✓ | The Altered Version (Fate's Transgression Series, #2) [UNDER REVISION]

TAV 42: Pass Through

CHAPTER FORTY-TWO : Pass Through

Clarinette | Liana

I don't know how many times I got disappointed today. First, I was betrayed by my most trusted aid, Valan. Kahit narinig ko naman ang rason niya, subalit hindi ito pumasok sa puso at utak ko. Nangunguna ang sakit na dulot ng nangyari.

Valan was there for the last three months. Kasama namin siya sa lahat ng plano, sa lahat ng training na ginagawa nila, at kausap ko siya lagi sa mga bagay na siya lang ang nakakaalam. Aside from the Queen, Valan is the only one I trusted with my real identity, and the curse.

He knew I was not from here. Kaya kapag kami lang ang magkasama, lagi niya akong tinatawag na Liana, dahil 'yon ang totoo kung pangalan. I trusted him with the information I didn't even tell the Duke, and he dared to betray me.

Second, the Queen. Among the people I protected, she's the most unworthy person to gain that from me. I protected her from the Duke, I did not blame her for what happened, but it turned out she's an antagonist in my life. Bakit hindi niya sinabi sa akin 'yon dati?

At least I would be aware. Marami siyang oras para ipulong ako sa mga mangyayari, ngunit hindi niya ginawa. I was drowned in a delusion of her sweet facade, and how I hate the idea that I protected her from the accusation.

Wala akong mapagkakatiwalaan dito, dahil ang dalawang tao na siyang akala ko ay kakampi ko sa laban na ito ay siya palang sumisira sa buhay ko sa simula pa lang. They betrayed me, and I disappointed myself.

Nagtiwala ako sa maling tao. Hinayaan ko ang aking sarili na linlangin ng kanilang mga kasinungalingan. I don't know if I would be able to trust other people again, because this situation had given me an unwanted trauma.

How I wish Vyrre didn't have any secrets he is keeping from me. I don't think I can handle it if I will eventually know. Kung ano man ang tinatago niya, sana kaya kong intindihin iyon. I don't want to blame someone for what they had done, but my patience got burst.

I feel anguish at some point, but what can I say except that everything already happened? Ngayon, para akong lubog na lubog sa ilalim ng lupa. I wanted to divert my head from thinking about it, but I can't seem to stop.

I had gone beyond worse, and I am afraid if there will be another revelation now, I will literally collapse. Mabuti na siguro na hinayaan ako ng Reyna na isipin lahat ng nangyayari, because if I had requested for the continuation of her answer, I would not take it.

At this moment, I am occupying a room on the second floor. The windows were closed, and covered by thick curtains. Naka-off ang ilaw at nasa dulo ako ng kama nakaupo habang nakatingin sa kawalan.

My thoughts were heavy but it did not make me sleep. On top of everything inside my head, I am worried about my husband. Gusto kong malaman ang kalagayan niya ngayon, gusto ko siyang makita, gusto kong malaman kung maayos ba ang lagay nila Teirro dahil nilusob sila ng Ansel Cavalry ng dukutin ako ni Valan.

I had been silently wishing for their safety. At the same time, I am wishing for this to end.

Nakarinig ako ng mga yabag sa labas ng kwarto at kalaunan ay nagbigay ng ingay ang pintuan ng may biglang nagbukas nito. The next thing this person did was to turn on the lights and I immediately covered my eyes to block the beam.

Lumapit si Valan sa gawi ko at may nilagay na tray sa kama.

"I was instructed to deliver your dinner at this hour," he said. Inayos niya ang tray at kinuha ang kubyertos saka ibinigay sa akin. "You have to eat, your Grace. You haven't eaten since lunch. The Queen prepared this cuisine to replenish the nutrients you've lost."