It Was a Yes, But I Never Said It

24. The Naive Girl

My sister always told me, " Girl, you are so naive..." I just forgot it when I was talking to Rihan.

Have he not mentioned about this girl with whom he flirted for more than three months when he shifted to Bombay, I would have never realised that whatever he was doing during the one month was all flirting and there wasn't any meaning to it.

His words, "hey Adira I have been with just two girls in college and that's it. It didn't work out and post that I never get involved with anyone. For years, I got numerous offers but I used to say that I like a girl but it's one-sided." Ha ha and Miss Adira (yes that's me) thought their could be some truth in what he is saying as he promised that he won't lie to me in this one month. Silly me!

Over our recent call, he mentioned about long conversations he had with a girl twice. Apparently the girl is a matrimonial match suggested by his mother. And this guy claims to love me. Lol!

I think this Rihan guy was being very generous to me over our recent call as he also shared a couple of clicks from a recent party he had with his roommate. The guest list was small but quite pretty! Four divas dressed in quite revealing clothes with faces buried in kilograms of makeup and making the best use of their bodies to look sexy. Wow! Seriously dear friend Rihan. You thought of sharing these with me. And the story is yet not over. There was our hero, Rihan, clicking selfies with these beauties. Getting clicked while he was surrounded with these divas. And most importantly, smiling in all the pictures. Yeah! I guess apart from these pictures or the ones wherein girls are involved, I have never seen him smiling in any of his pictures. Seemed like someone was having a very good time!

He always said that he loves fashion photography. No wonder he loves being surrounded by models.

Since the one month of pretending is over, I am getting to witness the real Rihan. A womanizer!

And, I just forgot to mention that we are playing the lie game again! He recently texted that he was in Edmonton for three days. But later he shared pictures of him celebrating Diwali with his room mates. Strangely the dates of Edmonton and Diwali are falling on the same day. I was just wondering, how can a person be at two different places at the same time. Why does he have to lie? Why?

All I want to do is avoid his call and never let him hear my voice again. It took me months, a couple of white hair, low blood pressure, countless tears and 6 kg weight loss to get over him. To overcome what happened in between us in June. I can't let myself land into anything with him ever again. I can't fall for his talks anymore. For the sake of my sanity, health and self respect, I have got to stop talking to him.

He can't just go on flirting with me to have fun. I promised one month to ensure universe won't make our paths cross ever. But that's it. No more entertainment for him. I have got to stay away from him. I am nice to people who talk nicely to me and I don't want him to get any wrong ideas because of that.

I already felt cheap for asking him out for a month and I dont want to feel that ever again. I had stopped liking me as a person and I don't want that to happen again. For that, he has to stop texting and I have to stop replying. He has to stopping calling and I have to stop answering. Whatever happened was history and all the memories need to be locked in some box and never opened or mentioned again.

I have to stop thinking about him and have got to start thinking about myself. I need to acknowledge, how much it hurts to pretend that I am okay with all this. That I am okay with him going out with other girls. That I am okay with him flirting with other girls. That nothing effects me. Because it does. It does effect me very badly and I am tired of pretending now. Pretending for him, so that he stays okay. Not even in my dream I want to see him suffering. I am afraid of his reaction if I leave. Last time, when I left in college, he got into drinking as he holds me responsible for that. I know we both are grown up now, but I don't want to take any chances. But I really don't know how long will I be able to keep up with this act.