With Pain Come Love 2

Melo 4

Normally I'm not as understanding but for the sake of peace I let things be because the last thing I want is us breaking up over her leaving. I mean who would celebrate at their girlfriend leaving them for lord knows how long? I mean I checked this thing out and it is legit but the problem with this thing of hers is that it means she would be gone for 3 years and I don't know how the hell I'm supposed to live with that. Yes, I can visit her and she can visit me but let's be realistic now, how often do those visits last? The problem with long distance is that in the beginning you talk every day and then start talking 3 or 4 times a week and from there you talk once or twice a week and from there you talk once a month and the cycle goes on until you two talk because you probably came across something to remind you that you still in a relationship and then shiit ends just like that. Now I'm not saying that this is what will happen with her and I but what are the odds really? Her leaving is frustrating me, its stressing me out, today I went to the doctor and he told me my pressure was up and that I was getting better but me being like this is not helping my situation. Yaya offered to drive me, mom was not on speaking terms with me unless she was asking me to pass her something or she needed something from me and that was it. that was also one of the things stressing me out. We got to the car, I had asked the doctor to remove the cast on my arm because I felt like I didn't need it and my arm didn't hurt anymore, we went back and forth about it until I threatened to sue him... its stupid really because it's his job to make sure that I am well and that I follow orders but he gave in. My arm was ok; it wasn't painful at all really. I think one could say that the x-rays were wrong because seemingly all I did was sprain it and now it was fine and back to normal. We were in the car on our way out of the hospital.
Her: you ok?
Me: yeah I'm good
Her: your doctor said your pressure was high
Me: yeah things happen babe
Her: ok... where do you want to eat?
Me: wherever we eat is fine really
She sighed and focused on the road. Honestly I had a lot on my mind because today was Wednesday which means that in two days or tomorrow she might be headed for Joburg and then a two or a week from now she might just be flying out to wherever she will be. She got in at Gateway and parked near the restaurants outside. We both got off, I headed to her side about to take her hand into mine but she didn't have none of that so I let her be. We went to panarottis and were taken to a table for two, the waitress was ouchea throwing some serious vibes with me. we got to our table and set on opposite sides, I chuckled at this girl. it was really cute but I'm over that life.
Her: Hi my name is Amy and I'll be your waitress for the day, can I get you guys anything to drink so long?
Yaya: I'll have a Bubble-gum milkshake
Me: and I'll have a bottle of Heineken please
Her: coming right up
Me: thanks Amy
With that she smiled and walked away, Yaya eyed me from her menu and went back to looking through it.
Me: something is bothering you
Her: nope... nothing
Me: you know I hate it when you like this. you haven't even left and already things are like this
Her: exactly, I haven't even left and already you flirting with the waitress
Me: what? I was just being nice geez. Can we just talk about what's really bothering you?
Her: nothing's bothering me. I'm fine
Me: really now
Her: Melo why won't you talk to me about what's bothering you. We in a relationship here but you won't even talk to me about what's stressing you out
Me: you are stressing me out Yandiswa!
Her: me?
Me: yes, you. I don't want you to leave but then me telling you that makes it seem like I'm being unfair towards you and that I don't want you to grow and do what you really love. I love that you passionate about this but I really don't want to lose you Yandiswa. I love you
She looked at me with eyes filled with tears.
Her: I thought we were over this
Me: clearly we not because it's been bothering me ever since. I can't bare it Yaya
Her: but Melo this is a great opportunity for me and us in future
Me: I get that but this is inevitable really. We can't shy away from what might happen in this period of time. we ouchea making promises to each other of we not the ones who have control over what is meant to be or not. I'm not being negative here; I'm being realistic
Her: so what are you saying really?
Me: nothing. I'm just saying that we have no control over the future, lets focus on the now and not make promises neither of us will be able to keep
Amy arrived with our drinks.
Amy: so are you guys ready to order?
I looked at Yaya who was looking down.
Me: We'll have a duo of the monsterito pizza
Her: and which flavours would you like?
Me: babe?
Yaya: whichever you choose is fine by me
Me: ok. Saucy Meat Supreme and Saucy Chicken and Mushroom please. Thank you
Her: your order will be ready in 30 minutes. Can I take these?
Yaya gave her the menu and I did the same and with that she thanked us and walked away. I got up from my side and went to sit with Yaya on her side. I hate that my girlfriend was like this because of me. this alone makes me seem like a jerk who wants to get into the next skirt I see when she leaves when actually its nothing like that because I love Yandiswa and I wouldn't dare do anything to jeopardise what she and I have. No skirt is worth it. I lifted her face up with my index finger and wiped her tears with my thumbs, lucky me she wasn't wearing any make up.
Me: you have no idea how much I love you. If I could lay my heart out for you I would so that you see that only you have it and no one will ever take it from you. I didn't mean to upset you here, I just wanted you to see things differently from how they look
She nodded
Me: can I see that smile I love so much now?
