Christmas dreams

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Mia POV

He was going to kiss me. I was going to kiss him. What on earth is going on? A few weeks ago I was so unbelievably mad at him and now I'm
Nearly kissing him. It has to of been just the song, it messed with our minds. That's all, with everything I've been through recently I can't even be thinking about Chris like that.

I walk through to the kitchen and see Luca and Chris sat at the table.
"Hi Mia"
"Hi sweetie, are you okay?"
"Yeah. Me and dad are going to mummy's grave to give her flowers and I'm just finishing my letter for her"
"That's so nice. I'm sure she appreciates it"
He looks up at me and smiles "do you want to come with us?"
"Thank you but this is something you and your dad do together"
"Please dad?"

Chris looks up at me and smiles "your more then welcome to come"
I nod "okay, let me get my coat"
I grab my coat and my phone and head out with Chris and Luca. We pull up to the grave yard and Luca takes my hand walking me over to his mums grave. He stops and smiles at me. He takes the flowers from Chris and places them down by the headstone and then places his letter down too.

"Hi Mummy, I bought someone for you to meet"
He waves me over and I kneel down beside him with Chris behind us.
"This is Mia, Mia this is my mum"
"It's so nice to finally meet you"
"Mum, Mia is one of my favourite people in the world. She takes really good care of me and loves me just as much as you do. She is the best Mum in the world"
I look shocked at his words, I look up to Chris who smiles and wipes away a tear.

I wrap Luca in a hug and kiss his head.
"I know I never got to meet you Alice, but from
Everything I heard about you, I know you were an amazing person. And you would have been an amazing mother. Luca is incredible and I know that's thanks partially to you. He has your kindness and your compassion. I hope your looking down at him and feeling so proud of the young man he is becoming. And I hope I'm doing a good job for you. I promise I'll always protect him. I feel like he was meant to come into my life, him and Chris and I'm so grateful everyday that I met them that day in the park. Thank you for giving birth to this amazing kid."

I stand up and take Lucas hand, he kisses the headstone and as we pass Chris I reach out for hand giving it a squeeze. Silently telling him to take his time. He smiles and kneels down beside the grave. I walk Luca back to the car and we sit playing random games waiting for Chris to return.
"Mia?"
"Yes mate"
"Thank you for taking care of me and dad"
"Your welcome sweetheart. Thank you for taking care of me too"
"I'm so happy we met you"
"Me too"

The door opens and Chris slides back into the car, he wipes his tears but I can see his eyes are puffy and red. I reach across and take his hand giving it a gentle squeeze. He squeezes it back and keeps a hold of my hand on the drive home. I try not to let the butterflies effect me but my stomach is turning. Having Chris hold my hand like this is making my heart race.

As we pull up back outside Lisa's house, Luca runs off inside and as I go to get out of the car, Chris pulls me back.
"You okay?"
He nods "thank you for coming with us"
"Of course, I know how important she was and is to you Chris. And it means so much to me that you would want me to come with you"
He takes my hand again "your important to us too Mia"
I smile "your important to me to Chris, you and Luca"

We sit there for a while, chris holding my hand and rubbing his finger across my knuckles. It feels nice, peaceful and warm. For the first time in a long time I feel okay. But I know that will end when he leaves. And I don't know how to deal with that.