Give Me Love // jemi

chapter 26

(Demi's pov)
I was angry. at joe. at myself. at the world. who just picks up and leaves their family. he didn't tell me where he was going or why. he said he's explain when he got back. he has 1 year before he has to go back to Afghanistan. And he said he might not be back before then.

I'm trying so hard to keep my life together. I'm trying to juggle my job, and raising a newborn all alone. Selena helps, she watches him when I can't. But I mostly have to drag him everywhere I go.

Joe does call every morning and night to check on us. I try to sound happy because I can't tell him how I really feel.

I want to understand why he's doing this. He always says he'll tell me when he gets back but I'm not sure I can wait that long.

He seriously just picked up a month after Tristan was born and left.

it's been 2 months. and Tristan is 3 months old. he can laugh, giggle, he's so big. it's hard to understand why joe would want to miss out on that. what's so important in Grand Rapids that he had to leave us?

I started to cry and break down. I then called Selena and asked her to come over. She always does when this happens.

Selena walked in immadiently and picked Tristan up out of his swing. This has been becoming so frequent that she now has a house key.

I sat on the couch and cried while she took care of my son. I'd been neglecting him for a minute to have a cry.

She fed him, changed him, and put him to sleep. Then it was time to take care of the big baby... me.

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