With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 27

Dear God why can't I hate him? Drunk or Sober he still manages to sweep me off my feet... literally... I want to hate him; Lord knows I want to. I want to hate his sex. His scent. His touch that sends chills down my spine every time. His look when he shamelessly tells me that he's not going anywhere. His voice. God his voice when he gets all authorative and territorial over me. His kiss, his kiss when he doesn't beg for it but takes it as though my mouth is his to take. I want to hate him. I really do. I want to hate the way he looks, the way he talks, the way he dresses, the way he eats, I want to hate all of it but I can't bring myself to. my heart won't let me. I stare at him as he sleeps beside resting my head on my hand balancing with my elbow. Even when sleeping he's effortlessly dreamy, so dreamy I find myself wanting to capture the moment. Steal his iPhone as gentle as I could and mute it so that no sound is made when I take a picture of him. The picture is black and white, even if it were colour he would still look ridiculously handsome. His lips slightly open and pink, that's Melo. His lips give him away when he had been drinking the previous night. they get all pink and swell in a very sexy way. I shape his perfectly shaped eyebrows with my index finger. Even girls don't have such perfect eyebrows. Mrs Bess and Mr Bess surely took their precious time when making this man sleeping next to me
Him: stop that
Me: what?
He removes my hand from his face and kisses it, I giggle like a high school teenager. I'm not even supposed to be here but now that I'm here I don't want to leave this place. I don't want to leave his side. He messed up. I warned him it was his last chance. I know my warning came after he had already slept with her but how am I supposed to look past the fact that he slept with her and then called me with her sleeping on his bed. How do I move past the effect he has on these girls he's slept with before? How do I know that I won't end up like any of them? This is the third girl he's made pregnant in his life and the second to have miscarried and committed suicide. The first one was in his first year in varsity, he cheated on her and did everything Melo is doing to me such that she ended up having a miscarriage and then later she killed herself. She may have not written a suicide note or anything but Melo knows why she killed herself, Melo is the reason she committed suicide. And there's Kate, a sweet innocent girl. one minute everything is going good in their relationship and then the next thing he sleeps with some obsessed girl only to end up pregnant too except with her she doesn't kill herself but would rather kill the child than to have anything that ties her to him. and now there's Miranda. It's a pattern, get pregnant with Melo's kid and you either kill yourself or kill the baby. But even with all of this I don't hate him, for some reason I want to believe that I won't end up like the others and that I'm different, he loves me, he would die before he lets anything happen to me and it's because of that stupid belief that I'm next to him with my hand in his. He lets go of it and pulls me in for a kiss which I very much respond to. he breaks it and stares deep into my eyes piercing through to my soul.
Him: morning beautiful
There's something about his eyes and the way he's looking at me that makes my body react a certain way.
Me: morning
I remove my hand and rest on the pillow facing him. he smiles. That smile that gives me butterflies. Heck it creates a jungle in my tummy. I also smile involuntary, it's contagious. His smile is contagious.
Him: what are you smiling for?
Me: why were you smiling?
Him: cause I missed this. I love waking up like this and because I never want to stop waking up to this sight
I found my cheeks burning. I was blushing. I looked at him with my hand, that he had kissed making its way down to his D. he smiled
Him: I thought you'd be tired
I shake my head stroking it, my hand sliding up and down on it. he groans
Him: dammit Yandiswa
I just smile and then go under the cover and play with it flickering my tongue on the tip. He can't help but groan. I tease him giving him a hand job that makes him groan harder. I look up at him and his head is tilted back enjoying the pleasure. I put it in my mouth and start sliding it in and out making him speak in tongues. His hands are on my hair. I go faster, judging by his grip on my hair he's about to cum, he pulls my head back and I start stroking with my hands. He cums. I wipe my hand with a towel and then he pulls me up and kisses me slowly and passionately with me sitting on top of him grinding on his D. I could feel it go hard on my ass, he flipped us over so he was on top. He broke the kiss and looked at me with his now half open eyes but blood shot red.
Him: I Love you Mafaku
I don't respond but instead I pull him in for a kiss appreciating what he had just said. He inserts himself without warming making me gasp in his mouth, I feel him smirk. This guy is cocky. He knows how big he is and yet he always does that. He drove me to my place with me wearing his t-shirt and his boxers. According to him I looked cute. We were listening to Chris Brown the album X.
Him: you took you clothes'
Me: yep...
