Beneath The Konoha 👀 💦

Hinata Pov: Ch-20

"Did you bring it?" I asked Sai as I climbed into bed laying on my back. "Yes, I did." He pulled out 2 gummy edibles and handed them over to me as he got into bed too. I liked the way that these made me feel way better than liquor ever made me feel.

Me and Sai took them together and then I flipped over to my back. "I miss us." He then went to lie on his stomach next to me and agreed with what I said.

"I miss us too." That made me smile. "You were the 1st one to make me feel welcomed when I joined team 7. Your aura was just so inviting and warm Hini."

'Hini' was my nickname for him he's been calling me that ever since the day I met him 4 years ago. When I first encountered him it seemed as though he was... Closed off in a way but with me being me I didn't let that bother me. Besides, I felt bad for him because it seemed like he was only useful to replace Sasuke and once he had helped them it seemed like he was no longer of any use to them. That made me real angry.

Yeah, he was here with us in the Leaf Village but also people still treated him like an outcast. "I asked Ino and the other girls a thousand times to just give you a chance. But I don't know... They're still sorta off."

He smiled. "I'm not upset about that they all still aren't used to me. Besides I'm happy with our relationship. I never expected us to grow this close."

I never expected us to grow this close either. To be honest Sai was the boy best friend that I never knew I needed. I opened up to him about so many things that I never even told the girls. I would never even tell Naruto about these things either. That's just how much I loved and trusted him which is why this was gonna hurt me even more. "Sai I know about Neji."

There was a thick silence that covered the entire room. He quickly sat up on the bed to look at me. "Hinata I wanted to tell you so many times but I-I talked to your father and-and-and I talked to your cousin-" I cut him off to stop him from rambling.

"It's okay Sai. I'm not mad at you at least anymore I'm not." I sighed still laying on the bed. "My father thinks that I'm weak and he hurt my feelings in the worst way possible. He treats me as though I'm some type of abomination." I grew silent again as I looked up at the ceiling ahead. "I'm done crying Sai no more tears. All my life I wanted nothing but to make him proud of me. I craved for him to adore me the way he adores Hanabi. I just wanted his approval or at least some support. But all he ever does is berate me and make me feel like I'm lesser than. So now I'm done."

I looked over at Sai his face looked shocked as if he had seen a ghost. "Sometimes I wish that bad things would happen to my father for all the things he has put me through. I never knew that I could have such dark feelings but... He angers me, and also Naruto."

Sai still sat quietly. "You must think I'm horrible now huh?" He quickly shook his head and looked me straight in the eyes. "I understand your anger Hini."

He began stroking my hair softly. "I will never judge you. Please know that." His voice always soothed me. "These thoughts that you're feeling aren't as bad as you think they are. You're just fed up and that's understandable. You have the right to feel what you are feeling okay?" He kissed me on the forehead.

I nodded softly as I felt tears in my eyes. But I quickly wiped them away before they could fall down my eyes. "Am... Am I ugly?" This made him gasp.

"What? NO!" I sat up and looked down at my body. "Do you think my breast and thighs are too big?" With me asking him that made him angry. "NO!"
I sunk my head. "Maybe it's my hair?" I touched it. "Or maybe it's my stomach?" I touched on that also.

I gasped when I touched my face. "Maybe it's my f-" "Hini cut that shit out now!" I turned to him with my face whimpering. "I know that I'm pathetic I know I am but I... just want him to love me the way that I-I been loving him all of my life. I just... want him..."

Sai then grabbed me leaving a space between us and looked me straight in the face. "There are other guys in the world! You're smart, you're beautiful, you're strong, you're compassionate, you're sweet, you're selfless, you're inspiring, you're kind." I looked away from him but then he moved my face to look back up at him. "You're the most wonderful being that's ever been placed in this world and if your father and that dickhead can't see it then oh well it's their loss, stop giving them so much of your power! You can and will rise above all of this. Understand me Hini?"

After that, he pulled me in for a big, big comforting hug which was what I needed. "I love you so much Sai. Please don't ever break our bond." I said to him gently. "I love you too." He held me. As crazy as it sounds Sai was my safe space especially since I felt like I didn't have one. He was the person that I could always run to when I was scared, sad, happy, lonely. Any and every emotion that I ever felt. I could come to him and share them. Which was shocking because I thought that I had nobody for that like no one. So this was a nice feeling for me to have.