As it was

Chapter 1

Chapter 1
I Aliyah Susari, I'm 15 years old in grade 11 and If I were to describe myself with one word it would be confusion. I don't really know how I am but I'm 100% sure that everyone hates me and I'm not saying that for attention or anything, I actually mean it. I wouldn't blame people lol, I'm rude and arrogant but it's only because I hate my life and to be honest I wouldn't say I'm one of those depressed, ungrateful kids. I'm actually very thankful for whatever I have, but something this life makes me want to kill myself. I strongly believe it's the people around me that make my life so hard. I barely have friends but somehow I'm known and the only people I speak too are Willow, Charity, Prince and Naya
And honestly most of the time I talk to prince about all my problems. He's my best friend, he listens to everything I have to say especially about Jaden I genuinely think I'm a different person I'm quiet when I'm with certain people and I talk a lot when I'm with certain people, it depends. At the end of the day I would rather be by myself. I love me time and my mother does not understand that, I love my mom and all but at times she gets on my last nerve but I know she means well, there's no one in this world that I love more than her. We've been through a lot of shit. Speaking of my mom she is the best mom anyone could ever ask for, even though she can't she will get me anything I want. I wouldn't say I'm spoilt but I get whatever I want from my mom if possible. She also teaches me that even though I can get it, I should know that hard work was put into getting that certain thing. She's always like "Do this, do that because I got you this" I don't really mind because I know how hard my mom works. She even got me into this "great school" and I don't want to sound ungrateful or anything but Craig's academy is a shitty school. The students, the teachers, everything is shitty that side. Whenever I get there I feel sick to my stomach. I hate that place. If I could I would change schools but the thing is that other good schools are very expensive and I don't want to burden my mom with all those things, she has already gone through a lot. People there are sensitive as fuck and annoying too. They are so fake to each other that they literally make the word toxic. Luckily for me it's school holidays, that means I don't get to see those bitches for a whole month which is pretty cool but then again school holidays are pretty boring for me considering I only have 4 friends and they are busy most of the time. Even though willow and I live 20 minutes away from each other we barely get to see each other because we're both lazy to get to the other person's house. And then there's charity she goes to a boarding school, whenever she comes home for the holidays we get to do things together. I love it when I'm with her, she makes me so happy, and it's unbelievable. There's also Naya she's amazing honestly, she's just like me. She complains about everything and we understand each other. Our friendship is mostly based on social media. I feel like Naya understands me a lot. Then there's prince my best friend. If anyone knows me they know him. I always talk about him, our parents even thought we were together at some point. Prince is the best person I've ever met in my entire life, he is like an older brother to me and I really look up to him. I'm so proud of him. I've never loved anyone in that way. It's more of a friendship way. I always love him. He always tells me what to do and somehow he's always right. I'm not quite sure on how we became friends. One day we just became close and that's it. I love how simple our relationship is. Our parents are also friends his dad and my mom are close too, for some time prince and I thought they would date but no they are just like us. Prince and I used to go to the same school that was before I moved to Craig's academy. I thought our friendship wouldn't last but it did especially after December 2021.