Save Me // S.W

Chapter 13

I walk into to school looking dead as ever. I'm just wearing a black hoodie , light jeans , hair down , and black vans.

Cameron hasn't talked to me. Sam and I haven't talked since the other day.
Why do people bring me into their life's and then leave me hanging ?

I walk into first period.

"Remember Erin you have two detentions." The teacher reminds me.

"Yes I know." I roll my eyes.

The bell rings. I hurry to find Cameron.

I see him waking. I walk quickly to him.

"Cameron." I call out.

"Oh hey Erin." He doesn't look happy to see me.

"You mad or something?"

"Don't want to talk about it." He walks away. I walk away.

"Carter." I say walking up to him.

"Sup Erin." He says cheerfully hugging me. Finally someone is happy to see me.

"Have you seen Sam?"

"He never comes to school on the 25th."

"Really ? Why ?"

"He stays at the cemetery mostly all day." He whispers.

Oh shit his friend ! He probably passed on the 25th. I'm so stupid.

I ditch school and go to the cemetery. I walk around and then I notice Sam sitting down.

I walk over and sit next to him.

He looks up and his eyes lighten.

"Erin." He says.

"Sam." I smile.

He hugs me and kisses my forehead.

"Sorry about the other day."

"It's okay." I shrug.

"How are you holding up?"

"Alright , I just feel like its nessary to see him every 25th."

"That's great that you do."

"It sucks not having him here."

"I know."

We don't talk just stay quiet. Sam is just looking at the grave.

"I'm hungry lets eat."

"Alright." We both get up.

"You walked here?" He asks.

"Yup."

"It's so far from school." He says.

"I just wanted to see you and be here for you." I get in the car.

"Thanks Erin for everything."

" I should be thanking you."

"I like you a lot Erin." He finally admits.

I sit there frozen.

"Answer me." He whines.

"You can't Sam." I sigh.

"Why?"

"I'm not good , I'm not good enough , I'm messed up , I need fixing." I say.

"Erin you are perfectly enough for me , let me be your tool and fix you up." He pleads.

" I don't know Sam."

"Please Erin."

"Let's not worry about this. Let's go eat."

He finally gives in and starts driving.

We start eating. I see Cameron walking in. I get up to go say hi.

"Hey Cam."
He doesn't answer.

"Cam?"

"What?"

"Why have you been ignoring me?"

"No reason."

"Then talk to me."

He shakes his head and walks outside.

Really ? What the fuck did I do ?
I fuck up everything anyways.

I sit back down with Sam.

"What was that about?" He asks.

"I think he's mad."

"What happened?"

"I don't know."

He nods and gets back to eating.

"Are you ready to go?"

"Yeah."

"You barely touched your plate Erin."

"It doesn't matter Sam."

"Yes it does."

"Can we just go?"

"Fine." He sighs.

We get in the car. He begins driving. He grabs my hand and sets it on his thigh. We sit there. I look at our hands. When he touches me it doesn't feel real.
He brings happiness with just one touch.

Our hands stay like this until we get to my house.

"Sam." I finally speak up.

"Yes?"

"I like you to , but I don't know."

"What do you mean?"

"I fuck up everything I touch. I don't want to bring you down with me. I also don't want to get hurt." It feels good to finally say it.

"Erin I don't care if I go down with you at least I'm with you."

"I'm not good enough for you."

"Yes you are."

"Sam." I sigh.

"Please." He pleads.

"No Sam , thanks for bring light to my life. I'm just not good. Stay away Sam. I don't want to hurt you." I get off the car crying.

He gets off and follows me.

He grabs me and my head is on his chest.

I just let it all out and cry.

"Please baby don't cry." He kisses my forehead.

"I'm sorry Sam." I hug him one last time and go inside.

I hurry to the restroom. I do the same thing. Why did I let him go?
I really like him.