With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 35

We were in my room, me and Ash after getting drunk so good.
Ash: for the mother of God can you please answer that
I shook my head looking at my phone ringing on top of my bed. Melo's been calling and I've been avoiding him. To be honest I don't have a valid reason to avoiding his calls, I guess I'm just scared of his response, what he'll say. What if he dumps me for good and things between us are never the same? What if we get back together and he seeks revenge on me for having slept with Mars? Or what if we get back together but we never the same again? I don't know. A lot is going through my head, too much fear that's for sure.
Ash: you know you want to talk to him Yandiswa
Me: Ash please
Her: at least turn it off
She said rolling her eyes at me. My phone really was annoying but I'm not ready, as long as he heard everything I said to him then I'm good. She grabbed the phone and answered it.
//Her: hey Melo
She removed it from her ear
Him: hey Ash... can I speak to Yaya?
Her: I only answered cause her ring tone is annoying. You on speaker by the way so share your feelings. I'll give you some space
She put the phone on the pedestal and walked out.
Him: Ash?
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Him: Mafaku... please don't quit your dream for an asshole like me and also because my twin threatened she'd kill me if you quit school. Mafaku I have no right to be mad. I actually know how you felt when I screwed you over a million times. Mafaku Ndiyaxolisa(I'm really sorry). I'm not worthy of you, I know. I pushed you to him and I blame myself for everything that's happened. Had I been the man I promised you i'd be then we wouldn't be in this situation. I don't expect you to love me all over again but I'm asking you, one last time to give me one last chance and I swear to you things will be different. No more tears, no more lies, no more fake promises and no more cheating. I'll move to Cali for you just so we can be the way we once were Mafaku. Please just tell me you'll take me back and we'll be back to the way we once were.
I still kept quiet. I had a lot I wanted to say to him or contest the things he said because he's made these promises before and how certain am I that this time will be different?
Him: Ndiyakuthanda Ziqelekazi!(I love you Ziqelekazi)//
He dropped the call. I wiped the tears rolling down my eyes. Life without him is not how I pictured in to be. The reason I spent the amount of time I did with Thomas was so that I could get my mind off him, I needed a distraction from going crazy thinking about Melokuhle and Thomas was more than willing to help me do that, help me forget him and not think much of him but there were times when Thomas wasn't there and all I could think of was Melo. I was crazy about him, probably some kind of obsession buy what's love without a little obsession! I love Melokuhle like never before and losing him for that period of time that I had lost him, I was miserable. I drank every weekend and some times missed classes, yes we spoke almost everyday but it wasn't the same. He wasn't here, it didn't feel like we dating at all. It's no excuse but it is what it is.
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1 month later
It was mid September and the girls and I had just finished shopping, Ash and Serena forced me to do a make over and to fix my hair and just be pretty. When we were done we went to this other restaurant, it was pretty and we were all dressed up formally. The place was empty, I was the first one in
Me: wheres everyone?
It was quiet. When I turned around they weren't here, they were on the other side of the door and the door was closed. They waved at me smiling and left.
"Mafaku"
Oh my God! What was he doing here? We haven't spoken since the heart pouring he did the other night. I have been avoiding him that long, no reason really but I just couldn't bring myself to hear whatever he had to say. His cologne was as I remembered it to be, strong and sexy. I could literally hear him breathe down my neck. Chills were sent down my spine, he didn't even have to touch me to turn me on. Is it normal to be this vulnerable to someone you haven't known for a year? Tell me I'm crazy right? He held me on my shoulders, I could literally feel my knees getting weak and wobbly.
Him: you look beautiful
I kept quiet trying to process what was happening to my body. Why did I feel this weak?
Him: please turn around
I turned around as slowly as I could. He was so close to me I could literally hear his heart beating and it was beating really fast, as fast as mine.
Him: you look beautiful Mafaku
Me: Why am I here?
I didn't know what to say ok! Shoot me! He chuckled nervously.
Him: to celebrate and to eat, heard you haven't eaten all day
I nodded. He took my hand in his and then he led me to a beautifully set table for two under a magical chandelier. He opened the chair for me and I sat down then he went to take his seat.
Me: what are we celebrating?
Him: A new flat, a new job, us... everything
Me: what do you mean? Melokuhle what are you talking about?
I was so confused and excited at the same time. I couldn't even hide the excitement in my voice.
Him: I'll be staying here and working here now until you finish your course or for as long as you want us to live here.
A waiter brought us starters and poured us wine then left. He looked at me and I was looking at him. He smiled. Oh God!
Him: I want us to fix things Yaya and if you not ready I understand. Take all the time you need.
Me: Melo this whole time that I haven't been talking to you I have been doing a lot of thinking, took me some time to actually find myself but I finally did. This love I have for you is not normal, it's not right. We continue to hurt each other, it's unintentional I know but it just doesn't feel right. You and I should take things slowly, just have a normal relationship without solving everything with sex. Just... I don't know, we move at a very slow pace
Him: for a second I thought you were going to end things completely. Thank you Mafaku. Does this mean I can't kiss you?
