I can't see the sun
It's dark
There's something blocking out the only light
I have
I don't know where to go
But that feeling is Familiar
It always has been
I'm constantly stuck
Torn between
Wanting more and finding my place
There is mediocrity in all I do
No task I complete is ever fully correct
But it's good enough to pass off as
" ok"
I float aimlessly between groups
Never knowing where I belong
The silhouette that blocks my sun
Isalso familiar
It carries thousands of pounds of weight
That I seem to bear
But no matter my efforts
I will never reach to level this shadow casts
Upon me
And the looks of disappointment
Bring me sorrow because if I could
Look in a mirror my face would carry
The same expression
I'm supposed to be better than this
Yet I can never seem to figure out
What I'm supposed to do
No matter how much instruction
I am given the wires of my brain
Don't connect
I draw blank after blank about things I should know
Where do I belong ?
The shadow seems to taunt me m
Mocking my lack of skill
It crushes me
The pressure
Makes me crumble to the floor
And now I must decide
Should I get up and hope I can lift the
Shadows weight ?
Or shall I stay in the floor
Destroyed by it's presence
If I rise
It might crush me again
But is it worth
The pain
Or should I let my self
Be trapped in the hood of
This shadow for good
YOU ARE READING
For now ... I will be ok
Short StoryI've been going through it lately so i wrote this to help me feel better, sometimes the best way to find joy is to look for it in moments that don't truly exist Moments that you crate out of the depths of your mind because , the real world is too...
