My thoughts are staircase
They go down
Down
And down
I start with one thought and they jump to the next faster than they should
Am I dramatic?
I just want attention
Maybe I'm the problem ?
Everyone would be better if I just
Stopped
I'm just complaining
I don't deserve these people who are kind and caring
What if I am the manipulative one ?
What if the people I call evil aren't the villains and I'm just playing victim?
Maybe if I stop talking about all my so called issues maybe other people would be happiest
And I can't say a thing as I feel all the thoughts topple on another
Am I gaslighting myself ?
Is all this just an excuse ?
For
Attention
Love
Whatever it is I don't know how to keep myself from this spiral I get into
Am I dramatic for wanting
Help ? Or telling people my problems
I don't t know
And I want answers but I'm too scared cause what if all these thoughts are just me unconsciously looking for attention.
What if I'm the monster ?
I just want to believe people when they say I'm not the villain of this story
I just I want to know if I'm the horrible person my mind tells me I am
Is that so much to ask ?
If it is I'm sorry for asking for such a taxing thing
But if it isn't
Can I please know ?
Can I just have an answer? No matter how simple it is
I just want
Some form of reassurance
A/n : I have too many thoughts and sometimes they all jumble together like today so here is the product of it
YOU ARE READING
For now ... I will be ok
Short StoryI've been going through it lately so i wrote this to help me feel better, sometimes the best way to find joy is to look for it in moments that don't truly exist Moments that you crate out of the depths of your mind because , the real world is too...
