Did She Make It To The Emergency Room ? ( Chris Motionless Fan Fiction)

27. (Final Chapter)

*Chris' POV*

The doors slammed, right in front of my eyes, the love of my life, screaming in pain, lying across a bed, screaming she hates me for this, I know she doesn't mean it. All pregnant woman say it.

I never wanted to bring a child into this sick twisted, cruel, fucked up world. A child deserves better, but it's what Blaze said she wanted, as much as I disagree, the reasons she gave me I couldn't possibly deny letting our baby girl into the world.

Sure, I wish none of this we're going to happen, I wish the big man in the sky did what people believed, he made all the good, everything pure, so that Blaze wouldn't of ended up with the shitty end of the stick, so she didn't have cancer, but he doesn't exist and to believe he could just snap his fingers and make everything better is just a comfort for everyone, praying, begging, to what ? I just hoped Blaze would be fine as well as our baby girl.

I could hear Blaze scream. Her sister was in there with her, she refused to let me in there, father of the baby and all but Blaze in the hospital, I'm not aloud to see her.

"It's going to be okay, man." Rick said, panic and worry clear in his voice. "That didn't sound reassuring..." I mumbled. Rick pulled me into a hug. "I'm sorry." He sighed. Balz came running in, Angelo, Ryan and Allie behind him. Devin and Rick came together, Lyl and I were in the car with Blaze. Allie ran through the doors, everyone watching her go.

Ghost was pacing, Ryan and Balz were sitting, fidgeting and Ricky and I standing near the doors.

It seemed like years before Allie walked back into the waiting room. "I had to leave, Blaze said she didn't want her friends in there just Incase." Allie sounded defeated and she went and sat on Ryan's lap and let a few tears flow. "Incase what !?" I asked when she'd calmed down but that just set her off again, I grabbed her by the shoulder and shook her, "INCASE OF WHAT ?!" I shouted. "Dude, calm down." Ricky pulled me away. "Incase she died..." Allie sobbed. I felt Rick tense up behind me and everyone came to a frozen state. My mind went blank, I don't know for how long but when it snapped back I slammed through the doors and ran, I didn't know where she was but I looked in every room, I kept running before I was hit with the force of a truck, Lyl had ran into me and latched herself to me, sobbing. I didn't know why, at first I thought she was happy for us but then she started hitting me in the chest. "THIS IS YOUR FAULT !" She pushed me with force, kicked me and hit me. "SHE IS FUCKING DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU !" She shouted, punching me weakly in the face. "No." whispered I ran past Lyl and down the hall, I kept running, until I was stopped, by a doctor. Blaze's doctor. I had forgotten her name but she remembered me. "No, Chris, she's gone." Her voice cracked and she fought back tears. I found the nearest wall and sunk to the ground, I covered my face with my hands and sobbed, Blaze's doctor sat down next to me and pulled me into a hug, for some reason it was comforting. I don't know how long it had been but I had stopped crying and Blaze's doctor pulled back. "Sage..." She smiled. "Huh ?" I asked. "Blaze knew what was happening Chris, the last thing she screamed at me when they took her to the ER after the delivery was to tell you she loved you and the baby's name was Sage Olson Cerulli." She wiped a few stray tears away before helping me on to my feet and guiding me down the halls, the signs I read said we were heading in the direction to the birth wing, where the babies are kept.

