With Pain Come Love 2

Melo 24

I'm back in SA Durban and my relationship with my girlfriend is everything it should be. Ever since I got back which was a month ago, I haven't fooled around with anyone and I'm proud of myself. Being with Yaya for that two weeks made me realise how blessed I am and how complete my life is. I don't need random sex. Yes it's not easy saying no to free pussy but it's all about self discipline and realising what's important. Maybe my loyalty is also brought about by this Thomas guy she's been spending time with before I got there. The guy is no doubt competition, he is everything i'm not and he is at a age where he is ready to settle down and be with the love of his life, I mean he's 30 so obviously he wants someone he can share his wealth with and someone who will be perfect for him and who better than Yaya? Yaya is everything. I don't believe in that whole wife material thing when referring to a girl but in all honesty Yaya is wife material. She is everything good. She is everything a man looking for a wife needs. She's helpful, supportive, loving and caring and all good things and she's not afraid to speak her mind and give you advice you didn't think you needed. I'm an idiot for having risked that. As a man, sometimes you need to see beyond yourself and remind yourself that whatever it is you see in her, other guys see it too and chances are they can treat her 10x better than you ever could. Lately I go to work then head over to visit my sister and then head to gym. It's a routine I'm enjoying. Olona has been blowing up my phone and so has Miranda but I haven't answered any of them, I know maybe I'm wrong for dropping them like that but I made a promise to my girlfriend and I intend on keeping it like that. Yaya is landing here tomorrow and I couldn't be happier, I've missed her so so much words alone aren't enough. It's Friday after work and I decided to stop at spur and buy my twin her fave, she hasn't left the house since the incident. I got home and she was in the lounge watching Ice Age, one of our favorite movies. I joined her on the couch
Me: twin
I said kissing her cheek
Her: hey twin. How are you? Is that spur?
I chuckled
Me: you and food. I'll never understand. But yeah I got you your fave
Her: yummy. Let me get us plates
She said pausing the movie
Me: wheres everyone?
Her: mom and dad are at work, Iyana is upstairs. I'm still under suicide watch
I got up and followed behind her
Me: we wouldn't have to watch you this closely if you spoke to us
Her: I'm already seeing a therapist. What more do you guys want from me
Me: to know how you doing. How you dealing sis
Her: no. You guys want to see me break down and cry my lungs out and drink myself to the nearest hospital because that's what you expect of rape victims. It happened Melo and I'm dealing with it
Me: ok maybe that's true but sis this all seems like an act. An act to get us off your back
Her: what do you think I'm going to do huh? Go looking for him? Pay some people and have him killed or tortured? That's not me Derrick
Me: when last did you talk to Sean?
She shrugged.
Her: I don't know. I last saw him at the hospital, he's been calling and texting. I don't know what the hell i'm going to say to him or how I'm supposed to face him. I just I don't know Melo. I hate that he's trying so hard and I'm emotionally detached from him. His calls or texts don't spark anything in me anymore
Me: they won't if you allow yourself to grow numb to pain
Her: maybe I'm numb because things are easier this way. I don't get to think about it, i don't get to feel any of it. It's just. I'm fine this way
Me: pain demands to be felt
Her: seriously? You quoting The Fault in Our Stars now? You don't know the pain I went through Melokuhle. None of you know it. You can't be telling me shit like pain demands to be felt when you have never been through what i've been through. You've never been in a situation whereby you can't defend yourself, begging him to stop but your begs falling on deaf ears, pleading for God to intervene but nothing. Nothing you say or do is enough to make him stop and so you just lie there taking the pain which is pleasure for him as it comes and just waiting for him to finish so that he can leave or kill you. Honestly I would have preferred he kill me after rather than to live like this. All of you hovering over me like I'm a danger to myself. I've had so many chances to end my life but I'm still here, still breathing.
I pulled her into my arms. She was now in tears and so was I. I didn't even know what to say to her at this point.
Her: all I want to do is just scream and let it all out.
I brushed her back gently with nothing but tears rolling down my cheeks.
Me: tell me what you want me to do to take the pain away
She pulled out of my arms. And starred into my eyes with her eyes filled with tears
Her: I want you to move past this. As long as you and mom and dad and Iya are treating me like a victim, I am constantly reminded of what is and will never change. I just want my life back.
"Look who's here"
Iyana said walking down the stairs with a bit of excitement in her voice. We both wiped aways our tears, Ase took the plates and headed to the lounge. I met Iya halfway and we shared a hug
Me: how are you?
She broke it
Her: I'm good and how are you?
Me: also good. I came with food
Her: I'm on a diet!
She said hooking her arm into mine and walking me to the lounge.
