Choose Me- the second novel

Chapter 87- want a bit more ?

Taylor's POV

Monday morning comes by quickly, Matthew and I spent Sunday together going for a walk in the woods nearby our home and eating a roast dinner, he cooked explaining that he spent some time in the UK as a child and that a roast is the most comforting food he remembers. I avoid my phone all day feeling terribly guilty about my behaviour towards Jay. That mixed in with continuous thoughts of my baby that I lost keeps me from celebrating what I do have; Matthew and the baby that is still cooking in my tummy.

The first thing I insist upon Monday morning is showering, washing away all of the thoughts and spending a long time just standing under the water. Matthew comes in as I stand staring into space. He slips under the water and puts his arms around me. I kiss him over and over, surrendering my pain and getting lost in his capable hands.

Matthew watches me as I dress in a black jumper dress before pulling on his own clothes and carrying my stuff to the door.

"We can stay off" he whispers as he places my jacket over my shoulders, he watches me stare at the door and I smile up at him shaking off my bad mood.

"Let's try and do some normal things" I say quietly and he nods. I need to be around normal conversation, to focus on everyday things like what to eat for lunch and when my essays are due in. That way I can feel more like myself again.

"I love you" he whispers rubbing my thigh before he reverses off of the drive.

"I love you, I know I've been a bit up and down and I'm working on it" I tell him and he shakes his head looking over at me before pulling me in for a quick kiss.

"Taylor, I understand. We're both still getting our head around this, and it's totally normal to feel the way you are feeling" he explains softly.

"You're the best most supportive fiancé I could ever ask for" I tell him and he smiles over at me, placing his hand on bump and rubbing me.

"Thirteen weeks" I whisper to him and he smiles.

Matthew parks up at university and escorts me to psychology, kissing me at the door before leaving he instructs me to message him should anything worry me or if I just feel like I need to be at home rather than here.

Climbing the steps up to my seat I spot Jay and instantly my eyes lock onto his. His hair is pulled into a top knot and he's wearing a shirt today. Another Ralph Lauren one from his collection. Ross gives me a grin and I breathe out shakily. Taking my jacket off and sitting between the two of them I cross my legs over and look ahead.

"Morning" Jay says nicely and I smile up at him.

"Morning" I reply instantly feeling the physical tension between us already.

"Nice weekend?" He smirks and I swat him as he laughs.

"Yes yours" I ask him, Jay never fails in getting what he wants from somebody. Right now he wants to make me laugh and he is doing well.

"Just perfect" he sighs melodramatically and I snicker before focusing on the lecture and not either of the two seriously hot blonde guys next to me.

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Jay's POV

Taylor, is flirting with me, her eyes continually finding mine as I sit next to her. The problem is that I see her now and instantly I'm turned on, even more than before. She glances up at me and I want her moaning in my ear like she did down the phone on Saturday night. I briefly imagine her straddling me in this very chair, how she would call out my name and gasp in my ear, I look away from her legs and at the front.