Her: leave me alone
She said trying hard not to smile but we both know how much of a charmer I can be, eventually she gave in and smiled for me
Me: there it is
Her: Shut up and move I want to go clean my face
Me: fine
I said rolling my eyes
Me: give me a kiss first
Her: fine
She kissed my cheek with her red lips
Me: Jesus Christ! You better not have left me with these lips of yours
Her: it's my duty
With that I got up and returned to my seat and she got up and went to clean herself up. I took this time to just go through my messages and respond to a few of them until Yaya came back.
Me: took you long enough
Her: I needed to pee too. so while I was in the loo I heard our young waitress tell her friend how she would give it to you
She said laughing
Her: the things she wants to do to you...
She continued laughing making me laugh to. there's something about when someone laughs, their laughter automatically rubs off on you too
Me: seriously?
She was in stitches of laughter. Amy came with the pizza and put it on its stand, she and Yaya shared a gaze before she left us. Yaya cracked up even more
Me: what babe?
Her: so that girl was telling her friend how she can't wait to be all over you doing what pornstars do, said she would let you 50 shade her anywhere and anyhow. So her friend asks, "how big do you think he is?" that's when I came out and responded that you were big enough, I washed my hands and left them looking like they just got struck by lightening
I laughed
Me: maybe I should leave her my number then and we'll get to do the things you refuse to do
Her facial expression changed within a blink of an eye making me laugh at her. she was suddenly so serious and pouting.
Her: is that what you want? Is that what I mean who you'll be doing when I'm gone?
Me: what? NO! I'm kidding haibo Yaya
Her: it's not funny
Me: how quick you were to change. I can't remember the last time I laughed like this
She pinched me with her stiletto nails she had done for the event of this weekend
Me: OUCH!
Her: serves you right!
Me: can we just eat. I'm starving here
Her: eat with Amy
Me: but I want to eat with my Amy
I said tucking her weave behind her ear. She had weave on, it was parted in the middle but apparently you can part it three ways... or so she says. I don't know really, maybe because my sister's don't put on any weave or whatsoever because their hair is long enough. they got the hair from my father's side, yes mom has long hair; probably 14" but my sister's hair is that of a white person and the texture is rich too. they are blessed shame. As for Yaya, her hair is probably 10" long, all I know is that its long enough and she doesn't need the long weave she has on but it looks good on her that's for sure.
Her: I am not Amy
Me: jealousy looks good on you
Her: whatever! Let's just eat and leave.
We ate while chatting about stuff, she was excited about her art going to be sold at the exhibition to people from all over because apparently there was going to be people from all over attending this thing. You could just tell that she loved what she was doing because she lit up every time she spoke of it, she was telling me about how when she gets back she wants to open an art Gallery and it will be a success. She went on to tell me that the money she gets from the pictures she sells; she will put it in her savings account so that she is able to build this gallery of hers. I was proud of her no doubt. When we were done I settled the bill and with that we drove to my home. The house was empty, meaning mom and dad were at work, Yana probably also at work and Ase was out with her friends. We went to my room and we had a steamy make out session. I kissed her side of the head as she laid on my chest trying to catch her breath, she was still on top of me.
Her: I don't think I'll be able to walk after today
I chuckled, she sounded so tired. Yaya knew how to be on top that much I can tell you. She rode me like a pornstar... as August Alsina would say.
Me: I'm curious as to where you learnt to do what you just did
her: screw you!
Me: you just did babe and I am still trying to recover from it
She clicked her tongue. She raised her head and looked at me and I looked at her back
Me: what?
Her: nothing. I'm just admiring what's mine that's all
Me: really now?
Her: yep. I'll never trade this, what we have for anything Melo.
Me: neither would I babe
Her: then please trust and believe that. Please let me leave peacefully and believe that we can make it work despite where I am.
Me: I trust you. I just hope that you trust me too
Her: of cause I do but Melo should this get too much for you and you feel as though you cannot live like this, please tell me rather than to string me along and play me for a fool
I attempted to talk but she put her finger on my mouth.
Her: I know you a guy and you have needs but so do I. What I'm saying is that please don't cheat on me if you can't carry on like this, rather you end things with me and be civil with me over the matter so that I am able to understand why you end things and one more thing, don't pull that stunt you pulled on Kate. Me pissing you off, which will probably happen a lot, please don't blow off some steam by banging some chick, if you want to blow of some steam. Take a shot like any normal person or go shoot some hoops or punch a bag or wall or something. just don't cheat on me or do anything that will break my trust because trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if its broken but the cracks will always be there. Now you can talk
Me: you have yourself a deal. I expect the same from you babe. I trust you way too much and I don't want to lose that trust or be put in a position to doubt you. I trust that we can make this work ok
She kissed me on my lips and I responded, her kiss made me hard all over again. She giggled in between the kiss, I flipped us over so I was in top and the rest is history as they say.