Choose Me- the second novel

Chapter 21- He is maddening.

Taylor's POV

The problem with myself and Jay is that we are the same, in so many ways. Right now I cannot judge him really for kissing Rachel and touching her in front of me because I am doing the same with Matthew. And even though I genuinely like him, even though he is maddeningly beautiful I must keep him at bay. He's dangerous, and so I will now go back to hating him and arguing with him. No more stolen kisses and promises of one night only. It's unforgivable, we will tell nobody. I will marry Matthew, and he will, I don't know keep messing around with other women until he finally settles down and gets himself a beautiful wife.

Eyeing up the cocktail list, sitting on one of the stools, Ross returns from wherever he has been and sits the other side of me.

"Rach do you wanna go halves on a pitcher and then we can just share it" I ask her.

"Good thinking" she smiles over at me.

"What cocktail do you want and don't say strawberry daiquiri" I ask her, it's too sweet I might just die if I have to drink a whole pitcher of it. I glance at her again eyeing Jay just briefly, even though I'm totally in love with Matthew, the attention that Gilbert Scott is paying Rachel is intense. His hands everywhere, his lips almost everywhere. I look away, so much for sorry.

"You wanna choose it?" She suggests somewhat preoccupied by Jay biting her lip. I give up and order.

"Can I get a pornstar martini pitcher" I smile at the barman. He leans into me, much to Matty's distaste. He asks if we want two separate glasses and I nod.

"Yes believe me I'll be sharing it" I laugh. He fiddles with his lip ring pausing looking at me before setting on making up the cocktail and doing his job rather than flirting with college girls.

"Ah Tay it was my round" Rachel says to me as I pour her a glass.

"I got it" I tell her. The barman produces two Jack and cokes and I hand them to Matthew and Ross. I didn't bother with Jay, I'm pretending that he doesn't exist. No matter how much I want to stare at him.

The bartender seemingly bored comes by and offers me some sweets for my drink. I genuinely smile at him and take some before he goes off again.

"Can't take you anywhere babe" Matty laughs cheekily.

"Maybe I should up the PDA" he asks me laughing. I brush his knee reaching up his thigh and smirk.

"Please" I say to him.

"Taylor, are you drunk?" he teases me.

"Yeah that's never been a problem before. Please Matty" I ask him. He steps down from his stool and faces me on mine. I lean back a little on the bar.

"What do you want baby" he asks me, I bite my lip now that's more like it. Rach is smiling as I look over at her.

"I'm not giving you a lap dance that's off bounds"  he smiles.

"Ah that's a shame I'll give you another one back" I wink.

"You know you want to see Tay dance in front of you again, that was pretty hot. Brought out my gay side actually" Rach laughs and I smile at her gratefully.

"I want you right now" I tell him as I kiss him seductively.

"You're seriously killing me" he says looking me up and down. I pull him into me getting lost in his embrace.