It Was a Yes, But I Never Said It

31. Valentine's Day 2023

Finally, after almost 45 days I got to hear his voice. I know I have been avoiding him, it was my new year resolution to stay away from him throughtout the year in a hope to win back my mental and emotional stability. An attempt to find my lost self back and I have been trying very hard to acheive it.

I mean, if I am being truthful here, then apart from refraining myself from receiving his calls, I was hardly making any progress. My thoughts were still overloaded with him. I kind of set myself free for a couple of days after seeing his cheap picture wherein he was surrounded by hot models with his teeth shining bright white. But I missed him a lot on his bday.

And I guess he missed me too as he was so generous post his bday that he treated me with two amazing watsapp stories of him dancing with those very same hot models whose size of clothes was matching his size of brain, just too little.

How can a person make such cheap videos public? And, to mention, he wasn't alone in those shots. His dear friend Ami was blessing everyone with his presence and one can hardly differentiate between the two. Same shirt, same hairstyle, same level of excitement.. eewww.. both were looking jerks.

Why is it so easy to influence this idiot. By the way, let me share a brief introduction about Ami - A 35 year old divorced lawyer cum father of a little pretty girl who lives with her mother cum tiktok influencer with a girlfriend who is at their place every weekend with her other girlfriends for party! In all a total jerk.

And wow! In this huge universe, my dear Rihan could find only this man to make his role model. No wonder, through those highly cheap videos, one can ever find any dissimilarity between the two.

Through those whatsapp statuses I can confidently say that this guy has moved on but the way he has chosen is disgusting. Is this how he has been living for the past years. Neither my eyes nor my heart was liking what they were seeing. I feel like calling him right away and screaming what the fuck is wrong with him but I have no right to do so. He is just a friend now and how he lives his life is his choice and his choices aren't my space to intrude.

But atleast through those statuses, I got the clear message that he has moved on. Now all I need to do is make myself understand that "we are over." These videos might help in reinforcing this message to my heart and overcoming my feelings for him and hence deserves a place in my gallery. No wonder, these are going be the most visited additions in my gallery.

Days flew by, of course with him owning my mind. But luckily, this time in addition to my feelings for him, I have found another feeling which constantly reminds me that he has moved on, we are now just friends and how big of a jerk he is. And this is surely progess!

Valentine's day is approaching. Although Rihan was busy with his hot shot models, Mandy seems to have all the time in the world for me. Since when has he turned into this kind of a guy. Though I have been avoiding his calls and texts but it doesn't seem to affect his determination even a bit. Be it morning, noon, evening or night, his texts doesnt seem to fade.

Mandy is a nice guy and a very good friend but nothing else. I am trying my best to save our friendship, if even a bit of it is left somewhere but he is trying his best to ruin it. And, my inner instinct kind of knew that this rainfall of text and attention is because of the approaching valentine's day. Stay away from Mandy until he get his wits back has become the mantra of my life for now.

It's finally valentines but a normal work day for me. The guy I have fallen in love with is busy flirting with hot chicks and doesn't even believe in valentines day. I am missing him. It's past noon here and way past midnight in his timezone. I know it's wrong but I thought to atleast spy on him and see if he is online on whatsapp.

To my amusement, he is. What the hell is this guy doing on whatapp at 2ish in night. I was thinking when suddenly my phone started ringing. IT'S HIM. My hands started to tremble and the phone was dropped as a reflex.

I cant take his call. He found out I was spying on him. He knew I opened his chat window. Oh god, I should drown myself in a handful of water. My heart started to pace like a race car and the thoughts doesn't seem to stop. But the ringing did. Ah!! I took a deep breadth, the phone finally stopped ringing. It was a relief. Wait no, I am not letting this guy spend this day with some bitch. No chance on earth. Let him think what he wants to think about me but he is spending time with me today.

Plus we are friends. If he says something, I can always act ignorant and say I didn't realise it's 14th Feb today, ah valentine's day. 

And with that 10 minutes post his call, I texted him "Wassup"

I got a cheerful reply "Good good you tell. Busy?"

He must be talking to some hot shot chick prior to me due to which he seems to be in a good mood but nevermind.

"Nope, work as usual" I replied but what I really wanted to reply was "call me, silly".

Minutes later he texted back with a question, "call?"

My mind was saying a big yes but I politely replied, "Call!"

But there was silence for a couple of minutes and I was pretty sure that he didn't understand my reply and inner me was getting impatient.

Then finally he replied, "shall I call?"

I typed in "exclamation mark means a yes but nevermind, I am calling you" and with that I called him.

"Hello" I finally got to hear him. I was so happy that I can't explain in words. Last year, this very day he texted me for the first time from canada. Today is valentine's day and we are talking! I would have loved to have him as my valentine.. woah I am thinking too much.

"Hey there" I replied.