He nodded and continued driving.
Him: Yaya please
Me: I kind of feel like we moved toooo fast. Maybe if we had taken things a little slower then we wouldn't be facing all of this. I don't know Melo. One minute you happy and committed and then the next you between some girl's legs digging your way to lord knows
Him: that's not fair. I don't even go down on these girls Yandiswa
Me: all you do is drill them and that's it. all is well and all is forgotten right?
Him: it's not even like that. I don't know Yaya. I already hate myself
Me: maybe if I didn't make things this easy for you, it wouldn't be this easy for you to cheat. If this distance thing is so hard for you Melokuhle then just end things and stop breaking my heart repeatedly
Him: I'm not ending anything here Yandiswa.
Me: I gave you space. I gave you time to fool around and to screw anything and everything that has a vagina between their legs so that when you come back to me you know you done with all of that. Melokuhle I'm 18, you 20 you allowed to go around screwing and having fun but don't do that at my expense Melokuhle. I'm tired, it's sickening, this whole crying over you all the time. I just want to be at peace and happy without having to worry who you screwing while I'm busting my ass off in school just so I can come back.
He kept quiet. I looked out to of the window singing along to Chris Brown Drunk Texting. He parked inside the yard and locked the door.
Him: Yandiswa I'm done, I learnt my lesson. You mean everything to me
Me: the question is how long? I mean what happens if a new skirt comes along or a blast from the past comes along? Its tiring. Let's just take some time apart and see what happens
Him: fuck that Yandiswa!
He said hitting the steering wheel and startling me. I looked at him
Him: don't do this
Me: we don't have to lose contact. If you want to have sex with anyone, go ahead. If you meant for me then we'll find our way to each other. I have to go pack, my bus leaves in 2 hours
Him: bus?
Me: I'm going home and mom is fetching me at the bus station
Him: let me drive you
Me: no thanks Melo
I said shaking my head
Him: please
Me: you can drive me to the bus station
He sighed and unlocked the doors. I opened my door and he opened his and followed me inside. Ledi and Anita were in the kitchen eating.
Me: morning babies
Him: morning ladies
Ledi: your things are in your room mami. Hi Melo
Nita: hi Melo. I see you two missed each other that much
He chuckled
Him: more than you know.
Me: I need to change
Ledi: wait up
We walked up together and left Melo with Nita, if anyone can keep him entertained its Nita more than Ledi because Ledi won't be able to keep whatever anger she has towards him to herself. We got into my room and she locked the door. She had a lot she wanted to say
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-Naledi
My best friend is dick whipped. How else do you explain the amount of times she forgives this guy?
Her: Not now Naledi please
Me: I'll do the talking and you'll listen
She walked to her closet and I followed behind her sat on the ottoman in her closer, she started taking off her clothes', well Melo's clothes'.
Me: just yesterday you were crying and saying how much you hate him and then the next day you walk in wearing his clothes'. This guy has you wrapped around his finger my friend. Yandiswa I hate see you crying because of him, I understand you love him and he makes you happy but that happiness has a time frame. One minute you happy and the next you crying. I hate that. I really do, I'm not saying end things. Just take a break from him. maybe things might just work and he won't che...
Her: I told him I needed space
Knowing my friend, as long as Melo and her are in the same town. Melo will use his dick to apologise and my friend will forgive him easily. I love that she's in love and all but she and Melo moved way too fast, just because they waited to have sex it doesn't change anything. I still feel like they moved to fast. It hasn't even been 6 months or a year and already they having sex without a condom. I'm worried that they use sex to escape real conversations that might just build their relationship.
Me: what?
Her: we on a break. He's only taking me out for breakfast and accompanying me to the bus station and then that's it
Me: really now?
We all know that this so called break won't last. The minute she comes back from home her and Melo will have sex and everything will be forgiven and forgotten. I don't know. it's not an addiction but I do think that they obsessed with each other or one of them is obsessed with the other. I don't know but all I know is that I am worried about her. She was wearing High waist blue jeggings, black thigh book, black vest tucked in and a denim jacket. She went to sit by her mirror to fix her weave
Me: fine. So this morning I woke up and found Siya in our kitchen
Her: doing what?
Me: he slept here. He and Anita are sleeping together
She turned and looked at me with clear shock written on her face
Her: you lie! But then again Siya is a good guy for her
Me: yep he is. He says he's in love with her
Her: Bonke will throw fit!
