With Pain Come Love 2

Yaya 29

The 6 hour drive to Mthatha felt like an eternity. On the way home I was chatting to my friends. Is it crazy that Naledi, Ash, Serena, Anita and I have a whatsapp group and these people haven't even met yet? I think it's crazy. Eventually my bus came to a stand still at Ultra city shell. I called mom who said she was already here in the parking lot. It was just after 5pm.
Me: mummy
We shared a hug standing outside her car embracing each other.
Her: how are you baby?
She said holding me at arms length. She looked beautiful. I don't blame dad's wife for feeling threatening. She was a goddess. Mom was between a size 32 and a 34.
Me: i'm good mom and how are you?
Her: you lost weight. You look beautiful but you lost weight Mafaku. Haven't you been eating? Are you having relationship problems?
Me: mom come on. I'm hungry, can we buy something to eat and go home?
Her: yep. Relationship problems. What did he do?
Me: we'll talk at home. Can we just go. You look beautiful by the way
Her: thank you, you too. I just got back from a date
We were inside her car now. She started her car and drove off
Me: a date with who?
Her: some boring guy. Gosh I wish I hadn't gone out with him. You ever sit with someone and all you can think of is how you never want to see them again
I just laughed at her. This woman just something else, she had so much attitude going on.
Me: so where did he take you?
Her: mike's kitchen so at least he has some cash-nyana
She parked at plaza on the Western parking and we both got out.
Her: beauty without brains. Like he was too dumb and uneducated for me
Me: poor thing. Why'd you go out with him in the first place?
Her: we met via a friend. He's in these tender things, he's a nolali on another level. Probably got a tender through connections, dumb asshole!
She was so pissed it was entertaining to watch. She was pink.
Her: where to?
Me: checkers, fish & chips and then pizza
Her: are you pregnant child? Cause if you are I will whoop that ass you'll wish you never opened your legs! Fish & Chips is already closed
She had a straight face all of a sudden. I understand the concern but all I needed was comfort food that's all and a joint but I can't smoke any when I'm home.
Me: i'm not pregnant mom I just need comfort food that's all
Her: for what?
Me: really mom
Her: if I'm paying for any of this "comfort food" then you better start talking
Me: don't worry it's not your money mom
She gave me a questioning look, it was so uncomfortable really.
Me: I don't have a blesser if that's what you thinking. Melo sent me cash to come back to SA and he sent me more to come here
Her: this boy is doing the most
Me: mom please. Not now
Her: I'm just saying. For your sake I hope you being honest
Me: why would I lie mom?
She shrugged. We paid with everyone telling us we look so much alike every chance they got. It was annoying to both of us, we know we look alike, we don't need a reminder. We got to Debonaires placed an order and then went to Wimpy and placed another order then went to put the junk in the car.
Her: what's going on Yandiswa?
Me: mom no disrespect but can we have this conversation when we get home please
She raised her hands up in surrender. I got out and went to check on the orders. My phone rang and it was Melo, speaking of him I haven't been answering his calls or texts. I answered him this time around
//Him: are you ok? What the hell Yandiswa?
Me: Melokuhle calm down I'm fine. I'm at the mall with my mom chill
Him: you could have sent a text atleast saying you got the safe. I was worried about you
Me: i'm sorry.
Him: how was your trip?
Me: liberating. Had some time with my thoughts
Him: oh
Me: yeah
Him: after dropping you off I went over at mom's
Me: ok?
Him: you still at the mall?
Me: yeah. Lets talk when I get home yeah?
Him: good idea. Call me Yandiswa
Me: I will Melokuhle!
Him: bye
Me: bye//
Well he's grumpy for no reason. I wonder what he and Mrs Bess spoke about that got him so worked up and all grumpy. I waited on my orders while texting
"Yandiswa Gxaba"
I looked up at whoever this person was. It was a blast from the past. I got up to hug him, he picked me up and spun me around. He put ne down and planted a kiss on my forehead
Me: Oh My God Siseko Jwarha! It's been ages
Him: it hasn't if you ageing like this. You still beautiful
Me: and you still a flirt. You look good, church?
Him: yep. Damn! What about you?
Me: just got home
Him: saw your Facebook. You bowling
Me: hahaha what? No!
Him: Eiffel tower, time square... girl please
Me: I know people I guess
Him: we should do lunch. We have a lot to talk about
Me: yeah we do. Buddy I should go
They were calling my order number.
Him: lets go then... don't give me that look, I only came here cause I saw you from the window.
He took the pizza and carried it. We walked to Wimpy
Him: I thought you lived with your mom only
Me: I do
Him: wimpy?
Me: cravings
Him: periods?
Me: probably
Him: I feel sorry for your boyfriend. Poor thing probably stops everything just so your cravings are satisfied
Me: come on I'm not that bad
Him: you think?
Siseko is that friend that's deep in the friend zone, so deep he's like a brother. In high school people thought we were dating but nope. I intimidated his girlfriends, but it was for his own good. Now Siya is that guy in my life. We got to mom's car and he greeted before hugging me goodbye. I got a Facebook notification, he had tagged me in a picture we took while walking to the car. I smiled to myself thinking of Melo who would call me the minute he saw the picture. He can be so jealous. His caption was "a blast from the past ♥. My munchies still looks good" he inserted inlove emojies. This guy was gonna get me dumped. He called me munchies because of the weed and because of my cravings, ones he used to satisfy all the time.
Mom: I didn't know he was back
Me: neither did i. He saw me at debonaires and came in
Her: you abused that boy
Me: never! He did the things he did by choice
Her: you took out your moods on the poor kid Yandiswa
Me: oh mom. Can we get a McFlurry
Her: you better be on your periods!
