Just friends?

Chapter 61

"Yes. It's hard to explain but I'll try. It's like... It's so wild, if you know what I mean, but at the same time so beautiful. The flashing, and later the hard sounds.

It's starts peaceful, kind of, with a flash, and then the wave of sounds hit. And at first it's far away, as if it's doubting to come, but then it can be gone for a couple minutes before it's back, heavier than ever."

"When you describe it like this, it sounds very beautiful, and it sounds like something you would be fascinated by."

"Now I think back at what I said, it feels like I described the thoughts that went through my head when I wanted to cut, you know. The waves, the doubting at first, the two different sides."

"Do you still do it?"

"I don't anymore, but I feel like I've just described it."

"You're strong."

"I love you too."

THURSDAY

We both wake up from Lando storming in our room. "Come on guys, wake up, we have to leave!"

"To where?" Pierre's voice sounds hoarse from his sleep, and it makes him 10 times hotter.

"We're going laser gaming."

I walk to Lando and hug him. "Is this to cheer me up?"

"No."

"You're the world best liar."

"Thank you. Okay, but we have to leave in ten minutes or something. So Pierre, get your ass out of that bed!"

"Yeah, I'll be on time."

He wasn't(:

It was so much fun, Daniel and Max came as well, Alex had boyfriend duty's so he wasn't there. We played in teams, obviously my team, with me, Lando and Max won and Pierre will know it.

"Bye Sky."

I hug Lando. "Bye, thank you so much for being here today, yesterday and my whole life."

"Of course I'm here, you can always call me."

"I know, bye."

"See you next week in Monza. Until then, all the best."

"Sky, can we talk?" I turn around, facing Pierre, who is like 3 centimeters in front of me. I stare into his eyes. "Earth to Sky?"

"Oh ehm yes. What did you ask?"

"Can we talk?"

"Not before this." I cup his cheeks and kiss him. He kisses me back, hard.

"Yes we can, about what?"

"Just the mean comments. I thought, maybe you can put your account back to private again? I think that that would help a lot."

"I nod."

"Have you ever been to therapy? I mean, for what happened in your childhood, and all your thoughts and stuff."

I feel myself tearing up again. Pierre takes my hand. "It's okay, you can let it go."

I shake my head. "My parents never let me go."

"That's so wrong of them, would you like to talk with my therapist once?"

"You have a therapist?"

He gets a little bit shy. "Well uhm, yes. I wasn't in the best state after Anthoine had passed and I got placed back to Torro Rosso."

I hug him. "That's not something to be ashamed of Pierre."

"We can call a different one if you don't like speaking to a person that knows me."

"No, you don't have to."

"And I could come with you, if that makes you feel safer."

A/N: Now only 2 more chapters to the end...