Me: speaking of that one he's been begging for love back and creeping up on Nita
Her: what do you mean creeping on Nita?
Me: he's getting all obsessed and possessive. Threatening whatever guy he sees Anita with, you know those silly things. Oh and he's been stalking her too
Her: that's not right Ledi.
Me: yeah I know. Nita is super freaked out. he's also been threatening her. telling her that he will kill whoever tries to get close with her
Her: that's crazy.
I nodded
Me: so when are you coming back?
Her: Wednesday
Me: shiit that's far
Her: I'd come back Friday but I need to talk to "daddy" about this Lathitha thing. Melo told me he saw them Friday night all cosy and stuff.
Me: they public? Damn that bitch got guts
Her: that man has a rep, one gossip blup and his preaching career is over
Me: damn
When she was done, she got up to look at herself in the long mirror. She was on fleek! She packed up a mini bag and put Melo's things in a paper bag and then we headed downstairs. Nita and Melo were chatting. They seemed to get along.
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Melo and Nita were talking about babies. Nita was telling him about how much being pregnant sucks cause she can't go clubbing or drink or bend properly and stuff. Melo seemed fascinated by this whole baby talk. He looked up at me with his mouth half opened. Nita was talking to herself
Nita: you look beautiful Mami
Me: thanks hone. Ready to go?
Nita nudged him with her elbow and he smiled and answered
Him: yeah ready
He took my bag and walked out. we all looked at each other and laughed
Nita: wow.
Ledi: I'm so proud of you right now
Nita: nigga was speechless. Yaya you a boner giver
Me: thanks ladies
I hugged each of them and said my goodbyes then walked out to Melo who was already in the car, he was pressing his phone and listening to lady in a glass dress. I think I startled him when I opened the door. He put his phone on the cup holder between us.
Him: you look beautiful
Me: thank you
Him: got everything? Even your ticket?
Me: I'll get it there
He nodded and drove off to gateway. We went to Spur and had a nice meal over a light awkward conversation. It was just weird.
Me: things don't have to be like this between us
Him: you dumped me and you won't let me drive you home
Me: so what? You sulking. You look cute by the way
Him: fuck you!
He said with his middle finger raised in front of my face. I pulled it laughing at him
Him: let go of me
Me: smile first
He couldn't help but chuckle. I saw a smile creep out of his mouth. He clicked his tongue. I took a picture of him. Just then my phone rang and it was this man who people call my father. I declined
Him: and then?
Me: my father
He called again
Him: answer the guy and hear him out
I rolled my eyes and answered.
//Him: hello Yandiswa
Me: Hi
Him: how are you?
Me: good
Him: uhhm... I heard you in town
Me: yeah
Him: your mother wants to see you, any chance you can come for dinner?
Me: I'm on my way to Mthatha to visit my mother. If your wife wants to see me she'll call me
Melo gave me that look of his
Him: ok fine
Me: is there something you wanted to tell me maybe?
Him: none that I can think off
Me: ok cool. Bye//
Melo looked at me and shook his head
Me: What?
Him: I get it you mad he's dating your friend but you didn't have to be rude. He's still your father and older than you
Me: I'll send him a text later
Him: no. you'll call him and apologise
I rolled my eyes and stuffed my mouth with onion rings so as to avoid this. he took my phone and handed it to me. I shook my head and pointed at my mouth, he chuckled and ate his food
Me: I will text him when I get on the bus
Him: I didn't say anything. Mrs Bess misses you
Me: I'll visit her when i get back
He nodded. We finished eating and he settled the bill then we went to buy travel goodies, well he insisted we do and then he sent me cash and we drove to the bus station listening to don't be gone too long. I couldn't help but chuckle at its relevance because he was begging me not to be gone too long. He kept singing it and repeating it until we got to the bus station and I went to fetch my ticket. I had 30 minutes before leaving. We were sitting in his car listening to music.
Him: you gonna be late
Me: I know
Him: we wouldn't want that now
Me: yeah.
He pulled me in for a kiss and I responded to it willingly. Break or not, he's mine and I will never say no to his lips. He walked me to the bus while people were boarding, he hugged me as if he was never going to see me again, it was cute how clingy he was. People kept complimenting how adorable we were together and I'd say we weren't which he fought so hard. I got in and sat by the window and waved at him until I couldn't see him anymore.