I chuckled and so did he. This guy. I love to hate him. This whole time I wasn't talking to him I was talking to the school shrink and she suggested I should just take a break from him for as long as I need to and if I feel ready then we should take things at a slow pace.
Me: we can kiss and hug and have puppy love for as long as we need to but we can't have sex
Him: because I love you. I'm willing to do that. I'm willing to settle for this whole puppy love shiit and be a born again virgin as long as we need to.
He said rubbing my hand. He was looking at me straight into my eyes and I into his. It was almost as if I could see right through to his heart. This man before me loves me and I love him just as much and as toxic as our relationship is, I wouldn't prefer us any other way.
Me: and I love you. This is nice by the way
Him: you forgot to compliment me
Me: Jesus Christ! You look dashing Mr Bess
Him: thank you, I know.
I rolled my eyes laughing.
Me: see why I don't compliment you? You full of yourself
Him: ok. Thank you Mafaku
He gave me that charming smile of his I love so damn much! We ate over light conversations. About school and his job and the things we've missed in each others lives for a whole month. After the dinner we shared a dance. Why was this the perfect date I somewhat feel like i've been needing all my life? I've only ever seen these kind of dates on movies only. It was perfect! I looked up at him as we danced
Me: thank you
Him: for?
Me: everything. This. It's perfect
Him: Marry me
I chuckled and looked down
Him: i'm serious.
He let go of me and put his hand in his pocket and took out a maroon box written Catier in cursive writing. He went down on one knee and looked up at me.
Him: marry me Mafaku
I shook my head with my hands on my mouth. he looked at me confused by my response and so was I.
Me: I can't Melokuhle.
He got up still confused.
Him: why?
I took his hand and led him to our table and sat him down on the chair then I sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck.
Me: Melokuhle you 21 and I'm 19, this engagement came a little too early. I'm only doing my 2nd year and I haven't even accomplished half the things I want to accomplish
Him: and who says you can't accomplish all these things you want to accomplish if you married to me?
Me: we both know that you can provide me with everything I want and need such that I won't need a job. Heck you can even build me my dream gallery but that's not what I want.
Him: what do you want Mafaku?
Me: I want us to be partners and not your trophy wife. I want us to be able to work together and so that I can be able to spoil you as much as you would be spoiling me. I'm not saying I don't want to marry you, just not now
Him: thank God I didn't do this publicly because then I would be embarrassed and humiliated
I pulled him close to my face and planted a kiss on his lips.
Me: try this again in about 3 years later
Him: you'll be 21
Me: I know. At least by then I will be out of school and have a job
Him: I love you future
Me: and I love you!
We shared a kiss and then broke it
Me: no hard feelings?
Him: I understand. But keep the ring. Let it be a reminder of today, let it remind you of how much I love you Mafaku. Hang it around your neck or something
Me: fine by me. It's beautiful by the way
Him: i've always had taste. Mom picked it out thou
Me: should have known. She has exquisite taste
Him: obviously. Try it on
Me: why am I scared to?
Him: cause you afraid that when you wear it you'll love having it on your hand and you will maybe reconsider
I chuckled. Why the hell does this guy know me this well?
Me: shut up!
Him: you full? You good?
Me: i'm good. We can get out of here
Him: great then.
I got up off him and we walked out to his car. He was driving a Bugatti. Trust my boyfriend to drive this cool car. I smiled and turned to him
Him: I know you love it and you've always wanted to drive it
He was dangling his car keys in front of my face. I was like a kid in a candy store. My excitement was beyond words. I just love this car shame, there's nothing that special about it either than the fact that it's Awesome as fuck. I grabbed them and he laughed at me. I walked to the drivers seat and he opened the door for me and closed it then he went to get in the passenger seat. I starred the car and drove off. Fuck it was amazing. Everything about it was awesome! He kept taking pictures and laughing at how excited I was. I drove to my campus, I wasn't sleeping at his place that's for sure. I got off and so did he. We stood in front of the car.
Him: I had an amazing time today
Me: you and me both. Thank you
Him: thank your friends for me for bringing you here
Me: wait you put them up to everything?! What am I even asking, of cause you did.
He chuckled looked down and then he looked up at me. You look beautiful
Me: you keep reminding me
Him: I haven't told you in a very long time, I'm making up for lost times
Me: I see.
He pulled me in for a hug, more like a squeeze and then he broke it. We kissed goodbye to each other and I went to my dorm. I was welcomed by my bed filled with teddy bears, chocolates and orchids. Uhhhm ok...
Me: and this?
Her: courtesy of your boyfriend
Me: Melo did this?
Ash: yep
Me: I don't even know what to say
Her: call him and thank him and just do everything thankful
I took my phone and dialled his number. He answered without hesitation like he had been waiting for the call or something and then we spoke a little until he got to his apartment and then said our good nights to each other. I was inlove with this man more than before!