Poeta de meia tigela

particular hell

years and years I've been healing myself
wondering when i'll feel well
age keeping increasing by the time
so why don't i be fine?

i heard someone talking again
"go to the church they'll save your soul"
but when the wave cames
I've been alone again
no one will ever notice

so time pass by me
and another person say
"stop the medication, it'll destroy your brain"
but i just ignore and keep living my life
taking meds, doing sports, having hobbies, cooking
doing my things like its a silent "save me" sign
but why i'm always feel tired?
suicide keeps coming in my mind

can a soul be saved in this world?
because i can see it
lefting my body
going to home
founding something to live
its like a dream

but I'm trapping on a nightmare
my particular hell
the devil would fear my mind as well

08.11.22