Christmas dreams

Christmas Time again.

Mia POV

It's December and Christmas is a few days away. Chris is coming home today, it's been really hard without him here. I've missed him and Luca so much. I've buried myself in writing over the last few months. Just trying to keep myself occupied. The trial was a few weeks ago and he was sent to prison. Chris couldn't be there but I had the rest of the evans clan there to support me. He actually seemed remorseful for what he did. He apologised which I know is ridiculous. But he seemed sorry when I saw him.

It was hard to face him but I'm glad I did. I felt empowered for standing there and telling the court what he did. Telling my story has also helped many woman. I was on the Jimmy Fallon show not long after the trial and I spoke about it openly. Jimmy was an incredible support and I have been receiving messages from other woman and men who have gone through abuse and rape.

It's been heartwarming to read the messages I have received telling me how they are so grateful for my strength because it gave them the strength to come forward too. I finally have some time off so I'm enjoying spending my Christmas with the Evans again. I visited my sister not long ago and it was lovely to see her and Avery again. Things were awkward but I'm determined to make an effort in keeping in touch. She is the only family I have left and I don't want to lose her.

I've not long arrived at Lisa's and as I walk in scott grabs me and pulls me into the hall closet.
"Scott what the hell?"
"Don't you what the hell me. What's going on with you and Chris?"
"Nothing why?"
"Come on Mia. I saw you both nearly kiss"
"You did?"
"Yes"
"Nothing happening scott it was a lack of judgement and it's done"
"Seriously?"

"Yes. I just want to enjoy Christmas okay"
"Fine"
We walk out and I go and help Lisa in the kitchen. She hugs me and we crack on with sorting out food. A few hours in and I hear the door open, I see Luca come running in and he sees me straight away.
"Mia!!!"
"Luca!!!!" I pick him up and spin him around.
"Omg look at you, your so big"
"No I'm not"
"You are. I've missed you dude"
"I missed you too"
He squeezes me tight and then runs to hug his grandma. She squeezes him tight and he smiles big before running to find Scott.

I see Chris walk in and he smiles widely at me. I walk over and hug him tight.
"Hi"
"Hi"
We hold each other for a few minutes before I hear a voice behind him.
"Babe, wanna help me with this?"
I look behind him and see a beautiful woman. Long brown hair, gorgeous face and legs for
Miles.
"Yeah sorry"
He helps her bring in the suitcase and turns to
Me and Lisa.

"Mum. Mia this is Lucy. She is my girlfriend. Luce this is my Ma and my.....friend Mia"
I feel my heart break in that moment. He had moved on, he wasn't interested in me. I smile and shake her hand "it's nice to meet you"
"And you. Luca has told me so much about you"
I take her bag "I'll put this into Chris's room for you"
"Thank you"
I walk away and place the bag on the bed before taking a deep breath.
I feel arms wrap around me and then I hear Scott's voice.
"You love him don't you?"

I nod and he hugs me tightly "what am I going to do scott?"
"I don't know honey"
I turn and he hugs me properly. I silently let a few tears fall before standing up straight and pulling myself together. This is stupid. He was never mine. I don't have the right to be upset.
"Are you going to be okay?"
"I don't know"
"I'm here okay. Always"
"Thank you"
We walk back down to the living room, I see Lisa laughing with Lucy and Carly and Shanna have arrived. They are all sat with her. They seem to like her. Even Luca is sat next to her. I look at the picture in front of me. A family.

I don't think I can handle this, so I quietly grab my coat and head home. For the first time in nearly 4 years I feel like an outsider. But Chris looks happy so I guess that's all that matters. Right.