: they looked perfect together. They make magic!
We kept quiet and listened to them go on and on about this Thomas Stevens guy. Surely they weren't talking about the Thomas I met right? That guy is too young to own a club like this one.
Ser: i'm sorry but who are you guys talking about?
Chick 1: the dude that... wait, you the girl he was dancing with. where did you learn to do that?
Our uber stopped right in front of us. Thank God!
Me: nice meeting you guys but we have to go now. Bye ladies
I said pulling my squad inside the car, Ash room the front seat and we waved goodbye to the girls.
Ser: that guy owns that club?
Ash: lets Google him. What was his surname again?
Ser: Stevens
Ash punched in her phone and then started reading.
Ash: 30 year old business mogul throws the best party Cali has ever seen! Thomas Stevens, club owner of Mars and a few more clubs throws himself a thirtieth birthday celebration with appearances from Kim K, Kanye West, Rihanna and many more famous faces.....
Me: let me see!
Ser: if you don't want him, i'll have him!
Ash gave me the phone and I continued reading. This guy really was the shiit huh? I decided to give Ash her phone back and started stalking him on IG. There were pictures of him with Rihanna, Queen B(Beyoncé), Ian Somerhalder and many other celebrities. This guy rolled with the big dogs yoh! Explains why he didn't tell me his surname because he probably knew that this was exactly what I was going to do. Yes we get your name and surname and go stalk guys so we know what we get ourselves into.
The next day I woke up with a splitting one sided headache. Luckily we have a med student who's first mission in medicine was to come up with a hangover cure pill and it was a success. Serena wants to be a gynae but she loves to experiment with other parts of medicine. She studies pharmacy part time too, she says she doesn't want to dominate in one part only. So we took the pills which knocked us out that we ended up waking up around 1pm. We all looked at each other all lazy to get up and make breakfast so Ash decided to order in.
Ser: last night was lit!
Ash: i'm never drinking like that again!
She said heading to the bathroom
Ser: so when are we going to the club Mr Mars wrote on your phone?
Me: he's old
Her: I didn't say date the guy. I just asked when we going dancing babe. Geeez!
Me: fine. We can go tonight. Happy?
Her: lets hear what Ash says
Ash walked in with her face dripping water.
Me: We going dancing tonight
She shook her head
Ser: no alcohol I promise!
Ash: really?
I nodded and just then there was a knock on the door, Ash went to get it and it was our food. We literally all lit up when we saw the plastic bag. I got up to go brush my teach, Ser went in after me them we sat on the floor and started digging in. The food was so good. Why did it taste this good? Fuck! We went to wash one by one after we had finished eating and then we accompanied Ser to go fetch something to wear tonight and then went back to our room. Today I wore sweat pants, crop top and heels. Serena wore a dress and Ash wore shorts and a crop top with a long length denim Jacket. We requested an uber and told the driver where to take us and he drove us straight to the club. It had that whole dodgy look on the outside.
Ash: yoh sure this is the right place?
Driver: yes this is the right place. Trust me it's not what it looks Iike inside
Me: you'll have to wait for us to go in and check it out first
He chuckled
Him: ok ladies
Ser and I walked out and went to the door and banged on it, some buff guy opened it and let us in. The club looked lit as fuck. Disco lights and all. People were dancing and some drinking and everyone just having fun. I texted Ash and she came in.
Ash: nice
There weren't any places to sit from where we were standing that was in sight. I looked up and this place was huge. There were stairs on the left which led to another floor. Damn this person must make a lot of money to own such a place. A guy half naked walked up to us with shots.
Him: hello ladies. Welcome to D-Lux.
We looked at each other
Ash: we not drinking tonight. Thank you
Him: general or upstairs?
Me: where is it most fun?
Him: the action happens sown here. People that sit up there are here to sir and drink and watch everyone dance down here
Ser: general it is then. Thank you
Him: pleasure
He walked away and left us walking down to the dance floor. People were gathered in a circle watching people dancing. This club had that hip hop feel going on, I'm talking graffiti on the walls and stuff. We made our way through the crowd and found ourselves in the second row of the circle where we could literally see what was happening inside the circle. Thomas was dancing, he was some sort of a Chris Brown. My jaw was in the floor, he noticed me and winked at me then continued doing his thing until the song was over. When he was done people made their way in the circle and started dancing while he made his way to me with a smile. Fuck this guy was making me feel things a person with a boyfriend shouldn't be feeling! I looked around and these bitches had disappeared on me. He took my hand into his and then led us through the crowd. We landed at the bar.
Him: you came
Me: you own Mars
He chuckled lightly and ordered himself redbull.
Him: can I get you something to drink?
Me: monster will do
Him: monster for the lady
Me: you 30. How?
Him: stick around and you'll find out
Me: tuché.
Him: so what made you decide to come?
Me: curiosity.
Him: nice... now that number
Me: why didn't you tell me you own Mars?
Him: we don't know each other like that beautiful.
And he says I'm the flirt. He had the latest iPhone... of cause. why am I not surprised? He gave it to me to enter my number and so I did then he pulled me up to dance