"She's the third on top row from the left." She said when we reached the room where the babies where taken care of. "She's so healthy Chris, it's...amazing." She smiled while patting me on the back. I walked into the room and the nurse inside asked me which one was mine I told her and asked whether I could take her to the waiting room to meet a few people. She nodded her head and told me I could have her for an hour and under the circumstances I could take Sage home tomorrow. I wheeled the small baby bed down the halls. I opened the doors to see everyone there, Blaze's parents, all of The Other Side of Dawn and everyone else who was here before that. I looked around for Lyl, she was nowhere. "Where's Lyl ?" I asked, before letting anyone come near Sage. "We haven't seen her, we thought she was in there with Blaze." Balz spoke up. I bit my lip to stop it from quivering and everyone was silent. "Blaze... She uh... She didn't make it." I swallowed my tears back. Blaze's mother collapsed into her father and Ricky came over to me while everyone else had their own mini melt down. "What's her name ?" Rick asked, I could tell he was distracting himself. I laughed "She was fucking dying but she stopped to tell them the name of her baby anyways." I laughed as a few tears streamed my face. "Sage." I smiled and said louder so every one could here. "Her name is Sage Olson Cerulli." I smiled. That's when Ricky broke. "S-she... My.. Her name." He sobbed out. "I know... I know." I wrapped him in the biggest hug possible. "Dude, she loved you so much, you were like her brother." I patted his back. "This was her sign of telling you she loved you, she named her own flesh and blood after you, man." I laughed, he sobbed against my chest and grabbed at my shirt. "I know...Ricky, I know." I tried to soothe him. He pulled away and squeaked out an apology before running out of the hospital. Sage looked so much like Blaze, I'm so glad she didn't inherit my huge nose like I did from my mother. She had my eyes, my exact eyes, but the rest was all Blaze. "Sage." I smiled down at my sleeping baby girl. It then hit me like a fucking train. This tiny creature in front of me was the reason my fiancé was dead. I pushed the bed out of my way and ran out of the hospital. I ran, I didn't stop I just kept running, eventually I saw Ricky, he was sitting on a bench with his head in his hands. "Rick..." I mumbled, he looked up at me, his cheeks were red and puffy. "I loved her." He sobbed, I knew he meant like family wise. "I know, so did I..." I mumbled. "Where's Sage ?" He asked. I scoffed. "Chris, no." He sighed. "You can't do this !" He shouted at me. I shrugged him off. "THAT IS YOUR DAUGHTER." He shouted louder shaking my shoulders. "She killed the love of my life, I couldn't care less about her at the moment !" I shouted back, walking away from Rick, stumbling across a bar of course I had to get some drinks, sitting down in a booth towards the back of the bar by myself I was approached by a waitress. "Hey, my buddy at the bar said you looked a bit... Well sad." She smiled sitting on the other side. I looked up at her, she had dark purple hair with a front fringe and a black bandana tied around her head, she had stretched ears and tattoos. "Do you really wanna know the truth to why I'm sad ?" I laughed, downing some of the shots I had ordered. "I'd like to try and help, I don't want to bud into your personal life.." She mumbled. "My fiancé, who had cancer, just died delivering our baby girl." I scoffed. Her face drained of all colour and she came and sat next to me. "Tell me about your fiancé.." She kind of asked like she was seeing if she had permission. "Her name was Blaze, she's had cancer since she was 18, she had to take medication everyday." I sighed. "That's what any normal person would say..." I mumbled, This waitress lady rubbed my arm comfortingly. "But the way I saw her... She was beautiful, she seemed to be able to pull off anything, even no clothes, she had the most porcelain skin and her hair framed her face perfectly when she straightened it, she wasn't judgemental about much and she was very easily accepting of people who were... Well different, she got along with all my friends and eventually they became her closest friends too. She took risks while she was sick and didn't really give a shit even though it freaked me out, most of all... She made me better, she made me view the world differently, people differently, even music.." I mumbled. "What's your name ?" I asked the waitress. "Uh.. Well I prefer to go by Anne.." She smiled. "What's your actual name ?" I laughed, looking at her face. "Don't laugh-" she sighed. "Never !" I scoffed. "Amethyst.." She mumbled. "It's suits you," I smiled. "Power, protection and healing, right ?" I asked. She nodded her head. "It's pretty." I sighed. "And I already know your name." She shrugged. I looked over at her confused. "I have a seventeen year old sister who I live with and she really enjoys your guys music." Anne smiled. "Well, I might just have to meet her sometime." I smiled. All of this was taking my mind off everything and to be completely honest i'd rather this then to drink myself unconscious. "Well I was about to go home to the apartment we share before Jeff told me you looked a little bummed, she's always up, I mean.. Sorry I shouldn't of even suggest-" she was about to apologise before I cut her off. "Well, take me there." I smiled at Anne. "Really !?" She grinned like crazy ! "Of course, it's better then drinking myself unconscious, right ?" I said. "Right." She smiled.

