Daggers of love

chapter 44

The lights of Vegas danced like fairies on my corneas. The smell of gas, sex and booze consumed my nose as I tried to take deep breaths. Everyone else was tripping on cloud nine, the visuals mesmerizing to them. although Marcus was on the verge of an overdose, he seemed to still be enjoying himself, now stationed in the front seat.

I didn't have the pleasure of having such an amazing trip, though I was calm, I wasn't in bliss. The wonderlandians where back, my self-awareness angering them slightly. I felt like Alice when she wondered through wonderland, mean comments spouted at me by the creatures as I tried to admire the lights. The only person who conveyed any sort of kindness was Alice herself, not out of character but also not expected.

"I wonder why I feel so bad?" I speak, not sure if it was said out loud or in my head.

"Your intuition Is stronger than most." Alice speaks, sitting on the car door as I lean against it just Infront of her. Her small figure looking like a doll to the untrained eye. "You can tell something is wrong. You can tell chico is on his way."

"I don't believe that." I look away from her, a wave of gloom washing over me as I continue to stare at the lights of Las Vegas. "You're lying."

"Your high, aren't you?" the Cheshire cat asks, appearing out of thin air, floating around me like smoke in the wind. "We aren't real. This is simply your conscious speaking to you."

"Or worse!" the hatter suddenly yells, spooking me to the point of jumping. "It's you speaking to you!" he lifts his hat, revealing a cup of tea which he promptly sips from.

"you'll never get Marcus with that drab look on your face." announces the queen, walking up next to Alice with a flamingo in her hand. all these tiny little creatures scattered around Infront of my face... maybe those drugs where stronger than I thought.

"Marcus seems to like my drab face." I furrow my eyebrows, slightly offended.

"You need to be more exotic! Like maria." The queen announces, pointing in the direction of maria. The rest of the creatures and I turn to look at her, also drugged out of her mind. I scoff, a feeling of resentment growing in my stomach forcing me to turn back to the city lights.

"I don't need to be like maria... I have my own way—"

"YOUR WAY?!?!" the queen shouts, the other wonderlandians covering their ears or hiding in their hats. "ALWAYS MY WAY!"

"Well, your way isn't gonna cut it!" I yell back, not as loud but loud enough for the queen to be shocked. "I've gotten this far on my own with my own self, I can go longer.... I can finish this."

"Well, you definitely won't be able to help him with finishing." The queen spat sourly, arms crossed and head held high.

"Excuse me?"

"What the queen is trying to say" the Cheshire cat comes in, floating around my head, voice in a dreamlike tone. "Is you can't exactly help him with his...hee-hee...manly urges...now, can you?" smug little fucking cat.

"He doesn't need my body to love me..." I defend, trying to sound brave but ultimately failing. "He loves me for me..."

"Let's hope so dear..." and with that the cat disappeared, along with the rest of the hallucinations. Suddenly my head is filled with thoughts, intrusive thoughts. Marcus doesn't need my body to love me... I don't have to do something I don't wanna do... Marcus would never be that shallow.

I break out of my spiral by the car finally coming to a halt, we have reached our destination. Great, now time to change and ultimately act the role I was bought here to play, the scapegoat.

"Alright!" billy started, putting the car I park. "Everybody out!"

"Billy?" I yell out from my seat, still trying to bring myself out of that toxic Mindspace.

"Yes, my little ravioli?" his response causing my brow to furrow. Back at it again with the stupid unoriginal nicknames I see.

"Be a doll and grab my stuff for me, I need to go change." Finally getting out of the car, I lift my head up, looking at my new surroundings. The drugs have pretty much worn off by now, that final chat with the Wonderlandians most likely being the last of the drugs. Everything was still bright, just a little bit dull. While on acid, Vegas looked like a fairy-tale world, a place for the gods. But a now mostly sober me was seeing what Vegas really was, an over lit playhouse with dirty streets and even dirtier people.

"Can you see my DNA?" I hear Saya ask from behind me, forgetting she's still on drugs I look at her in confusion. Thankfully the look on Marcus's still overdosing face reminded me of their current condition, allowing me to make the rational decision of going over to them and pull Saya away from taunting Marcus any further. Sadly, maria was there, googling her pretty little eyes at Marcus. "everything's gonna be ok now."

"Remember, you promised to have fun." Maria teased, "seductively" moving her head along with her words.

"Ok ladies," I spoke, lightly grabbing each of them by their shoulders. "I think its time you went and had the fun you both promised to have. I'll help Marcus through his highly traumatising high... VALLET!" I yell, signalling for the worker to come over to me, missing the very obvious glare maria gave me as her and Saya walked away. the young man seemed rather spacey, timid if you will.

"y-yes ma'am?" he stuttered; eyes wide as he tried his hardest to keep eye contact.

"Help me with this idiot, would you?" the young man nodded, watching as I began to turn away, well that was before I realised, I needed more info. "Oh, by the way. where's your closest rest room?"

"r-right inside ma'am, security c-can help you."

I smiled at him, turning away yet again, grabbing my shit from billy. after telling billy to look after Marcus, I went to security, asking them to escort me to the nearest changing room or rest room. I'm assuming, they recognised me, or just thought I was hot, because they helped me right away, even bickering between themselves as to who will take me.

Finally, I was escorted to a change room, it was fancy, way too fancy for a place like this but at least they know how to treat V.I. P'S.

Time to change, I guess.

A/N

sup guys, sorry this chapter is so sort and shitty. 

hope your all well, and ill try to get back onto my usual writing scedual. 

have a  good day. 

(also if anyone has some good ghost (COD) x reader fan fics please send them my way)

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