Did She Make It To The Emergency Room ? ( Chris Motionless Fan Fiction)

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"Hiiiiii !" Miles waved happily at me as I opneed the door "Oh thank god !" I just about screamed, hugging Miles. "What's wrong, little one ?" Miles laughed and looked at me confused. "A lot." I sighed. His eyes darted to my cast. "What the hell Blaze ?!!!" He seemed almost angry. "I lost my temper, UGH I hate pregnancy, Miles ! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it." I sobbed into his chest after we had sat down on the couch. "Think about it this way. In a few months times there will be a minuture version of you and Chris running around here and as much as I don't want to think about it, weather or not your here, the child will be loved and cared for and will be one of the greatest things you do in your whole life time, at least this is what you said to me in your big speech love. Think about it. I mean really think about it." Miles kissed me on the cheek and then left via the front door, without a word.

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I woke up in my bed, what i thought had been a few hours later, but soon found out it had been over twenty four hours. "Blaze ?" I heard Lyl whisper and her head stick through the gap where the door had been slightly a jar. "Yeah, I'm up." I mummbled running my hand over my face. I heard Lyl take a shakey breathe. "I think you should come downstairs." She sounded like she had been crying. I got up and nearly fell over. Groaning in pain I sat back down on the bed. I turned on the bedside table lamp and looked down at my feet. Swollen. Great. Just what I needed. I stood up more slowly this time and leant on things to take the weight off of my feet more. I used the handrail and wall to assist me down the stairs. I could hear quite chattering from the lounge room. I had my parents bring the boxes of my things to the house the day after Chris asked me to move in but I hadnt unpacked them. They were currently spread through the house, in the rooms they would go in but not unpacked, still in their boxes. My parents sit on the couch. My sister standing opposite them. I sat in the single chair next to Lylith. Mum had a tear streaked face and was nearly asleep in my fathers arms. "Hun, Your Aunt Eddie has passed away." Dad said. My chest tightened. If you've ever expeirienced the feeling of loosing someone close to you, you'll understand. The tightening in the chest. Everything you can remember about them runs through your head, you try and think about the last thing you said to them. Before you realise it you have already started crying. There is two ways you can take somone passing away. I'm always the 'I want everyone to leave me alone because I need to get over this on my own and I'm sick of constantly being asked if I'm okay' side of it. My sister stands behind me and my parents in front of me. Before I can even process the thoughts I hear a bunch of noise outside and the door open. My parents get up and leave without a word to anyone. I can hear them all talking in the front room. I couldnt care less at the moment. I dont remeber what happened next. That's whats wrong with it all. Everything is a blur. Your head and heart and chest and just everywhere aches. The memories of my mothers sister run through my head, the countless times we had gone to her little house beside the lake, played countless amount of hours with her children. How well she took a liking to Lyl, she was so accepting of everything, any fuck up I made, she would be the first person I'd run to, before I had lyl of course, when she got sick it was much like this, a little less heart breaking. It hurt more when she requested she be moved into a hospitial and she didnt want anyone but my parents to see her. That was three years ago. She suffered for three years... now everyone who knew her is suffering. She made an impact on anyone she knew. "Chris ?" I mummbled out when I finally came back into reality. I saw his figure come around the corner and he picked me up from my curled in a ball position. I sobbed into his chest as he carried me up the stairs and into our room. "I've missed you." He mummbled once he had lied down beside me. He moved a stray peice of hair out of my face, I huddled up to his chest. "Don't go." was the last last thing I whispered before falling asleep. Sleep cures the mind when its full of defeat.

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The next two months were a blur, more baby check ups. Family visiting. The funneral. More family, even some I hadn't met before. Chris' family came and stayed for a few nights, lovely people. I was in such a state that I didnt remember anything that wasnt too important. Nightmares started back up, I hadn't had them since I was first diganosed. It was like a freight train hit me in the fucking head. 4 months of pregnancy left. Today though. I feel like I've finally woken up from a comatose state. I woke up next to Chris and it didnt feel... wrong... boring. It felt like things had finally slid into place, I felt the baby kick and I remember the happiness it brought me.I felt like I was finally paying attention to everything, the little things.Chris stirred next to me, his eyes slowly opened and I smiled. "You are back." he mummbled, probably the happiest I'd ever heard him. "Huh ?" I mummbled. "You've been gone two months." He sighed, placing his hand on my stomach. "What do you mean, Chris ?" I asked confused. "This is the first day in two months that the life has come back to your eyes, where you've smiled at me when first waking up. I've been making you eat and shower and pretty much do everything for the last two months, it was like you were somewhere else, Blaze. You scared the fucking hell out of me. But... you're back." A huge grin spread across his face and he jumped up, running to the door he opened it. "BLAZE IS BACK EVERYBODY, WOOOOO !" He screamed like it was the happiest thing to ever happen. In a matter of seconds everyone was in our room. I couldn't help but smile like a looney. "Can we talk, please ?" I grabbed Ricky's hand and walked out of the room, after everyone had been in our room talking for about an hour. I walked into the babies room. I gripped Ricky so tight I was surprised he was breathing by the end of it. "You really are back" He seemed shocked. I nodded my head. I sat on the small lounge that was up againt the oppostie wall of the cot. I knited my fingers through Ricky's. "What I need to tell you is going to hurt." I mummbled. He kissed my forehead. "I know." Ricky mummbled. "You, you need to be the one there for him if I do okay ? Don't let him turn into what i've been for the last two months, Ricky, please dont let him do that.-" I nearly started crying. Ricky squeezed my hand reasuringly. "He'll need you more than anything Rick. You're the only one that will know what he is feeling." I nodded. This is what I needed him to know. I needed Ricky to know that he is my rock so when I'm not here he need's to be Chris'. "I know, love, I know." He mummbled pulling me into his chest. We sat there in silence for a while. Just in the company of each other y'know. Soon enough there was a knock on the door. I sat up and looked to the door. "We're all going to go out for lunch, Blaze I don't know if you remember but you have to use your wheelchair but Ange had kinda... done it up." Lylth laughs. I shake my head and laugh, looking at Ricky for reassurence. "He really went all out." Ricky laughed. I walked downstairs with help to see the chair sitting at the bottom. The back of the chair was facing me and it was fucking awesome. The picture was amazing. It was a skull with a spider coming out of its mouth. It was kick-ass if I do say so myself. I thanked Ange and was soon ready to go out for lunch. Everything was slowly peicing itself back together.

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