Christmas dreams

Mistake

Mia POV

It's been a couple of weeks since Christmas and I haven't seen Chris or Luca or any of the Evans family. I've felt awful for avoiding them but I can't be around Chris right now. It wasn't until I saw him with Lucy that I realised how I felt about him. In order for me to get over him i need to stay away just for a little while. I've been in the bathroom for an hour, I can't stop being sick. I don't know what is going on with me.

I barley have the energy to get up when I hear my front door open.
"Mia!!!" It's Scott, he walks into my room and looks into the bathroom. Seeing me on the floor.
"Jesus, are you okay?"
I shake my head "I don't know what wrong scott"
"Come on. Let's get you to the hospital"
He helps me up and takes me to the car, wrapping me in a blanket and placing a bucket on my lap. As we head on inside the hospital, I feel like I'm on fire.

The doctors take a look at me while Scott waits outside. I made him promise not to ring Chris.
The doctors do some tests and set me up on a drip to rehydrate me. Scott is allowed in and he is sits by my bed holding my hand.
"How are you feeling?"
"Not great. But better then I was"
The doctor walks in and he looks over at me "you have more colour which is good."
I nod "so from the tests I can see that your pregnant"
"Pregnant?"

He nods "yes, around 4 months from the look of it"
"No. No I can't be. No."
Scott wraps his arms around me holding me tight "wasn't planned then?"
Scott shakes his head as I sob into his chest.
"She was raped"
"Oh.....I'm so sorry"
I can't speak I'm crying so much I don't even know what to do. How could I be pregnant? How could this be happening? I thought I'd finally escaped all of this.

We sit in the bed for a while, scott just holding me. When the door swings open and I see Lisa.
I look to Scott and he shrugs "I had to call someone Mia"
I nod and Lisa walks over to me holding me close. "I'm so sorry sweetheart"
"I don't know what to do mama"
"Oh honey. You don't need to worry about that right now okay?"
"How could this be happening? Why is this happening?"
I sob more and she holds me closer.
"Your not alone okay. We are here for you.

After a few hours the doctor allows me to go home, he gives me pamflets on adoption and explains how it works. I already know I'm past the window of abortion so I have to have this child. I'm not ready to be a mum and I don't know if I could be a mum to a baby that was created in such a violent manner. Scott and Lisa take me home and as we pull up I see Chris's car sitting there.
"I don't want to see him or tell him right now please"
Lisa looks confused but nods her head.
"Scott go get rid of him"

"Okay"
He gets out and walks over to Chris, I see the conversation getting a little heated so Lisa gets out and speaks with him. He calms down and gets back in his car and drives away. I slowly get out of the car and Scott helps me into the house. I sit down on the sofa and look at the paperwork in my hands.
"Mia?"
I look up and see Lisa standing there "do you want a drink?"
"No I'm okay thank you"
"Okay"

She sits down next to me and rubs my back "I know this is scary but I'm here for you okay? Whatever you decide to do"
"Thank you Lisa"
"Always"
"I don't know what to do. This baby was created in such a violent way, could I love something that was created that way?"
"I don't know sweetie. I do know you have the biggest heart of anyone I know and if you do decide to have this baby and keep it you will be the most amazing mother. And this baby would be so loved"
I start to cry again "it's okay sweetie. Let it out"

I curl up and lie my head on Lisa's lap, she runs her fingers through my hair and eventually I fall asleep. With no idea what to do next.