Choose Me- the second novel

Chapter 86- libido

Taylor's POV

Mexican food goes down a treat and before Matthew heads up for a shower he settles me onto the sofa with a blanket around me, the fire is alight and I close my eyes.

Every single thought that comes into my head surrounds Harper, the baby that I lost. Even with my eyes closed. I pull Matthew's shirt down and decisively try to take charge of my own mind. I think about him instead, Matthew's curls and the way they drop and fall over his forehead, the green eyes that look up into mine. I smile tracing my hands over my thighs, feeling the soft material of his shirt, the scent of his aftershave emanating from the shirt. Hearing the water thunder upstairs from his shower I decide thinking about him in the shower would be the best release. The way the water drops down his forehead, and his little smirk.

My libido has increased since being pregnant, to a point where I cannot get enough of sex. I think about how Matthew kisses me, his strong hands and how capable he is in bed. My hand teases around my inner thighs, just like he showed me. Just a light finger stroke and I'm getting carried away.

My phone buzzes on my chest and I jump slightly, I answer it with one hand stopping my illicit behaviour at once. The shower thundering down water upstairs as I take a deep breath and wait for whomever is interrupting my moment to talk.

"Hey" he says and instantly my tummy seizes up, it's like he has a radar. Informing him when I'm horny and telling him that now would be a good time to turn his charm on.

"Jay" I say shocked at how breathless I am. Surprised how just two words can be so charged with sexual tension.

There's a slight pause as I move my hand just a few inches to my thigh, predator that he is I know that Jay has detected my mood. And I should hang up, disconnect the call.

"Now is actually not the best time" I whisper.

"Why did you answer then" he says seductively and I breathe out a breath I hadn't realised I had been holding onto.

"Why's it not a good time babe?" He asks and I can see him smiling mischievously in my head. His lips and piercing eyes, just like in the embarrassing dreams I've had of him.

"Oh you do not need to know" I say flustered, and I'm backing myself into this corner with him.

"Mmm well I'm sitting here trying to watch my flat screen and I can't stop thinking about you" he says silkily before pausing and assessing. I hold my breath, begging myself not to betray my actions and sigh down the phone. Really what girl wouldn't want to be admired by Jay. He's drop dead gorgeous and it's a huge compliment.

"Your lips Taylor. Particularly the way you bite them" he continues softly. Another pause and I breathe out steadily, his voice sending me places and commanding me to be bad Taylor.

"You are in a good mood, normally you would have shut me down by now" he says stunned.

"Mmm Taylor please talk to me" he sighs and my hand finds its way to where it needs to be.

"Jay what was it you wanted ?" I say trying to squash my needs and desires.

"I wanted to talk to you" he says softly.

"Preferably I want you here, but I get that's not gonna happen" he adds and my tummy flips.

"Why do you want me, Jay" I ask him breathlessly and he gasps slightly before recovering.

A big sigh before he talks, I feel that sigh and I gasp slightly.

"Because I think I'm in love with you" he laughs and I chuckle.