It's time for Jalen's era to come to an end.
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15 MAY
It was almost our one-year anniversary, yet he had no communication. I didn't really understand why he did what he did.
Things weren't so good, for Tom and Mattheo either. Loads of petty arguments had arisen. The emotions being displayed with one another were chaotic and a disaster.
I didn't want to be a burden on any of them, I could understand Mattheo's point of view. He was struggling, and desperately in need of help. Then again, I could heavily sympathize with Tom as well.
He was being treated wrongly.
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"I know, I know, Emerlyn." Mattheo declared with a small sigh escaping his lips. "I really do want to be the best person I can be."
"But lately, I feel as though, I'm slowly losing my senses, and sometimes it feels as though it isn't worth- living any longer.." Mattheo shared his grief.
His sorrow touched my heart. This year wasn't a good year at all.
"Mattheo, don't say that. You have a lot to live for."
"This world is temporary, Emerlyn."
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"By the way, Jalen wanted me to tell you, he's incredibly sorry for what he's done and wanted to talk to you but didn't have the guts," Mattheo confessed grabbing my tangled attention. "He said that he didn't want to take his anger out on you, so that's why he avoided you."
He didn't have the guts to face me because he knew what he had done was sinister.
Treating me like shit.
"Oh..."
Oh.
He didn't even trust me enough to share his grief.
"Right intention but wrong execution." Mattheo continued. "I know I've been terrible in helping you with your relationship problems, but trust me." He paused.
"You don't want to be with a guy like that, and I'm saying it as a guy." He advised.
It felt like a cycle, I would be violated with every sort of emotion, then treated with silence, and then an apology- picked up from the trash can, would be thrown at me. Was I forever going to be treated like this?
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"Emerlyn, these have been the worst few weeks of my life and I didn't want to take any of my anger on you nor did I want to burden you with anything." He apologized once again, as his eyes grew watery.
"But I would've loved to help you.."
Jalen had changed.
We went from being those lovebirds who lettered each other even in the shining twilight, to being two strangers who only knew each other's backstory.
I missed, missed, missed that Jalen that would ponder over even the slightest attention from me.
"I know, but I want to do it on my own," his voice was low and agitated. "I love you."
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