Me: oh well more for us
We joined our sister on the three seater couch
Iya: yummy
Us: you on a diet
We spoke at the same time then looked at each other and laughed. I can't remember the last time I heard her laugh
Iya: Nah I can cheat, just for today
Ase: more like everyday
Iya: hey!
Me: I never understood this whole dieting thing you like to do. Your body is fine!
Iya: i'm maintaining. You'll see when Yaya gets to my age
Ase: when is she coming back anyway?
Me: she'll land tomorrow
Ase: you are bringing her straight here from the airport
Me: that's if your father cancels the meeting in Shepston or PMB
Iya: but it's saturday
Me: I know right. Being the bosses son sucks
Ase: so what about Yaya?
Me: she has a key. She'll catch ab uber to my place
Iya: look at you pouting. You were with her for two weeks idiot
Me: I know and I had gotten used to her
Ase: young love is so adorbs
I hit her with a pillow and she laughed.
Me: i'll tell her not to come over
Ase: you wouldn't dare!
Me: try me
Iya: we both know she doesn't take orders from you
Me: shut up. Go to that ugly boyfriend of yours futhi
Ase: Iya has a boyfriend
Iya: no. Melo shut up
Me: he's so ugly sis. What's his surname again?
Iya clicked her tongue annoyed. I was already on Facebook searching for him
Ase: come on sis share
She made puppy eyes
Me: this is what you did with Yaya. It's payback time so share
Iya: Thapelo Bango
I typed my Facebook and the dude was the first in the list, we had one mutual friend.
Ase: Facebook friends already
We clicked on its profile and scrolled through his pictures. He had a picture of him with a little girl as his profile photo
Me: that's his niece right?
Iya: daughter
Ase: he has a daughter? Where is the mother?
Iya: she died while giving birth
Me: does that mean they were married?
Iya: yes
Me: are you ready to compete with the late wife?
Ase: come on Melo don't be dramatic. He makes you happy right sis?
Iya: yes he does
Me: have you met his daughter?
Iya: I met him walking with her. He's 30 and his daughter is 4, she's so cute and the sweetest thing ever
Me: but are you ready to play step mummy?
Iya: she's a lovely kid
Me: you not answering the question
Iya: what do you want me to say Melo? Why can't you be happy for me just this once and stop playing over protective brother for once in your life
Me: you my sister. Of cause i'll be protective of you. So when do we meet him?
Her: its only been a month
Ase: Melo slow down. You didn't introduce Yaya right away
Me: I didn't wait a month though
Ase: and that was your choice though . Sis if you happy, I'm happy. He's not that bad as Melo said. He's kinda cute
Iya: thanks little sis
She poked me on the side of my head
Me: ouch! You so bitter with your ugly man
We all laughed and continued making fun of each other. We were happy, my sisters were laughing and nothing brought greater joy than seeing them laugh and be happy. It was heart warming.
"This is nice"
We all turned at the same time and mom was leaning on the door.
Us: Hey Boobie
It was almost as if we rehearsed it. We all laughed noticing we had just called her the same thing. She laughed too
Her: hello kids. I had missed coming home to this sight. Remember when you guys were kids
Iya: mom don't start!
Mom: i'm just saying.
She said kissing us one by one on our foreheads.
Ase: we not 5 anymore. Iya has a boyfriend
Iya: really Asemahle
Mom: feels like de ja vu. I once came home to all this, when Iya was 15... Iya wasn't talking to Ase for lord knows why
Iya: you've always been a snitch
She said rolling her eyes and we all laughed
Mom: your father is on his way and seeing that Melo is already here. Lets make today movie night
Me: mom really
Ase: yeeeey! It's been so long. We going bowling right? With Siya and his family and Liz and Aunt Amber. Fun!
Mom: i'll shower first.
Me: I don't have clothes here
Ase: lies! Your closet is packed with clothes tshi
Me: snitch!
She stuck her tongue out to me. My family can be very childish when they want to!
We were at the arcade with the rest of the family and family friends with everyone playing and participating. I excused myself to go call Yaya and check how far she was. I was about to click call when I saw her father walking with Lathitha. I looked closely and turns out my eyes weren't deceiving me. They approached my direction hand in hand laughing.
Me: hello.
The guy's jaw dropped and he quickly let go of Lathitha's hand. I doubt he expected to see someone who knows him. Let alone me. Lathitha smiled
Her: Melo. Long time
Me: so this is who you busy with. A married man with a daughter your age
Him: please don't tell Yandiswa
Her: Yandiswa? Gxaba? She's your daughter?
A smile formed on her lips. This witch was suddenly planning something
Me: I won't have to tell her with this girl you dating. See you around pastor
I walked back to the family. Hypocrite! Do I tell her what I saw or do I shut up?