I stood infront of the little girl she had almost white blond hair she was so small I was scared she would break if I got closer
I could play dumb about where she came from or who she was
But I knew who she was
I know her story
A little too well
She walked up to me her eyes were full of stars she was so bright" what happened to me?" She asked while she looked over my appearance
" well sometimes we can't always see what is happening around you and you don't always see the flaws of those who make themselves out to be heros "
She nodded as I spoke
" you look so dull " I nodded at her comment
" yea it is really hard to keep up appearances when you go through a rough time but I promise that there are people out their who will notice your dullness even when you can't and those people will help you glow again "I saw tears fill her small eyes " I'm scared "
I want to protect her from all the monsters and all the pain and everything that happens I want her to grow up knowing that she is amazing and knowing that she deserves life
I embrace her tears spilling out of my own eyes " I promise it isn't all bad , you cut your hair and meet people who care and trust me things are different but they aren't absolutely horrible , you will find out what pain means but you are also gonna find so many moments of joy "
She looked up at me
And whispered
" I wish I could protect you from all the mean things you say are happening I wish I could bring you back with Me "
I nodded " I do too but I think I am right where I'm meant to be right now I care about a lot of people in my life and they need me and I need them "" but what about my family?" I pause at her question " well maybe it's for the best that you find one instead of staying "
She looked away
I know the thought of it was hard to grasp . The concept of needing others more than your own family is strange to think about" before you go I need you to do something for me no matter what goes on In your life, from now on I am gonna need you to just hold on , you have to stay , stay no matter how much it hurts and stay no matter how much you want to leave cause I promise you that your gonna find things that make staying worth it "
She nods " I think I can do that "
She turns around to leave but stops
" so ... we are gonna be ok ? "
I nod
" yea kid we are gonna be just fine "And just like that she's gone
I mourn the loss of that little girl some days the innocence I used to hold and I wish that I could actually go back and tell that girl to hold Onto whatever light she can , but I made it without anyone telling me and she can too
And I find that I have grown so much
I have become a new person
And I hope she knows that tooCause I wasn't lying
We are going to be just fine
YOU ARE READING
For now ... I will be ok
Short StoryI've been going through it lately so i wrote this to help me feel better, sometimes the best way to find joy is to look for it in moments that don't truly exist Moments that you crate out of the depths of your mind because , the real world is too...