Choose Me- the second novel

Chapter 61- all the time

Matty's POV

I'm trying. I'm trying so hard not to think about my fiancée being around him whilst sketching in my book, images that keep resembling her. Parts of her, her eyes or her lips. I gaze at the small sketch in my book of the most beautiful girl I've ever met. How I tried to keep her away from Jay for so long, knowing exactly what would happen when he saw her. That he would pursue her, but to be fair I thought that after all of this time he would have just tried somebody else. I will not lose her though.

Jay is my friend, I like him as a friend, I hear her small voice echo in my head and I curse him. As I pack up my books for media, and roll up a cigarette. I try not to smoke around her just in case she is pregnant. I researched possible early symptoms of pregnancy and learnt that coldness or drops in temperature are possible alongside being extra emotional. She's also really turned on all of the time and that's totally a thing too.

The mere thought of her walking around possibly holding my future is enough to make me possessive, to the extent that I want to be with her all of the time. A figure stands in front of my desk, I take out my headphone and look up. From the black jeans in front of me, hands on the desk as she leans over and appraises me. It's blondie from the party, the girl who knew my name yet I still cannot remember hers. She's talking to me, her mouth moving as she watches my confused expression. Oh Lord, I don't have time for this.

"Hey, are you going to the party later" she asks.

"Hey, ugh what's your name again?" I ask back.
She blonde, her hair has been bleached a lot, and it's turning greyish purple. Shes got really dark eyebrows and dark eyes so one would assume she had dark hair.

"Rosie" she says smiling glad of the attention.

"So are you?" She asks confidently and I notice her friends behind her watching on.

"Nope, sorry I'm busy." I tell her, feeling slightly bad that all of her friends had to witness the rebuke. She looks wounded and I glance back down at my books, packing them away.

"Ah that's a shame" she replies smiling at me recovering from her embarrassment. I smile up at her and continue to pack up. Conversation has ended for me. She lingers and then leaves when she realises I will not be looking up and paying her anymore attention.

Slinging my bag over my shoulder and walking out from the lecture hall, I put my headphones back in. Cigarettes after sex playing a melancholy tune in my ear as I walk down to art.

"Matthew" the director of art pulls me aside and I remove my headphones. Andrew, the director of art is a trim man that always wears brightly coloured suits. It's quirky.

"That print you did for your assessment of the girl" he begins and I smile slightly, a print of Taylor.

"It's got a lot of attention, you specifically have been asked to do an exhibition. I'm sure that I don't have to tell you how much of a big deal that is for a first year" he says impressed and clapping me on the shoulder.

"Wow that is" I begin and he smiles.

"It will be in a proper art house, a great experience for you to showcase your work" he explains.

"I am very grateful for the opportunity" I tell him smiling before he saunters off in his green suit. I smile after him noticing another blonde girl approach me in the hallway. This particular one has a loud mouth and an awful sense of fashion.

"Hey" I say to Rachel noticing her flustered expression.

"Matty, Jay he's ugh. I wanted to warn you because I know you and Tay are I dunno serious or some shit. I know you love her. But Jay he's obsessed with her" she says and as I look at her properly she doesn't look happy. Her normal bright approach to life missing.