Did She Make It To The Emergency Room ? ( Chris Motionless Fan Fiction)

21.

"...aaaand here we go." Ghost sounded.. Determined ? 

We were at the door, Devin's hand was on my lower back, keeping me from running. "Knock." I said impatiently. Ghost just walked, "it's my house as well." He rolled his eyes, he pushed me in with him. "Chris !?" Devin called out. "Coming !" He yelled, Chris quickly descended the stairs, he was wearing an old white t-shirt that had a few, what looked like paint stains and other stains and some track suit pants, his hair was pulled back from his face with a hair tie. "Devin, I can do this myself." I grabbed his hand and removed it from my back, he kissed my cheek. "I'll be in my room grabbing a few things." He smiled before ascending the stairs. Chris motioned for me to walk through the hall first to the lounge room, I did.
"Sit." He said. I sat down and he sat beside me. "I'm sorry about how I reacted, but obviously you already knew that, I just wanted to say that... Mostly your sister, but a few other people, have given me a better perspective on things. I'd never stop loving you though, even if we had of split because of this, I'd still love you, you've made me cherish the little things I used to take for granted more, you made me realise all the little thing my friends did by pointing them out, you made me enjoy everything more." He grabbed my hand and squeezed. "So...you're okay with...her ?" I said putting a hand on my stomach. "I'm fine with...wait HER !?" He seemed shocked. "I'm just feeling it to be a girl, I won't know for sure until my next scan." I sighed. "Okay well...can I show you two something ?" He smiled. "Uh...yeah.." I said unsure. He grabbed my hand and helped me upstairs. "Please don't kill me." I joked. "Oh I will !" He Laughed, we walked into the room next to Chris'... The practise room ? Chris opened the door and motioned me inside, everything had been taken out of the room, the floor had an old stained white sheets all over it, paint buckets everywhere. The walls had all different colours on each wall, all similar pastels...sounds weird but it fit together. One wall was pastel green, the next pastel purple, then pastel blue and last pastel pink. "Wow." I sighed. I tried to suck them up but my eyes started getting watery. There were little block letters painted on the walls, a gorgeous red Rose on the blue wall. The one on the green wall looked exactly like Ange's style of drawing, it was a lovely smiling moon. I placed a hand on my slowly growing stomach and wiped my tears away, I hadn't realised but I'd walked further in the room to inspect everything, when I turned around, they were all standing there. Everyone. I was so overwhelmed I nearly collapsed, instead I slowly sunk to the ground and cried, oh so happily. I looked up and everyone had sat down around me. "I missed you guys !" I laughed through my tears. "Oh baby girl !" Ricky exclaimed throwing his arms around me.

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"I'm sorry, I forgot your name again..." I mumbled embarrassed. "Kylie." She smiled. I looked back at Devin and he gave me a thumbs up. "So how long have you known Devin ?" I asked her. "Oh nearly a year now we've been talking." She smiled. "Oh..." I smiled.
A girlfriend.
Well, a possible girlfriend.
God.
I was really overwhelmed and I got up and ran upstairs into Ange's room.
"H-help." I stuttered. "Again !?" He asked worried. He came and picked me up before I fell and lied me down flat on the bed before locking the door. "You know I have to-" before he could finish I nodded my head vigorously. He removed my coat and long sleeved shirt, leaving me in a singlet. "Blaze, calm down." I nodded. "Breathe." I took deep breathes. Ange went to the bathroom bringing back a cold towel and placed it on my head, I was still shaking and breathing bad. "Think of the baby, the stress and lack of oxygen isn't good for it !" He tried. "Her." I squeakily corrected him. I thought about her it calmed me down instantly. There was a knock on the door. "Ange, let me in !" Chris boomed. I shook my head and started getting worked up again. "Calm down !" He shouted at me, sometimes it was the only way. "ANGELO !" Chris shouted louder. "Chris ! -" Angelo shouted "- SHADOW ! FUCKING GODAMN SHADOW !" He shouted, Chris stopped banging instantly.
"Water.." I croaked out, Ange handed me a bottle and made me take a sip. "You okay ?" Ange asked after my breathing went back to normal. "Shadow ?" I asked. "Kind of like our safe word for all is fine but need to be left alone..." Ange mumbled. "Oh..." I said, I latched onto Ange's hand. "What happened..." He asked. "Everything hit me at once, just overwhelmed I guess..." I shrugged. "I remember the first time that happened and I freaked out but you talked me through what to do even though you were having an attack..." He smiled sadly. "Oh god, in the hospital..." I laughed. "Wow...feels like long ago doesn't it..." He sighed. "A lifetime..." I mumbled.

