My FiFi

Fifty five

So many things were going through my mind
I couldn't believe what I just heard
It doesn't make any sense.

I started to retrace the steps, back to when FiFi left Nigeria, how old Tamara is and when she was born

I did the research the whole night, digging through the what's not and what's seems to be true

I can't be fully certain of what it is until I make proper findings of this newly arising issue

This could only come out in one of two ways
It is either she's mine biologically or she's not

Somehow I don't want to get my hopes high on this what's not, in the audio recording I didn't hear her admit that Tamara is mine but from what Donald said  it is clearly obvious that he's not the father.

Which makes me wonder who the father is and why she is going a great deal to hide Tamara from him and portray that old fool has the father

This is one thing am going to see through to the very end, I don't care what comes out of this investigation of mine am just going to make sure that the truth is out

Even though deep down I want the child to be mine
I don't want to get my hopes up
But I just can't imagine how I would react if She's really mine and why FiFi kept her away from me

I couldn't sleep all through the night dwelling on it

I guess this is my unending dilemma with FiFi
Sleepless nights
Unending pain
Draining affection
Continuous disappointments
Heartthrobs and Headaches

I have lived through the pain and it's unfortunate to know that am still living through it

The next morning I was already in Tamara's school before the school itself opens
I was thinking of how I was going to approach the situation without scaring Tamara away
As it is the child is the priority

I waited outside awkwardly for almost an hour before the school opened and another hour before Tamara and FiFi showed up

The mother and daughter were engrossed in their conversation that they didn't notice me until they were standing right in front of me

Of course I got opposite reactions from both of them
Tamara was happy to see me while FiFi was acting like I was polluting the environment

Tamara and I had our little bonding moments and the urge to pull out a strand of her hair in the process .
this is a long shot and if I don't act on this impulse now I might never get the chance to

The probability of FiFi telling me the whole truth is very slim so i will rather be absolutely certain of the results myself

So I playfully pulled out a few strands of Tamara's hair while hugging her , she winced at the pain and it was quick to disappear with more tingling

"Sweetheart go inside the school, you already late " FiFi said and Tamara sadly had to cut short our fun

"Oh but Olly will you be here when I close from school "

"Of course princess I said I will be here and am going to keep to that promise "

"Okay! Bye Olly! Bye mommy! "
She waved and bounce on

Then I turn to see FiFi's gaze almost spitting fire and oozing smoke

"What are you doing here Olly!" She wrapped her arms together
"Didn't we agree that I was going to get back to you on you on this "