It Was a Yes, But I Never Said It

19. It Was Always a Lie

1 hour 24 mins! Yes, that's true. I talked to Rihan for full 84 mins over call. Was I happy on seeing his call? Yes! Was I on cloud nine? Yes! Was I smiling? Yes!!

I often thought that it will always take a lot of energy and self control to act all cool in front of him. To ignore what happened in the past and to act as if nothing mattered. It seemed impossible to ever have a normal light hearted conversation with him again like we used to have.

I always feel sorry about what I did to this guy. How emotionally attached we got lately and we couldn't do anything about it. And the worst part was that it all happened because of me. Have I not replied to any of his texts, have I not proposed him a one month dating deal, we would have saved ourselves so much trouble.

But it is well said that time heals everything and the same happened in our case as well. It helped us heal a lot. We can go with the saying that we made some progress. We just need to make some more.

And by keeping all the self anger and self pity aside, let's come back to our event of the day. My call with Rihan!

We talked about everything and nothing. Some conversations just flow effortlessly and ours was that. He was telling me how girls are crazy about him. The recent call he received from one of his ex, a girl he flirted with for almost four months when he shifted to Mumbai four years ago.

Yeah, I am thinking the same! When we were dating, this same guy used to say, "Adira no other girl will come into my life. If I haven't let anyone enter my life so far, I will not let anyone enter in future as well. And yeah, he is the same guy who said that he has dated only two girls so far. And if I am not wrong, he is the same guy who said that a lot of girls flirted with him when he was in Mumbai but he never paid heed to any of their advances." Poor me, who took his words seriously. But I just learnt my lesson. In Rihan's case, it's always the opposite of what he says. I just have to remember it and my life will be sorted.

I finally realised that whatever he said in the one month we dated was just flirting. I guess it was my first time due to which it's silly of me to take his every word seriously. His words that he wouldn't lie to me for a month was a lie in itself.

He won't stand without saying a lie and I can't stand a lie. And yet we are still talking. What a pun!

Whenever I find that he has lied to me, my heart breaks into pieces. It just feels like I did the right thing 8 years ago by breaking our friendship and by promising myself that I won't talk to this guy ever again. May be I should have stuck by the promise I made to myself back then. I should have not felt scared by the universe. If universe had any plans of uniting our paths, let it be. I shouldn't have added someone into my present because I am scared of them being added into my future.

What have I gotten myself into?