With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 17

I woke up feeling bleh... you know that feeling you get when something bad is about to happen? you know when your heart sinks to the bottom of your stomach? Well that was me today. I didn't feel so good. Or maybe it's the alcohol wearing off or its the reality of last night, the "what ifs" of last night. Ashanti wasn't in my bed nor was she in hers. I got up and went to pee then brushed my teeth and went to check my phone and I had a few texts here and there but none from Melo, i'd say it's strange but then again his sister is in hospital. Speaking of which I need to call and check up on her. I dialled Melo. He answered after some time.
//Me: hey babe.
Him: hey Yaya
The tone in his voice says something else.
Him: how are you today?
Me: i'm good babe and how are you?
Him: good too
Me: how's your sister? How's everyone?
Him: she's not fine and uhhm the rest of the family isn't too
Me: i'm sorry I'm not there for you through this
Him: its ok babe. Listen, I have to go neh. I'll call you later?
Me: yeah sure later. Bye
Him: bye//
That has to be the most weird and awkward conversation I have ever has with him. It felt like I was talking to someone else and not my boyfriend or maybe I'm just being paranoid. he's going through some stuff anyway. Ash walked in dressed in a gym attire and a paper bag of the cafe outside our campus.
Her: morning. You up
Me: morning honey. Why didn't you wake me up?
Her: you needed the rest. How are you today?
Me: a little under the weather. You?
Her: I'm all good. I met this guy at the cafe
She said squirming. Argh but my roommate was a breath of fresh air. She lights up the room with her bubbly personality and just everything about her is amazing and cute and adorbs. Ash is everything good!
Me: details...
She made us sit on her bed which was made and she put the fresh muffins between us. We were sitting facing each other with our legs in yoga position.
Her: so! Argh firstly he paid for these by the way. But that's not what we talking about here, he's a law student whom I have never seen around here by the way. His name is Scott and he's doing his last year here on campus by the way
Me: did you give him your number?
She shook her head with her hands covering her face.
Me: what??? Why? Isn't he cute? Do you even understand the concept of "met a guy", that means you liked him enough to give him your number and you liked him enough to tell your friends about him
Her: you and Serena are apples of the same tree
She said rolling her eyes.
Her: he never asked for it.
Me: what? You lie!
Her: I'm serious. He asked to walk me to my dome and then that was it. On the way here we were chatting about school even, he was asking me about my course and why I chose it and stuff
Me: so what does he look like?
Her: a dream... Tall, handsome, dressed in a suit or was it chinos? Argh I'm not sure. His white of cause, black hair, brush cut type of thing going on. A little muscled up, uhhm his voice was dreamy dude. God he was the most hottest specimen I have ever seen around here
I couldn't help but laugh at how much she was drooling over this guy. Her phone rang and she answered it while I went to make my bed and then go shower, she and her mother are tight like that. When I got out of the shower mine was ringing and it was an unknown number. I answered it
//Me: Hello?
Person: Hi Yandiswa this is Mrs Bess. I got your number from my son
Me: oh hi Mah, how are you? Melo told me about Ase, how are you guys holding up? How is she?
Her: she's a mess. I don't even know what to do, what to say to her, I just... I don't know baby.
Me: she's going to pull through. God will help her through this. Plus she has her family to support her
Her: one she is trying very hard to push away. Anyway how are you? Melokuhle told me what happened
Me: he's overreacting keyena, nothing happened. It almost happened but mna I'm fine. Thank God for the tazer. I'm fine Mah
Her: but baby you need to be careful these boys aren't right. Yazi(you know) this one time when I was around your age, I went to a house party in my home town. There was a boy there who pulled some stunt making Damon very pissed that he put the boy in hospital. Years later he had his side chick try seduce Damon all in the name of revenge oh and also because he wanted me
Me: that's obsession mos
Her: you can say that. But baby what I'm saying is that file a restraining order, have the university know about this for your own safety ok. I don't think he'll stop there
Me: yes Mah will so on Monday
Her: ok baby
Me: Ase is going to pull through. It won't be easy but she will be fine.
Her: I'm worried about her Yaya. I worried she might do something. Be it hurting herself or doing something she will later on regret
Me: what about the guy who did this?
Her: my husband's people caught him just in time. He was leaving Durban to Lord knows where. Damon has his people on him. I haven't seen him, I'm worried I might just kill him with my bare hands yuh
Me: but he deserves to die! With what he did Mah
Her: Damon is working on putting him into those heavy lock down prisons where he'll be someone's bitch. He wants him to feel what Melody felt. I can't help but feel she won't be fine knowing that he is alive
Me: let her be the one to decide that Mah. I know you being a mother and trying to protect her but let her be the one to decide this. She might never get the closure she needs if you guys decide this for her
Her: I guess you have a point. Anyway I was checking up on you, how's the distance?
Me: yoh!
She laughed and so did i.
Her: I know. I go crazy by being away from my husband for a weekend. You must be going mad
Me: yoh Mah you have no idea. I can't wait for holidays already. I cannot wait to see him
Her: that's cute... listen I have to go. Bye baby and focus on the reason you there ok?
Me: yes Mah. Bye//
Ash came back and found ne smiling. I had a mother in Mrs Bess, she may not be my biological mom but she sure cares about me like her own.
Ash: I take it you just spoke to Melo?
Me: Argh no man. His mother, she's such a sweet person
Her: look at you mingling with the in-laws. Don't get too attached ey
Me: who said I will marry Melo?
Her: who said you wouldn't?
Me: hahaha you win. Argh I don't know mahn Ash
Her: ok, question. If he asked you to marry him, would you say yes or no?