She said driving in the drive thru. We got our order and drove home. I went to charge my phone and then went to join mom in her warm room with the pizza. She was in her blankets watching TV. These telemundo things.
Her: so?
Me: don't shout, I just need my mom right now
Her: ok
I told her EVERYTHING. From before I left for Cali to yesterday's Miranda Suicide welcome. I was crying now. She just pulled me in for a hug and brushed my back. I was probably getting my period, the amount of tears I have when I'm going to be on my periods is too much.
Me: what do you think I should do? I can't bring myself to dump him. I just... I don't know. he's a weakness, he's my weakness.
Her: you've let him become your weakness baby. I'm your mother and I raised you better than this. I understand this whole first love thing because i've been there before but baby you need a break. This is too much drama for you to take in. You love him, I get it but Sthandwa Sam this boy is constantly hurting you knowing very well that you going to forgive him or come around eventually. For him to change he needs to see that you can live without him. He needs to know that you don't need him for your life to be complete. Baby don't let a man have this much power over you, it's not right. It's not good for you
I just nodded. Mom knows best after all
Her: I see why you needed the junk
We both laughed
Her: please don't let this boy hurt you like this. I don't want to see you cry like this because of him. Please just gather strength and take a break from him. Be it a month or a year but you need some time away from him. It will do you good.
I got out of her arms and stuffed myself with pizza, she just laughed at me.
Me: don't judge. You said it yourself, I lost weight
She just nodded laughing.
Me: so when are you coming to Cali?
Her: not in a million years
Me: Mom!
Her: when I have money
Me: well I've been selected with two other students in my class to go represent our university I'm Washington
Her: baby that's amazing! When?
Me: the final show will be in August the first weekend of August
Her: I'm so there. Baby I'm so proud of you
She pulled me in for a hug squeezing me so tight I could barely breathe. This woman
Her: I want tickets. I will clear my schedule to be there
She let go of me. She was so happy and excited for me. My number one supporter. She kissed my cheek.
Her: this is amazing. You are going far! To think I doubted you choosing art
Me: geez mom
Her: I was worried ok! Now I'm proud of you.
Me: right. I need to call Ledi and tell her I'm home safe before she starts calling you
Her: and that one is capable
I walked out to my room which was opposite her and found my phone with a dozen missed calls from Ledi, Melo, Ash and Siseko... well it was an unnamed number so I'm guessing it's him.i conference called Ledi and Ash telling them to not panic I was still alive and well. then I called Siseko telling him we would meet up tomorrow for lunch and it was on me... I owe him for the trouble I've put him through in the past. after calling him came the hardest call of them all... Melo.
//Me: hey babe
Him: hi
Me: Siseko is just a friend. Chill!
Him: mh
Me: don't. Just don't Melo cause he and I literally grew up together
Him: fine
Me: so what did you and Mrs Bess talk about?
Him: I told Mrs Bess everything that's happened and she thinks we should take a break. She says I owe it to you for what I've put you through
Me: all I'm hearing is Mrs Bess said this or thinks this... I'm not dating her, I'm dating you
Him: I think she has a point. As much as I don't want to but she's right. I've put you through a lot of crap I had promised you I wouldn't and I'm sorry for it all. I hate myself as it is and i hate myself even more for doing this over the phone because I know very well that in person I wouldn't be able to do it
His voice sounded like it was ready to break. He sounded like he was about to cry. I can already picture him with his eyes all red and his ears all pink.
Me: mom said the same. Sthandwa Sam we toxic to each other, we can't solve anything without involving sex. We cannot have a proper conversation without tearing up each other's clothes. I don't want to do this too but it's something we both have to do. I'm sorry
There's was silence for some time. None of us wanted to end the call. We were just listening to each others sniffs
Him: Ndiyakuthanda Mafaku
Me: I love you too Melokuhle
Him: we'll talk when you get back
Me: Melo
Him: whatever this is doesn't mean we can't meet up for lunch and just have a chat. You still my best friend Yandiswa. This changes nothing
Me: ok Melo
Him: go back to your mom, we'll chat on whatsapp later ok?
Me: ok
Him: this doesn't mean you allowed to date anyone
I chuckled
Me: same applies to you too. Bye Melo
Him: bye Yaya//
I got out laughing. This guy was mad. One minute we crying and the next he's ordering me around. I hope this works. For both our sakes. I went to make us hot chocolate and then went back to mom's room. I was gone for two hours straight, blame the conference call and Siseko. I handed her her mug and then put mine on the pedestal and dug in on my wimpy meal. This was heavenly
Her: you won't fit in your jeans
Me: fine by me
Her: everything ok?
Me: spoke to Melo and turns out his mom said the same thing you said.
Her: oh
Me: yep. She also thinks we need space
Her: how long?
Me: hahaha that is a good question.
Her: take as much time as you need baby. It won't be easy but it has to be done
Me: I know. But I have you guys
She laughed and kissed my cheek with her warm lips. Home is where mom is. We dialled my grandma and she answer after some time, we spoke for an hour talking and laughing and just me telling them about Cali and Washington. They were both going to be there for me and I couldn't be any happier. After all the junk eating and calls I went to get my phone and started chatting with my people. I was gonna sleep with mom tonight. I told the girls about my agreement with Melo, that's what it was really; an agreement to take a break. Ase sent me a voice note and a picture of a dreamy guy. I thought Melo was dreamy but damn!!! This Mr Craine dude was on his own level. She was all excited saying he's taking her out for lunch tomorrow.