I was surrounded by a void dark and empty
Was I asleep ?
Dead?
Whatever was happening wasn't normal but here I am . Among the void were stars , I had always been obsessed with the idea of something so enchanting yet scientifically boring. To me stars were hope they were memories and freedom but to logic they were just balls of burning dust and gas . But right now they were just glowing orbs floating in among each other.
I reached out for one my hand brushing against its light it expanded and grew into a window of sorts
I peered through it
And suddenly I was back
Back to sixth grade science class
Working on a project with a very pretty girl
But back then I convinced myself how wrong it was to have such thoughts if only sixth grade me had known who that girl would turn into cause now we are dating
And we have grown and helped each other along the way and I wouldn't have asked for it to have gone any other way .
I am pushed out of the memory and back into the void .
Another star approaches me and it blooms into another window and I am brought back to the day I met another , volleyball tryouts, both of us anxious about trusting neither of us knowing how great of friends we would be , I would tell her everything and she would do the same . And again I am luckier than ever to have met her .
Just like before I am brought back into the void as I reach out for another star it blooms into another window of the past bringing me to look at my phone screen . Talking to someone who is now more of a brother to me than Any of my siblings ever have . We Guide each other and watch each other grow . Again I am lucky
And when I reach for the last star close to me it sends me to the day I came crying to my sister not of blood but by choice I came crying and she just hugged me until it was all gone and her smile made everything better .
The memory is gone to soon and I am back to the void the windows that opened up to me circle me and surround me in an embrace that only feels of one thing
One thing only
And that is
Home
The billions of stars I didn't get to bloom and swirl and I watch my life play out in each
It reminds me how I got here
And how lucky I have been
To be surrounded by the warmth of those who
Care .
YOU ARE READING
For now ... I will be ok
Short StoryI've been going through it lately so i wrote this to help me feel better, sometimes the best way to find joy is to look for it in moments that don't truly exist Moments that you crate out of the depths of your mind because , the real world is too...