Me: yes.
The words literally slipped right out of my mouth. I like seriously wasn't ready for them myself. But in my defence I love him and I think given time he and I could actually have a future here. Ash laughed at how quick I was to respond and then hid my face in embarrassment.
Her: that is so cute
Me: screw you. So what was mama Lucy saying?
Her: mama Lucy is on her way so you better wash up and get dressed. I've already texted S.
Me: still tryna wrap my head around being room mate with the famous Lucy Walsh's daughter
I said squirming and she just laughed at me as I went to shower.
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**One Week Later**
It's Friday now and things between Melo and I are a little rocky. Like I don't know what's going on, he's a bit distant lately, he barely calls, all we do is "chat" and even so it's just awkward conversations. I haven't really had time to entertain whatever this is, it's been a busy week for me and my classmates. Oh also he didn't even ask me about going to file a restraining order, is it me or something has his attention? I mean Melo? Not ask or pressure me about the restraining order? Something has to be up guys. Anyway I did report it on Campus and turns out what he did is an offence and is punishable through suspension. Campus security had him escorted out of class on Monday and no one knew why. Ash has seen her guy again and this time he was with an even hotter friend which only confused her... Argh she's a gorky one that one. After class I headed to my dorm with one of my classmates, this other cute nerd, very talkative and an amazing sculptor. We got to our dorms and headed to our rooms. I decided to call my boyfriend and "stir up trouble", that's what guys say mos when we want to talk to them. I dialled his number and at first I was rejected straight up and then I called him again in which he answered.
//Him: hey babe
Me: I just tried calling you and my call was rejected
Him: It was a mistake babe, it got pressed when I was taking out of my pocket. How are you beautiful?
Me: i'm fine and how are you?
Him: i'm good. So what's up?
OH?
Me: are you at work?
Him: I just got home. I left early, why?
Me: I don't know if it's me, I'm seeing things but you distant lately and I'm not happy
Him: what do you mean babe. We talk everyday
Me: texting me good morning have a great day is not talking Melokuhle. It's something you do to clear your conscience. What's going on?
Him: its just been hectic at work babe I'm sorry
Me: it's been hectic at BESS, it's always hectic there. What has your attention?
Him: not this again. I thought we had this conversation mos. i'm done with that life Yaya
Me: are you really?
Him: since when are you insecure?
I chuckled in disbelief.
Him: the last thing I want to do is argue with you over this
Me: you don't get it do you? I'm not blind. I'm not stupid Melokuhle. I know I haven't known you long enough because you keep surprising me but I know that something has your attention and that something is not me. My boyfriend would never talk to me like this, my boyfriend calls me to check up on me and doesn't wait for me to call for him to ask, my boyfriend would have called me first thing Monday and reminded me to not forget to file a restraining order against Andrew and my boyfriend would never use work as an excuse to not talk to me because this is the same person who risked getting in accident all because I was not talking to him. Now tell me I'm being insecure and seeing things.
I literally felt tears roll down my cheeks. I wiped them. Why was he doing this to me?
Me: I know what happened to Asemahle and it pains me just as much as it does you, she's like a sister to me and for her to go through that it's hard on you and on me but I know you. I know that she is not the reason for your sudden change. What is it Melo?
He took a deep breath in and let it out slowly. I could picture him doing that, raking his hair back with his eyes closed and then opening them again to answer me. He would probably take my hands into his and say "Yaya". It's a nickname people have called me by before but the way he says it is different, it sends chills down my spine, it takes me to a world only he and I know, it holds more meaning than it being said by other people.
Him: Yaya
See what I mean? I know this guy.
Him: I swear nothing either than work has my attention. This week has just been stressful and hectic. Work literally has me by the balls. Dad is just over working me all in the name of turning me into him. And then theres this thing that happened to Asemahle, she's really not coping and it's stressing me out real bad. I am so sorry for being distant and I promise you, I promise you that as of now you will be my main priority
Me: I don't want to be a priority. I want to be your girlfriend Melokuhle. I don't want you to feel obligated to talk to me all because of this conversation. I want you to be that man you were a week ago or is that too much to ask for?
Him: baby I am really trying here.
Me: trying to do what exactly?
Him: to cope with this distance thing. It's killing me, not seeing you, not talking to you, not touching you. It hurts Yaya.
Me: so is that why you distant?
Him: of cause not. I've just been caught up with work
Me: and spending time with Olona
Him: what?
Me: i'm not stupid Melokuhle.
Him: babe I don't know what you talking about.
I removed my phone from my ear and forwarded him the picture of the two of them at a restaurant. The picture was sent to me by Lathitha some time this week. At first I thought it was to spite me. I tried ignoring it but I couldn't anymore.
Me: are you sleeping with her?
Him: what? Fuck No!
Me: Derrick Melokuhle Bess are you sleeping with Olona Mbiza?
Him: again Yandiswa. No!
Me: fine. Call.me when you ready to be honest with me
Him: who the fuck sent you this anyway? Are you keeping tabs on me now?
Me: excuse me? So what if I am
Him: don't you dare start something you can't finish Yandiswa
Me: two can play this game Melokuhle.
Him: what game? Yaya come on, it was an innocent dinner. I was telling her to stay away from me
I am photographer and a painter, my future career depends on me being able to look at pictures and analysing them and that picture did not look like he was telling her to stay away. There was more to it than just "stay away".
Me: sure thing Mr HotShot!//
I dropped the call mad as hell. Heck mad is an understatement. I was pissed As Fuck! God I was breathing fire, that's how pissed I was. How dare he lie to me like that? Who does he think I am?