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"Whyyyy..." I mumbled into Chris' shoulder. "Please ?" He begged. We were currently lying on Chris' bed, he goes back on tour tomorrow, secretly and honestly I'm freaking the fuck out. "Fine." I whinged. I walked to the room and picked up a paintbrush. I didn't know what to paint but after a while I definitely knew. A personal touch of ours that is different.

After 2 hours I had finally finished. I walked downstairs to where everyone was sitting around and caught all their attention, telling them I was done. They followed me up the stairs, Chris' hand on my lower back. I stood outside the room.
I heard a few gasps and Allie screech, running out she nearly tackled me. "I didn't know you could paint like that !" She seemed so happy.
She gripped my hand and pulled me into the room, Chris had his hand over his mouth staring at the wall, where I had painted my touch. "Wow Blaze...wow.." Ryan seemed flabbergasted. "Agreed." Ricky nodded. "Holy fuck." Devin said. "Thanks guys." I blushed. I walked over to Chris and reached up to his shoulder. He turned around and lifted me into his arms. "It's amazing." He whispered.
I had painted two beautiful brown eyes, adding a smudge of black to make parts darker, the white for the whites and black for the outline of the eyes, a few cute little freckles under the eyes in red, eyebrows in black and in an arch above, the lyrics 'Your eyes lay lost in all the city lights...'
Cliche I know but it's the only thing I could think of suitable for a baby and the band that I could paint !
I turned around and everyone had left but Chris, "I love you." He whispered walking towards me. "I love you too." I smiled.

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"BLAAAAZE !" I heard Ricky yell from upstairs, I jumped of the lounge and jogged my way up the stairs, I walked to his room, thinking he was in there. Nope. "BLAZE !" I heard him yell from what sounded like chris' room. I walk down the hall a bit and step into
His room, I've been staying here so some of my stuff is here, a few of my clothes, my make-up, laptop etc. Chris had gone out with everyone else to get food for dinner. "What ?" I asked confused. Ricky held up a small book. "NO !" I screeched running towards him to get the book.
" I grab at my sheets like they're the people who have hurt me over the years,
Twist and turn like it will make these feelings disappear.
Rip at my hair like it will make all this stop." Rick read aloud from the book.
I sighed and Ricky continued.
"I SCREAM AND I SHOUT. BUT NO ONE STOPS, IT'S LIKE I'M INVISIBLE AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS GO BACK."
Ricky took a deep breath, I just wanted to shrivel up into a ball and die.
"YOU WERE MY OXYGEN AND WHEN YOU LEFT: MY LUNGS COLLAPSED AND MY HEART BROKE." Ricky read that last and then it hit me all again. I broke down into tears and screamed at Ricky. "HOW COULD YOU GO THROUGH THAT ! GET OUT ! GET OUT ! GET OUT !" I repeatedly hit him on the chest, grabbing the book out of his hand. I threw on a hoodie once he closed my door, put on some tights, socks and my sneakers. I grabbed my iPod and earphones, leaving my phone behind, I grabbed the book which had a pen attached to it and ran out of the house, my earphones blaring the first song that came on shuffle, it just so happened to be a Cannibal Corpse song, Stripped, Raped and Strangled.
God I felt like strangling Ricky at the moment, I shook the thought from my head and slowed my slow running to a walk.
I was nearly there anyways. I reached the park, the snow covering everything but I climbed to the top of the jungle jim anyways, a tree just so happened to be right next to it so I leant against the trunk. I took the lid off my pen and began to write in a book I had not touched in months.
'They say "There's no place like home."
But what if your "home" just feels like a house..
An empty house full of crappy people...
If my "home" is just a house.. Does that mean I have no home ?'

I wrote and wrote as I heard sirens in the far off distant that blocked out every other sound, even the soft ruffle of leaves on the tree behind me.

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Okay really long authors note,
I'm sorry I have not posted in what is probably over a month, I haven't kept track of it, but I have a kind of valid reason. My Nan past away a couple weeks ago and I just have found the effort to update, plus I have like a thousand school exams because end of school year, sorry ! I feel really bad and this chapter is really crappy but I'll get back into the swing of everything soon, promise ! But I love you guys so much wow thanks for getting this story to 10K, Im writting the next chapter right now and whenever I have spare time, which isnt much but im trying ! 
*Please don't use/steal the things "Blaze" wrote without my permission because I wrote them myself and yeah...*

-MotionlessInTaz x