If you ever meet me,
If you ever get to know me,
You will always see the good side and never the bad.
At first glance, you'd never know I was constantly sad,
You'd never know how much I truly hate myself.
I only show you what I want you to see,
Because in the end, it's how I want you to remember me,
As someone happy.
Someone that seemed lucky,
Someone who was a shoulder to cry on,
When your eyes get puffy.
I don't want you to see me when I'm alone,
Crying on the floor of my home,
Wishing I was dying.
I don't want you to suffer the same pain like me.
That's why I hide all my pain,
So that nobody will see.
I try to be the very thing I can never achieve,
So I can be the role model for you,
And show you the bliss of being free.
I want to give you the happiness I never received.
I want to give you the smiles and memories that you may hold deep.
So when I cease to be,
You'll remember me as who I wanted to be,
Happy.