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"What's here name ?" I asked Anne on the way up the stairs to her and her sisters apartment. I could see Anne smile beside me, "Electra, her names Electra..." Anne sighed. We reached a door with the number 702 on it, Anne unlocked the door and shouted out to her sister telling her she had a guest. "Is it Benji, cause I swear I told that kid to leave me the hell alo-" she stopped mid sentence when she saw me. "Hello Electra." I smiled. She looked over to her sister for an explanation and like she was crazy. "I told him you were a fan of his music, he offered to come meet you !" She said in her defence. "Hi Chris." She smiled and waved. "El, take Chris to see your room." Anne said while making a tea in the kitchen. Electra looked at her like she was crazy. "Hey ! Don't give me that look, he'd love it !" She laughed. "This way.." Electra mumbled. Electra had similar hair to her sister but blue, she had lovely grey eyes, her septum was pierced and Labret. She opened her door and I gasped, this kid had a great sense of music, her walls were covered in Bleeding Through, Cradle of Filth, Slipknot, Marilyn Manson and one of Motionless In White, her walls were red and black and her bedspread was white with paint splatter. "Niiice." I smiled. "Do you mind ?" I pointed to the bed and she shook her head. I sat down on the edge. "I'm not a freaky fan girl, I swear, I enjoy the music more than your looks or personality, no offence." She smiled slightly, she wearily sat down next to me. "I won't bite." I laughed, she seemed to relax. "So what's wrong ?" She asked after a few minutes of silence. "What do you mean..." I tried to play it off. "I can sense it... I don't know I have like a six sense for these things.." She laughed nervously. "My fiancé just passed giving birth to mine and her baby girl." I sighed. "Wow... I'm so sorry..." She hesitantly leaned over and hugged me, I turned more and hugged her. "Your a cool kid.." I smiled, she pulled away from the hug and she was blushing. "Thanks, not many people seem to think so." She laughed. "Fuck them.." I smiled. Electra looked down. "I have these friends at school who are totally obsessed with you and the other members of MIW, they were talking about Blaze and they showed me pictures, I sketch okay sometimes and... I hope you don't find this weird but I couldn't get how perfectly and symmetrical her gorgeous face was.." She faded out, walking over to her desk she pulled out a sketch book, turning to a page she held it up. It took my breathe away... I walked up to the page a touched her too real looking face. "I-it's...wow." My voice cracked. "You can have it, I've already scanned it." She whispered. "Really ?" I looked up to meet her gaze, through my year filled eyes. "Of course !" She smiled and touched my shoulder slightly, she grabbed a plastic sleeve off of her desk before carefully ripping the page out of the book and handing it to me. "Thanks Electra." I hugged her again. God this kid ! "Okay well I think Im going to go to bed if you don't mind.." Electra said, fiddling with her shirt hem. "Before you go to sleep do you mind if we take a photo ? " I asked. "I'm not wearing any make-up... But okay." I hadn't really paid attention but Electra had no eyebrows... She drew them on like me, I smiled to myself, she was an awesome kid. We smiled for a photo and I bid her goodnight and goodbye. I walked out to find Anne her tea sitting beside her with her head in her hands. "Everything okay ?" I asked. "Yeah..." She smiled. "Just tired, y'know ?" She mumbled. "Definitely." I laughed. "I'll let you get to sleep then.." I hugged her, I wrote down my number before giving it to her. "Electra is an amazing kid, I'd like to talk to you both again, please contact me." I smiled before making my way out of the apartment building.

God this has been the worse day of my life.

The love of my life is dead.

I have a baby girl who at the moment I could not care less about.

I lost the best thing to ever happen to me.

I really don't want to be here.

Maybe I can sleep for like 3 years or something...

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Fuck that was hard to write.

Attaching myself to characters is a bad idea.

Well the Sequel will be up not long after this.

The Sequel should be in my works but it's called "Strip My Mind."

I'm sorry if this wasn't the ending you were hoping for but I had this planned since the start.

Love you guys

- Motionless in Taz x